Aurobindo wrote that spiritual practitioners who don't share spiritual experiences seem to have a more steady sadhana. Based on my own experiences of not sharing mine for many years, I tend to agree.
In the Fall 2001 began describing my (undergoing) unsolicited Kundalini Shakti awakening experiences, while still very much in the process of constant 'cosmic makeovers', and trying to make some sense of it all during my participation on a forum with spiritually minded folks. I was very innocently talking about my mystical experiences mostly because I was under the impression others were familiar with what I was describing. . .
I knew I was in "good hands" and trusted this immense Force-Power-Light, still there were times I wished it would just leave me alone.
This path is not for the faint of heart! I suspect that because I was never proud of my spiritual experiences, the inner Shakti/Living Plume of Fire / Holy Spirit didn't get extinguished.
The year 2001 marked 11 years since my head 'lit up like the sun' for several minutes (in my living room in daylight) -- according to my frightened husband, who with shooing-away hand gestures during quick glances in my direction plead: "Don't do that I can't see you".
Once the dust settled he told me: "Your head was like the sun and I couldn't see you."
I had no idea what that was about, but in due times realized my screaming: What is REAL truth and Beauty!!!!!? had something to do with Eternity's (Divine) cry to be heard. . .
I saw from young age there was so much human suffering and it pained me to feel so helpless and unable do anything about it.
In Spring 1991 I attended 8 week-long spiritual development workshop with Rev. John White (.com) and it never occurred to me to ask what the sun/head incident could possibly mean.
In November 1993 I was Soul-guided to become a student-practitioner and master the art of hands-on-healing with Dr. Kiara Galbreath - and even then it didn't occur to me to ask her about it.
Sri Aurobindo wrote:
It is not sufficient to worship Krishna, Christ and Buddha without, if there is not the revealing and formation of the Buddha, the Christ or Krishna in ourselves.
This, these words point to something that is everyone's birthright! Every one is invited to participate in this Mystery. The world is in need of many conscious people!
I know that angry jeers, remarks about my "delusions", their shaming I suffer from 'spiritual inflation' is about them, about where they're at in their soul-evolution.
The following Aurobindo excerpts ring all kinds of verifying bells:
It is not personal greatness that I am seeking to bring down the Supermind. I care nothing for greatness or littleness in the human sense....If human reason regards me as a fool for trying to do what Krishna didn't try, I do in the least care...It is a question between the Divine and myself - whether I am sent to bring that down or open the way for its descent or at least make it more possible or not. Let all men jeer at me if they will or all Hell fall upon me if it will for my presumptions - I go on till I conquer or perish.
The following (on spiritual experiences) passages in Aurobindo's words, are with permission from Sandeep.
Experiences one's own or others' if one comes to know them, should not be talked about or made a matter of gossip. It is only if there can be some spiritual profit to others and even then if they are experiences of the past that one can speak of them. Otherwise it becomes like news of Abissinia or Spain, something common and trivial for the vital mass-mind to chew or gobble.
+ To show what is written about experiences or to speak about one's experiences to others is always risky. They are much better kept to oneself.
+ I have certainly seen and heard of any number of instances in which people were having a flow experience and, when they told it, the flow was lost. + I suppose however it ceases to apply after one has reached a certain long-established stability in the experience, that is to say when the experience amounts to a definite and permanent realisation, something finally and irrevocably added to consciousness. auromere.wordpress.com/2009/03/23/sharing-spiritual-experiences-with-others.
