Spirit Speaks

Oh dear, I didn't expect my second blog entry scribbled in Spirit Speaks (2009), titled Spirit Speaks *poem* would park itself at top of page (2023), after edit-expansion. I dare say it was a struggle to get going, yet filled with uncanny determination to disclose what introduced itself to the awareness of my non-biological Soul. . .so aware my writing skills are lame. . .painfuly aware of the burden of a duty to obey the inner call of my vocation. . . to bear witness to what 'genuine mysticism', is. Immensely grateful for encouragment by brilliant writers to keep going even when going got though. Not yet curious about Sri Aurobindo's work when I began writing here, as I was convinced his work is beyond my comprehension - because I read some call him "giant of consciousness" - but that changed when I got curious what the fuss was about, and to my great surprise discovered *once my brain got used to his terminologies* that 'I already know this, because this happened to me'!

One of those for-me-encouraging writers, was Ken Wilber - author of many books on human development and consciousness. The following passages are from One Taste:

"...all of those for whom authentic transformation has deeply unseated their souls must, I believe, wrestle with the profound moral obligation to shout from the heart--perhaps quietly and gently, with tears of reluctance'perhaps with fierce fire and angry wisdom; perhaps with slow and careful analysis; perhaps by unshakable public example - but autheticity always and absolutely carries a demand and duty: you must speak out, to the best of your ability, and shake that spiritual tree, and shine those headlights into the eyes of the complacent. You must let that radical realization rumble through your veins and rattle those around you.
Alas, if you fail to do so you are betraing your own authenticity. You are hiding your true estate. You don't want to upset others because you don't want to upset yourself. You are acting in bad faith, the taste of a bad infinity.
& "I don't mean to be harsh here, and we must honor all lesser engagements. Nonetheless, you must have noticed that the word "soul" is now the hottest item in book sales - but all "soul" really means, in most these books, is simply ego in drag. "Soul" has come to denote, in this feeding frenzy of translative grasping, not that which is timeless in you but that which most loudly trashes around in time, and thus "care of the soul" incomprehensively means nothing much more than focusing intensely on your ardently separate self. Likewise, "spiritual" is on everybody's lips, but usually all it really means is any intense egoic feeling, just as "heart" has come to mean any sincere sentiment of the self-contraction."
YES! I see it today - see the kind of silliness that passes for spiritual "Enlightenment", and cringe.

*My blog's avatar name 'theofilia' is made up, because I wanted to write incognito to keep cyber bullies off my back*

* In 2009 March 3, felt like scribbling Spirit Speaks - now in its expaned form begins with few quotes penned by a modern day Christian mystic, Bernadette Roberts*

"What the "no-self" event reveals is that union with God is not the end but the beginning of our life with God. The end of the journey comes many years after union."
"With years of selfless giving, the self is literally eroded away as God consumes more and more of the human being. Now, "beautiful, holy and strong." & "What remains now is the mystery of Resurrection, of Christ and the Trinity."
"Maturity, possible only through the grace of God. The Self, the mature human in a state of union with God, also falls away."
- Bernadette Roberts

I agree that Soul level Enlightenment/Liberation grounded in multidimensional evolution into wholeness and transcendence, 'comes many years after union'.
In this blog, I will attempt to describe to the best of my ability what happened *to me* on this path without a map. It includes descriptions of many types of mystical experiences in the subtle domain as well as Soul level Initiations, before one attains the Supreme Liberation, or the Final Samadhi.
Will begin by saying: My child-self was quite psychic already, already capable of being fully awake in dream states, already felt stirrings welling up within me compelling me to 'act' on them': Like the time I drew a large circle and standing in its middle gazing intently upon sky's star-studded canopy, feeling in every fiber of being a sense of incredible 'immensity', and a sense of deep yearning to know something my child's mind-heart/the evolving soul personality had no access to. . .didn't know then, that I was born with unbroken continuity of awareness and in due time, in this incarnation, my eternal self-Soul will fulfil her 'ancient plan' by Grace-bestowed descends of Divine Peace, the descent of Force or Power, the descent of Light, the descend of Ananda/Divine Bliss. Sri Aurobindo confirmed for this for me: "One feels the Force only when when one is conscious of contact with it."

In 94' I wrote Spirit Speaks, not yet written from the fully embodied level.

We are Earth, Fire, Water and Air
We are many names and faces
Many loves and hatreds.
We are beggars, we are royal
We are Serpent the knowledge giver (Kundalini Shakti)
We are blind, we are wise
We are dark and light
We are . . .
Contorted past
Land heaving
Waters churning
Sky watchful
Sublime beauty revealed
Spirit manifest
Exalted, mysterious
Forever more blessed be!
Is it you and me?

Finally!

Finally got around to edit^expand^tweak
now 'good enough'
The Way of the Supramental Yoga, scribbled in 2021
&
Finally, got around to tweak/edit-improve
Immortans Tread Earth With Mortal Feet
& while at it changed the title to:
Bridging the Gap.

Blaming My Ways on Karma 2.0

Master science, or Yogic Supramental science and its Depth data's evolutionary significance *couched within the written word*, flies under the 'reasoning' mind's radar. This is perfectly 'normal' for the earlier developmental stages and the reason I say, 'what I share is not everyone's cup of tea, so please ignore it'. What is 'not normal', is its insistence *by someone who doesn't know me, doesn't know my history, doesn't know/can't see what forces animate me* that, unless I 'go out into the world and ground the love in helping others', what I bear witness to *my contribution to the evolution of consciousness* is meaningless. . .Will such mind ever see that it is forcing upon me that which I have outgrown and back off?
Not as long its 'humility code' doesn't come on line.

What is it that I have 'outgrown', then?
My *free of charge* service to the world that arose spontaneously and powerfully within my interiority many years ago. Now the question arises: So even if the pride-mind sees a list of some of my 'grounding love' contributions, will it conclude, 'I don't believe her'? *in order to keep itself 'safe' from seeing its Ignorance?

I care not one iota. . . because I know who I am, I know that Depth's data viewed through a prism already familiar to it, doesn't 'supposed' to see value in what I share.

1. I worked 'for the environment' with other like-mind folks * planted trees, educated others, etc. *
2. Wrote tear-stained Letters to the Editor (which read more like 'essays'), opening mind-hearts to our species blindness resulting in harming ourselves, ignoring the needs of the developing countries and its horrific stats of children dying by the thousands from lack of basic needs, offering solutions. One of those letters our co-worker showed to my husband, with big grin teasing: "your wife wrote this". . .and then my husband said "yes". This guy knew me and I bet, if asked why he was surprised I wrote it, he would say what most people saw. . .a soft spoken sort with wild hair, slim figure and sunny disposition, (even) capable of confronting a violent bully who knocked co-worker/Joan's teeth out, *and 'paying' for it by losing our respect and job-loss* but writing something he found inspiring, was another thing.

May as well include a brief description of what transpired when I found out what happened to Joan - and how the 'surprising' aspect of my persoality trait I was born with which doesn't need anyone's permission to come out in all its fierce indignation glory*, inspired others to show the bully his violent act will not be tolerated.
Joan got her teeth broken because she was transitioning to becoming a lipstic and pink t-shirt wearing, woman. . .
After I told him/bully what he needed to hear and challanged to do same to me - he shook his head 'no' - the men in his department decided to show him they felt the same outrage I felt and proceeded to *creatively express it* in a shape of two large banners, one of which hung above the entrance door, the other above the punch clock. The banners included some of the words I hissed at him, as well demand he quits.
The boss thanked me "for what you did". I wrote this story in, The Green Eye Monster? *one of my early years posts*.

3. Donating money to a relgious humanitarian organization to help build a well in Africa.

4. 'Donating' time/energy to help school teachers.

5. Donating blood.

The stage I work from 'spiritualy', Sri Aurobindo expressed beautifully:
"But you are surely mistaken in thinking that we work spiritually for the relief of the poor. I have never done that. My work is not to intervene in social matters within the frame of the present humanity but to bring down a higher spiritual light and power of a higher character which will make a radival change in the earth-consciousness." + "It is true that I want the supramental not for myself but for the earth and souls born on the earth, and certainly therefore I cannot object of anybody to want the supramental. But there are the conditions. He must want the Divine Will first and the soul's surrender and the spiritual realisation (through works, bhakti, knowledge, self-perfection) on the way."
Quotes from, Complete Works.
Sri Yukteswar asserted, and I agree that: "The deeper the Self-realization of a man, the more he influences the whole world by his subtle vibrations and the less he himself is affected by it."
I wrote: The Liberated Soul / Conscious Partner of the Divine Beloved, becomes a perfect instrument through which the Divine Force-Power baptizes the visible and invisible domains of creation without uttering a single word.
The River Of Light Revisited, unpacks this 'Baptizing' topic in great detail.
* I wrote: Happily Blaming My Ways on Karma, in May 2020 - this post reads like 'part 2', hence same title.

Genuine Mystic Walks the Talk

Few months ago 'educated' man (on FB) who thinks he is spiritually enlightenened, informed me: 'you have no right to boast about spiritual experiences', insisted, the reason I do it is because I crave attention due to my parents' negelect and ardently urged to, "find someone who can help you with that". . .again and again asserted, "there is nothing to attain" since everything is "THAT" (his caps). . .this pride-mind told me he "worked" with me to make me see what real spiritual enlightenment is.

Let's see what Aeschylous 'walking orders' are for those who attained something the pride-mind has no choice but reject:
"It is the nature of the crowd to fear and misconsture whatever is truly great. It is the business of the crowd to spew derision on great things, wherever they touch them, even as the shallow tide swills upon the foot of a majestic cliff. Those who scale such heights must take care on looking back; every backwards glance is a downward glance, which risks plunging the climber's mind into a vertigo of confusion and doubt. Those who reach the summit are blissfuly deaf to the curses of the crowd, which die away far behind, below them. It is not wise to recognize their bloated claims, from the beginning, not tarry with them, even a short while, in wasteful conversation, which often appear as friendly provocations but turn spiteful soon enough.
Do not suppose they can be satisfied by an appeal to noble impulses, hard evidence, or genius arguments. Simply put, they are determined not to strive; thus the more uplifting your motivations, the readier they are to imagine fault in them. The crowd cannot help themselves. Compelled to fuss over every jagged point, they want nothing more than to drag all loftier spirits down with them, into the muck of lowly disputations.
Triumph, as they know it, would be their won failure validated by the failure of all others. Equally of the bottom of the pit is their own notion of a high ideal. Their insistence on discussing great matters is a farce, since they care only for refuting greateness itself, and bringing glory into disrepute. Loath to follow any line of reasoning beyond the first paltry objection, nontheless, they will not suffer a peaceful end in dialogue, but will continually alter the angle of attack. * Ideed, 'twas the silly man who said he "likes dharma duelling" with me, until he didn't and began attacking my character.*

When, after humoring them, and seeing that they refuse to go further, you do resolve to end the converastion, and continue on your way, they will say that it is you who lack the stomach for a spiritual debate. Such is the matter of crowds, and all persons who have given up their personal development, in order to think in common, with one, degenerated mind. Guard, therefore, your mind.
(Skip) If you could be wise, and someday stroll upon the bluffs, in a finer company of souls, then say your peace but once - twice, at most - and say no more. Let them bristle and slander as they will, casting about with a hundred , crooked curses, but finding no hollow to hook in you."

Let's see what Aurobindo wrote on seeing the value in what we/genuine mystic share:

"The Yoga we practice is not for ourselves alone, but for the Divine; its aim is to work out the will of the Divine in the world, to affect a spiritual transformation and to bring down a divine nature and a divine life into the mental, vital and physical nature and life of humanity. Its object is not personal Mukti, although Mukti is a necessary condition of the yoga, but the liberation and transformation of the human being. It is not personal Ananda, but the bringing down of the divine Ananda - Christ's kingdom of heaven, our Satyayuga - upon earth." +
"The true knowledge and descriptioon must be left to the language of the mystic and the figures, at once more vivid and more recondite, of a direct experience." +
"Do not be eager for spiritual experiences; for experiences you can always get, having once broken the barrier between the physical mind and the subtle planes. What you have to aspire for most is the improved quality of the recipient consciousness in you, discrimination of the mind, the unattached impersonal Witness look on all that goes on in you and around you, purity in the vital, calm equanimity, enduring patience, absence of pride and the sense of greateness - and more especially, the development of the psychic being in you - surrender, self-giving, psychic humility, devotion. It is a consciousness made up of these things, cast in this mould, that can bear without breaking, stumbling or deviation into error the rush of lights power and experiences from the supraphysical planes.
An entire perfection in those respects is hardly possible until the whole nature from the higher mind to the subconscient physical is made one in the light that is greater than the mind, but a sufficient foundation and a consciousness always self-observant, vigilant and growing in these things is indispensible - for perfect purification is the perfect Siddhi." (This) Last quote is from: intyoga.online.fr/exp-real,htm - previous quotes from, The Life Divine.

Let's see what The Tibetan Book of The Dead - Liberations Through Understanding In The Between *my book is pen-translated by Robert A.F. Thurman*, says about the 'voyager into the soul''s contribution to evolution of consciousness. From Glossary. . .

"psychonaut. A "voyager into the the soul," an apt term for the Buddhist adept, who voluntarily abandons the pseudo-security of this planet of delusion, with its solid ground of ordinary, individuated suffering, to launch herself through death-dissolutions into the subtle between-states to deepen her wisdom by exploring the unconscious and to expand her compassionate heroism by serving universes of beings on the subtle level, and then returns to the ordinary embodiment of the adept to assist her contemporaries."
P.S. I posted in Robert Thurman's Facebook page comment which included the experssion of gratitude for his work, ect., as well as 'fact-checking' link to one my riffs, and he 'liked' it.

Let's see in what sense descriptions of spiritual experiences are relevant - in Gopi Krishna's words from, Kundalini For The New Age.
"The men and women who have undergone this transformation and now have this expanded consciousness are known to be in the samadhi state of oneness with the cosmic consciousness. All the great mystics who have written on the subject have given their own symptoms openly and plainly. That is the tradition. And from their descriptions, one can compare one's own condition."