Solar Heart Initiation Revisited

Edit expanded 13/05
In its edit-improved form, Solar Heart Initiation penned in March 2009, is getting the bumped-up treatment.

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The title of this essay sounds symbolic, but when properly understood, it signifies the descent of Divine Truth.  Sri Aurobindo described what the 'spiritual Sun' represents:
The sun is the symbol of Divine Truth, it stands universally for the supramental light, the divine Gnosis. + It is the symbol of power of the inner or higher Truth. 
I had many types of Initiatory encounters with the Supramental Light, this is why I can only unpack a portion of how that happened to me in one sitting.
The ability to experience Ultimate Reality lies at the very heart of mystical experience - it is how we discover (as first-hand experience) the importance of Soul level Initiations.  In this blog I describe what the journey through Light and Sound was like for me, with the Intention it may be of service to someone who is serious about Soul level evolution into wholeness and transcendence.
Gopi Krishna asserted:
The illumined person must be able  to write what he has experienced and make that writing available to the world. + No one can describe the superconscious state unless  he has experience of it.  This is the most decisive sign to judge whether a man is enlightened or not. He must be able to give description of the superconscious state in words which are inspiring and which have an originality to their own.
Aurobindo said the same thing:
It is the descent of new consciousness attained by the ascent that is the stamp and seal of the Sadhana. Because the object sought after is not an individual achievement of divine realization for the sake of the individual, but something to be gained for earth-consciousness here, a cosmic, not solely a supra-cosmic achievement. The thing to be gained also is bringing of Power of Consciousness not yet organized and made directly active.

This is not about flaunting one's 'magnificence', such notion is utterly foreign to me, is foreign to every genuine mystic, because it comes from egoic conception.  It has nothing to do with 'boasting' , but rather about sharing spiritual wisdom with the Intention it would help mankind on its path to divine consciousness. . .It is about presenting empirical evidence which introduces itself to the awareness of one's eternal self-Soul.
One of the more intense experiences took place on an auspicious day in the Christian calendar, so naming this particular Initiatory Event was about affirming what actually happened.
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I was genuinely surprised when I heard on the news that January 6  was Epiphany Day. I never knew there was such a day in the Christian tradition - and wouldn't care in the least, if at dawn (January 6th) I didn't receive the most blessed Solar Heart Initiation. I recognized the significance of this Initiation and decided to see how 'epiphany' is described.
 From reference.com /browser /Epiphany - "Christian festival celebrated Jan 6 one of the oldest Christian holy days".  +  From another source?  "In the Eastern Church the waters are blessed on this day. The word epiphany means a manifestation, usually of divine power."

Description of what happened when my Soul beheld the Light of her Source and my reaction. . .
With the eye of contemplation (Spirit) I/Soul beheld the most breathtaking panorama . . .when I looked up, Sun's eye-dazzling brilliance filled  my vision... I gasped and uttered "oh my God!", because I became aware of its Significance.  The instant I acknowledged this, the Sun's Essence began its towards-me descent. When it reached my chest it morphed into large crystal-clear sphere and entered my being with a loud snap/burst-like sound.  .  .Now awake in this dimension my bliss-self kept chanting "Oh my God! Oh my God!"... tears of Gratitude sealed the deal.

*Edit-adding quote I chanced upon after edit-improving (Apr. 2019) this post:
Our souls should be like a transparent crystal through which God can be perceived.
- Saint Hildergard
* Edit-adding link to in 2013 penned Cosmic Synchronicity Confirmation
www.spiritspeaks-theofilia.blogspot.ca/2013/08/cosmic-synchronicity-confirmation.html

One of earliest appearance of the 'Supramental Sun', was witnessed in 1990 by my frightened husband - who told me that for several minutes my head was "Like the Sun and I couldn't see you" (indoors), during one of my passionate 'discussions' about the nature of 'Real Truth and Beauty.' During the minutes my head was 'like the sun', he kept shooting quick glances in my direction and with shooing away hand gestures,  pleaded: "Don't do that, I can't see you".
I had no idea  at the time what that was about and thought one day I will find the answer in some 'esoteric' book.
I had a variety of  other types of  encounters with the Uncreated Sun/Light and sensed it had something to do with the mystical realm, but  because I had no one to compare my experiences with, I claimed nothing.   By the time I discovered "by fluke" I had golden Light aura-field around my head and body, and a  finger-wide blue ribbon of light next to my skin  (in 94 and still have that journal scribble), I was pretty ceratain it had something to do with 'holiness' and named my aura-field 'Heavenly Robe'.
Confirmation from other (genuine) mystics began to trickle in:  I discovered Hildegard of Bingen, Netherlands Beatrijs van Tienen and Hadevijch of Brabant.  After that, Aurobindo's work confirmed for me what no other author could.  The following - in his words - a perfect verifying example  of my Solar Heart Initiation:

The meeting of God and man must always mean a penetration and entry of the divine into human and a self-emergence of man in Divinity. But that emergence is not in the nature of annihilation. Extinction is not fulfillment of all this search and passion, suffering and rapture. The game would never have begun.
 
This is why I have the courage to state I bear witness to true spiritual knowledge of Divine Reality. I have the courage to say I became more than human.  I am not the first, nor last to claim this.   I read that God-Radiance Union  is received by a "completely purified saint who has attained divine union."
Embodied Enlightenment  is the birthright of every Soul...but not before one goes through the baptismal of 'Purifying Fires'.
Those of us who already ride this Cosmic Solar Heart frequency, bear witness to this Truth.  This is also why we wish to remind anyone who wants to hear this:  'your eternal self-Soul is timeless and sooner or later, She will fulfill her ancient plan with your co-operation'.

I'm getting weary but will give another example of what 'penetration and entry of the divine into human and a self-emergence of man in Divinity', was like for me, circa 94' during hands on practice session on my Teacher.  What I felt words can describe, but can never convey what it really feels like to experience:  The descent of peace (Sat) the descent of Power (Chit) the descent of Ananda, these are the things that transform nature. It is not really the plane that descends, it is the Power and Truth of it that descends into the material and the veil between the material and it no longer exists.
 - in Sri Aurobindo's words.
Will start by saying I was (literally) Soul directed to become Energy Healer and became intensely devoted to this Practice.  That day - circa 94 - I approached the massage table in deeply meditative state to practice on our Teacher, Dr. Kiara Galbreath.   Three other students were seated and having jolly good time talking about teens and their habits during Florida vacation.  I was standing with hands resting lightly on teacher's knees...within seconds my hands began 'jumping' with electricity (shock-like) because a LOT of Energy was flowing through me. Minutes later my Crown chakra became the channel through which (what subjectively felt like) a wide column of Energy began flowing into me in rhythmic waves. This was one of those 'first time like this',  experiences,  and I was determined to stay in this grove as long as possible by taking slow deep breaths to accommodate the influx of  Divine Energy. Simultaneously, I was irritated by the noise/sounds in the room, because even though it subjectively felt  I was many miles away, the noise hurt my head -- so I asked for silence. Not even the woman seated at teacher's feet heard me. I asked again and again, until B. said I was asking for silence.  At last all was quiet and I became self-conscious about my deep breathing...and silently asked this Force to stop. Within seconds the Energy's rhythmic wave-action influx slowed down, then ceased altogether.  Next moment, in a blissful daze I walked over to the other side of the table, placed my hand on K.  Heart chakra and uttered: "The angels really love you".  "They love you too!", she exclaimed.  (We knew that 'angel energy' stand for the Divine).

Closing Thought: The Divine Light and its Treasury , or the Glory of the Absolute Supreme, is at hand and is within.  .   .Nothing is 'given' until the ignorance inside us fades.  Saint John of the Cross reminds us:
Before this Divine fire of love is introduced into the substance of the soul, and is united with it, by means of a purity and purgation that is perfect and complete, this flame is wounding the soul, and destroying and consuming in it the imperfections of its evil habits; and this is the operation of the Holy Spirit, wherein he prepares it for Divine union and the transformation of its substance in God through love. +  In thus allowing God to work in it, the soul...is at once illumined and transformed in God, and God communicates to it  His supramental Being, in such a wise that it appears to be God Himself, and has all that God Himself has. And this union comes to pass when God grants the soul this supramental favour, that all the things of God and the soul seems to be God rather than a soul, and is indeed God by participation; although  it is true that its natural being, though thus transformed, is as distinct from the Being of God as it was before.

Edit-adding: I revisited this topic in post titled Epiphany Day - Jan 6, 2010
www.spiritspeaks-theofilia.blogspot.ca/2010/01/epiphany-day.html

The River of Light Revisited

What I describe in this post is written from the perspective of (the)  "deepest state of the pure soul", as described  (and verified for me) by the Tibetan science on death and dying.  The Tibetan Book of the Death and Dying, is a scientific document. . .
My copy is translated by Robert A.F. Thurman with forward by H.H. the Dali Lama.
The following excerpt clarifies what the experience of becoming one with the River of Divine Light, signifies: (later will  describe the experience and include another quote from same source/page).

"Finally, there is the extremely subtle body-mind, where the body-mind duality itself is abandoned. This is the indestructible drop, called "the energy-mind indivisible of clear light transparency." Very hard to describe or understand, and not to be misconstrued as a rigid, fixed identity,  this subtlest, most essential state of an individual being is beyond body-mind duality; it consists of the finest, most sensitive, alive, and intelligent energy of the universe. It is a being's deepest state of pure soul, where the being is intelligent light, alive and singular, continuous yet changing, aware of its infinite connection with everything".

Before I describe what that was (still is) for me, these notes: Custodians of  Divine Revelations  have a moral obligation to bear witness to what introduces itself to the awakened awareness of one's fully ascended Soul. . .
Behind this intention lies a motivation to  carry forward  this 'ancient'  Knowledge into the modern  era and become the agent of empowerment for  spiritually minded aspirants.   I have an obligation  to show  that the Truth-Power of the Divine Grace,  reveals who we are within the depths of our being. To show, that the Transcendent is beyond time, and the Unmanifest is the Source of the manifest.
The 'ancient' Rig Veda seer didn't apologize for what he/she received  (God-Realization / Divine Revelation), and neither do I, because I know I earned what I received by fully submitting myself to the Supreme Divine...and then performing the Will of the Supreme Being.

O Flame, O Wine, your force has become conscious;
You have discovered the One Light for the many.
-Rig Veda 1. 93.4
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Today, I decided to revisit and upgrade - in 2010 written - The River of Light.  Its present 're-visited'  incarnation includes verifying material I was not aware of nine years ago. I will leave the original where it is,  and/but because this is quite a lengthy post, I will not include Sri Aurobindo's quote (here) from, The Mind of Light.
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Because the theme-subject of the highest integration and fulfillment is very complex, each post unpacks but a portion of what happens on this Path without a map.  The reason it is intensely complex, is because my accounts include descriptions of direct contact-experience with  the Kosmic Essence-Energy and its Forces, direct contact with the Kosmic Mind and first-hand perception of all the domains of existence.  These 'accounts' are Spiritual Sciences' empirical evidence.
This  opening statement includes quotes from the Tibetan Buddhism perspective , and Sri Aurobindo's statement on transformation / what needs to happen before one is ready for the Ultimate Erotic Union with the Supreme Beloved.
Will start by saying that only very recently I noticed in The Tibetan Book of the Dead (translated by Robert Thurman) that,  my experience of becoming/flowing out of my Crown chakra as 'River of Light', falls into the fulfillment of the highest perfection stage, category.
The following excerpt is from Glossary:
Sanskrit yoganaddha is the Unexcelled  Yoga Tantra name for Buddhahood, the fifth and highest of all perfection stages, indicating that relative and ultimate, individual and universal, body and mind, bliss and wisdom, male and female -- all dualities are integrated in this experience of fulfillment.

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(2010)  Today I brought from the library,  the only Aurobindo  book available in this system, titled The Mind of Light. To this day each time I read something penned by him, I am surprised. . .
For years I thought this man's work was far beyond my league, and wasn't even curious to see what his writing was about. This mindset changed when I allowed myself to be curious (the year I began writing here - 2009). Not initially,  but once my brain got used to all those new terminologies, I exclaimed,
 "I already know this because this happened to me!"
I didn't know anyone who  experienced  and wrote about (internet forums)  the things I did. I also  'claimed' nothing.  .   .This is why it was all the more exciting I  finally  had Sri A. writing to check/compare my Soul level (supramental)  Initiatory experiences with -- compare it with someone who got plugged to the domain of,  'I am absorbed in Celestial Samadhi lovingly attached to the Essence of the Supreme Beloved'.
This  stage is reached when one is in permanent Samadhi state and the Nervous/Chakra system uncoils to Infinity (literally) thanks to the awakened Kundalini Shakti and its activity.

I named Aurobindo my 'primary peer review person',  even before reading his autobiographical poems titled: The Bliss of Brahman, The Bride of the Fire, or Savitri. The subtlety of significance within the written word the open mind will see, as none other than 'the Communication of the Divine Logos from the source of its Nature without uttering single word'.
The line in Savitri: "A soul shall awake in the Inconscient's house, The mind shall be a God's vision tabernacle, The body intuition's instrument, And a life a channel for God's visible power", is a literal description of something that's not 'supposed to make sense', to the surface mind.
I also resonate with Gopi Krishna's work. Long before I became somewhat familiar with his work, I already knew that my mystical experiences were not the result of the subconscious' mind's dive into hallucinatory, wish-fulfilling formations.
The following excerpt is from his book titled: The Real Nature of Mystical Experience, confirms this for me.
In every case of illumination, mere visionary experience is not sufficient. It must be attended by certain objective signs to confirm it. It has to be remembered that in the mystical ecstasy the intellect remains active. There is no blunting of the rational faculty. This is repeatedly mentioned in the Upanishads. Reason has to be satisfied that the experience is not delusion.
Precisely.
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Description  of what the experience of becoming one with the 'River of Divine Light',  confirmed by one who knew-- prefaced by excerpt from The Tibetan Book of the Dead:

"the being is intelligent light, alive and singular, continuous yet changing, aware of its infinite interconnection with everything. It is beyond all instinct patterns of lust, aggression, or delusion, beyond all duality, one with reality, and one with the Truth Body of all Buddhas."

Today (May 2010)  I am bearing witness to what transpired this AM hour during Yogic/Deep Samadhi state which transcends sleep.  .  . I was on my back with hands resting on mid-body. When my Bliss body's ecstasy reached critical-mass-point, I beheld with the eye of contemplation (Spirit) a vast sea of diamond-white points of Light morph into a 'solid' River of Light...and its endless flow (sublimated Erotic Potency/ Shakti Force-Power-Light)  out of my Crown chakra into world's hologram via subtle planes (for the benefit of all beings in all domains of existence, for the benefit of evolution of consciousness itself)

The literal meaning of what I described is:

I Am Aware
I Am the Anointed & the Anointing One
Self-generating Bliss Of Luminous God-Force
In Loving Oneness With Everything
That's Arising
* The self-generating Bliss', refers to what the Vedas seers named "Soma".
In words of Gopi Krishana on the real meaning of "Soma"

"The real meaning of "Soma" refers to the internal process of sublimation leading to higher consciousness or Samadhi. Since soma is Sanskrit term its interpretation should be based upon the ancient Vedic religious beliefs, not the western assumption of drug use. There is no proof in the Vedas that actually mention any human drinking a herbal concoction" +
"The hymns of the Vedas  are symbolic allegories and shouldn't be interpreted literally, as the Vedas say directly that: "One thinks he has drunk Soma when they press the plant but the Soma the Brahmans know -- no one eats that."

As mentioned earlier one must be in permanent Samadhi state . . .During the 11 to 13 hours I spend in bed every day in a state of intense erotic ravishment (Erotic Potency flowing up and out of the crown chakra) , I am completely detached from 'feelings' because I am in a state of Peace that passes human comprehension...Well, except those very rare occasions when I return to my flesh body too abruptly and feelings get involved.
Soul Liberation is not well understood this is why I have a moral obligation to write about it by giving precise accounts of what happens during the many Initiatory phases. .  .
One who feels the Divine Presence and its governing Power  (manifesting in and through the body), understands perfectly its Nature as well as its action-influence in all domains of creation. We understand that the LAW (Supreme Light-Power-Bliss) that governs the Action-Influence is the Kosmic DNA. . .Without this most blessed Influence, there would be no evolution of consciousness.

We  understand what the term 'I have crossed the abode of life and death', signifies.
Those who submit to Divine Will, know, that at this stage-point in Soul evolution, we are performing the Will of the one Spirit in order to:
 effect a spiritual transformation and bring down a divine nature and a divine life into the mental, vital and physical nature and life of humanity. +
It is not personal Ananda, but the bringing down of the divine Ananda - Christ's Kingdom of heaven, our Satyauga - upon earth.
Sri Aurobindo,

I am glad the Upanishad lists ten ascending levels of bliss before one reaches the Bliss of the Eternal Spirit--the Supreme supracosmic Sachichidananda (which is above Supermind)
"and each level a hundredfold the intensity of the proceeding level." Glad, because this topic is not well understood and is (therefore) subject to a variety of misguided interpretations.
I share my Depth data's revelations just like any other ascended mystic/Soul has done no matter the tradition. We demonstrate that this (evolutionary) Great Kosmic Power (or Holy Spirit / Supreme Shakti) flows into the world of Form for the benefit of all beings, for the benefit of evolution of consciousness itself.
I will close this part on this note: The Bhagavad Gita states that 'finding supreme ecstasy is the final goal'.... One whose Soul fulfilled her ancient plan discovers that  Divine Labour is the final goal.

Link to The River of Light from 2010
www.spiritspeaks-theofilia.blogspot.ca/2010/05/river-of-light.html