Last Conversion & Further Divine Progression

"I will dance for God!" - declared my indignant four year old self, when Gran tried to teach me prayer. This story my Gran told me when I was a sweet teen-child who loved singing religious hymns in the (Catholic) church . In my chruch, (in Poland) I never heard priests talk about hell's brimstone and fire and such. I heard beautiful stuff about Jesus. . .and when the Crucifix disappeard from the classrom wall, I felt compelled to do something about it. At recess (our school property had several mature trees) found two sticks, and with grass tied/fashioned a very respectable looking symbol of the Christian faith. . .After school (when alone) managed to hang it beneath some political dignitaries portrait.

That same fiesty-independent energy comes alive now when folks who worship at the feet of the artificial intelligence, insist their lord's "logic" overrides my/our empirically verified Depth data's conclusions about the nature of the transcendent Reality . . . because 'it can't be scientificly verified'.
"We don't understand mind better by blowing it up to cosmic proportion", insists the academic with extremely impoverished view of Reality (Facebook group).
Some confuse peak experiences with spiritual maturity, or in some cases final Enlightenment - and when called out . . .? Only one who can't be bullied into submission, knows what the hostile forces do when challenged.

Many years ago I found myself in the same as Aurobindo's, "The inner guide, the Universal Teacher, showed me my path entirely", boat long before I knew his name. And, like him - due to the many types of descents of Supramental Forces into my being I described in, The Path Ordained by God, Solar Heart Initiation & Confirmation, Epiphany Day, and others - his statement in a letter to his brother resonates with me to a Tee: "All that I do does not depend on my own will, but is done according to the command of the Divine."

When I began having unsolicited Kundalini Shakti awakening experiences, I had no reference point to begin to understand what was happening to me - and (therefore) am all the more grateful for my inner guide's prompting to check out Sri Aurobindo's work. And when I did - despite my, 'his work is way above my head, so what's the point?', stance - I realized that, 'I already know this, because this happenend to me!'
I had zero ambition of being 'spiritual', never thought about it - still it 'happened' because I was born with unbroken continuity of awareness and destined to fulfill my Soul's final or last conversion. . .A type of conversion that enables the transformation of a common being into Gnostic/Divine being who rocks the Supramental body. . .

The 'Supramental body' of the fully liberated Soul. . .She whose veil no mortal has ever lifted sing the Song of His Truth from the source of its Nature in service to the Divine.
Aurobindo confirmed for me that the 'Supramental Truth glided into the lotus of my heart and woke in it the Force that alters fate ' (line from Savitri), because I was already 'on the threshhold of divinity' and rocking this developmental line/intelligence with 'great patience, calm, sobriety, balance, and impersonal detachment and sincerity free from all taint of ego or personal human desire without attachment to any idea of one's own, to any experience, to any kind of imagination, mental building or vital demand - without which the Truth would have no chance establishing itself in its purity in the nature' - Sri A words - paraphrased - from Letters on Yoga.

I am uniquely qualified to confirm for Aurobindo that: "An incarnation is destined, is chosen for you; the human person cannot chose or create an incarnation for himself by his own personal will. To attempt this is to invite a spiritual disaster."
Aurobindo's biographer, Satprem, wrote that: 'He was the first to be baffled by his own experience and . . . it took him some years to understand exactly what had happened.' . . .'And it was on this experience that later on I founded my philosophy not on ideas themselves'.
He studied the Upanishad's and the Gita, was familiar with European psychology, but didn't find explanation for certain psychological experiences. And, only after his contact with Vivekanada all the Kosmic puzzle pieces fell into place.

Including few snippets from intyoga.online.fr/viveka.htm
"Vivekananda came and gave me the knowledge of the intuitive mentality. I had not the least idea about it at the time. + He too did not have it when he was in the body. He gave me detailed knowledge illustrating each point. The contact lasted about three weeks and then he withdrew. + He explained to me in detail the work of the Supermind - not exactly of the Supramental. He did not use the word "Supermind," I gave this name afterwords."

This type of confession sounds woo-woo until one discovers within one's innermost being - in every cell of one's body felt - descents of nature-transforming Supramental Forces, the stark truth that the laws of the Supramental Forces and its Will stand above the material world, above the reach of mind.

The Siddha Master reminds us that: "If evolution is a truth and is not only physical evolution of species, but an evolution of consciousness, it must be a spiritual and not only a physical fact. In that case, it is the individual who evolves and grows into a more and more developed and perfect consciousness and obviously that cannot be done in the course of a brief single human life. If there is the evolution of a conscious individual, then there must be rebirth.
Rebirth is a logical necessity and a spiritual fact of which we can have the experience. Proofs of rebirth, sometimes of an overwhelmingly convincing nature, are not lacking, but as yet they have not been carefully registered and brough about." - Sri Aurobindo, Letters on Yoga - 2 p.396

In The Life Divine, we read *which the science geek in me seconds*: "In emerging, therefore, out of materialisitc period of human knowledge we must be careful that we do not rashly condemn what we are leaving out or throw away even one little of its gains, before we can summon perceptions and powers that are well grasped and secure, to occupy their place. Rather we shall observe with respect and wonder the work of what Atheism has done for the Divine and admire the services that Agnosticism has rendered in preparing the illimitable increase of knowledge.
In our world error is continually the handmaid and pathfinder of Truth; for error is really a half-truth that stumbles because of its limitations; often it is Truth that wears a disguise in order to arrive unobserved near its goal."

Supreme Grace Transforms Nature

The ever-evolving journey of inner awakening -- when grounded in proper moral purification and stripped of all attachments -- prepares one to enter the journey of ascent into the realms of holiness and Divine Light with its tremendous Powers and the complexity of its 'aspects'. The ineffable nature of the experience of transcendental infinite Reality involves body sensations, altered states of consciousness and intense spiritual focus. . . To walk this path is to encouter the Living Mystery, endure in every fiber felt its purifying Baptismal Fires and return Illumined bearing witness to a Holiness beyond Form and Love beyond human comprehension. When genuine, the experience of ascension reveals that authentic spirituality is not an escape from life, but a deeper engagement with it.

Those of us in whose hands the burden of unrevelling life's greatest Mystery is placed, perform the Will of the one Spirit. We absolutely know that the Divine Beloved is the Lord of our works - that, we receive only what the Divine Intellect-Will brings us, and whatever 'Power' we receive is subtly regulated in its energy and directed by the Divine Wisdom. My post The River of Light Revisited describes this on 'Power is regulated & directed by Divine Wisdom', theme.

Sri Aurobindo reminds us that:
"Only by sublimation by sacrifice of all that we are, can enable us to embody the highest and live here in the immanent consciousness of the transcendent Spirit. + An Integral consciousness with a multiform dynamic experience is essential for the complete transformation of our nature. + for this Presence is in its nature infinite. Whatever it has to manifest of itself or out of itself, it will do invitably by its own power, if there is substantial acceptance. It is quite true it is a grace sent and the only return needed for such a grace is acceptance, gratitude and to allow the Power that has touched the consciousness to develop what has to be developed in the being--by keeping oneself open to it. The total transformation cannot be done in a moment; it must take long and proceed through stages; what is now experienced is only an initiation, a foundation ('a great wave of calm') for the new consciousness in which that transformation will become possible.
The spontaneity of the experience ought by itself to show that it is nothing constructed by the mind, will or emotions; it comes from a Truth that is beyond them." - Letters on Yoga - 3 p.391-393

Based on first-hand experience these deeply transformative events are like sacred signatures, sealing the Truth of what has been accepted with bhakti tears. . .sometimes on my knees.

This journey, my sharing isn't just about personal transformation, but also about holding space for wisdom that others may not yet be ready to recognize. I did find that, over time, some individuals (Facebook group) softened their views - their 'negative' opinion of me - because they sensed the passion of certainty and authenticity, and the depth of intention verified by communal confirmation.
I offer my insights not as something to persuade or argue over, but as a gift for those who find resonance in them. . .and I consider this a priviledge. The open-minded reader recognizes that words don't just 'say' things - they carry something deeper, something alive that keeps weaving meaning into the world.

One who (also) experienced in every cell of his being 'Divine Revelation' of the highest order, writes: "You must become the psychic being - for only the psychic has the honesty, humility and quiet fire to go all the way" + The Grace does not mind your stumbling - but it cannot work through falsehod." -Sri Aurobindo's quotes from Letters on Yoga +
"In this yoga the psychic being is that which opens the rest of the nature to the true supramental light and finally to the Supreme Ananda. & The psychic being is always there, but is not felt because it is covered up by the mind and vital; when it is no longer covered up, it is then said to be awake. When it is awake, it begins to take hold of the rest of the being, to influence it and change it so that all may become the true expression of the inner soul. It is this change that is called the inner conversion. There can be no conversion without the awakening of the psychic being." -Excerpts from intyoga.online.fr/triple1.htm

"The psychic part of us is something that comes directly from the Divine and is in touch with the Divine. In its origin it is the nucleus pregnant with divine possibilities that supports this tripple manifestation of mind, life and body. There is this divine element in all living beings, but it stands hidden behind the ordinary consciousness, is not at first developed and, even when developed, is not always or often in front; it expresses itself, so far as the imperfection of the instrument allows, by their means and under their limitations. It grows in the consciousness by Godward experience, gaining strength every time there is a higher movement in us, and, finally, by the accumulation of these deeper and higher movements, there is developed a psychic individuality - that which we call usually the psychic being.
It is always the psychic being that is the real, though often the secret cause of man's turning to the spiritual life and his greatest help in it. It is therefore that which we have to bring from behind to the front in the yoga." - Excerpt from: Letters on Yoga intyoga.online.fr/ppb2.htm

Link to Logos Speaks

I have been busy writing in (Facebook) Logos Speaks. There, I can post direct links to interesting websites.

Unfortunately, I can't post direct links here, but if curious, have a look-see

www.facebook.com/groups/250894076688624

The Way of This Yoga

In the previous blog I included Mr. Mohaparta's (false) claim that Aurobindo's 'philosophy or yoga doesn't have any straightforward method for direct access to spirituality'. It is clear to me he is not ready for the Supramental Yoga . Not ready to hear and accept Siddha Yogi's teaching: "...from a higher spiritual experience, from a deeper source of knowledge and not lubrications of the logical intellect trying to coordinate its ignorance."-Sri A.
Not ready to experience the Truth by opening his mind to 'faith, aspiration and surrender'.
Blaming Aurobindo releases Mr. Mohaparta from admitting he is not even close to the 'Nirvna' state - which in the Master's words is: 'only the begining of the higher Truth, a mere 'passage from the Ignorance to the higher Truth'.

So who is ready for this Yoga?
" The realisation of this Yoga is not lower but higher than Nirvana or Nirvikalpa Samadhi. *skp
The way of Yoga here has a different purpose from others - for its aim is not only to rise out of the ordinary ignorant world-consciousness into the divine consciousness, but to bring the supramental power of that divine consciousness down into the ignorance of mind, life and body, to transform them, to manifest the Divine here and create a divine life in Matter. This is an exceedingly difficult and different Yoga; to many or most it will seem impossible. All the established forces of the ordinary ignorant world-consciousness are opposed to it and deny it and try to prevent it, and the sadhak will find his own mind, life and body full of the most obstinate impediments to its realisation. If you can accept the ideal wholeheartedly, face all difficulties, leave the past and its ties behind you and are ready to give up everything and risk everything for this divine possibility, then only can you hope to discover by EXPERIENCE the Truth behind it. *skip
The sadhana of this Yoga does not proceed through any set of mental teaching or prescribed forms of meditation, mantra or others, but by aspiration, by self-concentration inwards or upwards, by self-opening to the influence, the Divine Power above us and its workings, to the Divine Presence in the heart, and by rejection of all that is foreign to these things. It is only by faith, aspiration and surrender that this self-opening can come. *skip
Purification and a basis of calm are the first necessary steps in the spiritual life. The aspiration must be for the entire purification, especially (1) purification from sex, so that no sex imaginations may enter and the sex impulse may cease, (2) purification from desires and demands, (3) purification from depression which is the result of dissapointed desires. It is the most important for you. Patricularly what you must aspire for is peace in all the being, complete equanimity, samata. The feeling that peace is not enough must go. Peace and purity and equanimity once stablished, all the rest must be the Mother's free gift, not a result of the demand from the being. *skip
To be entirely sincere means to desire the divine Truth only, to surrender more and more to the Divine Mother, to reject all personal demand and desire other than this one aspiration, to offer every action in life to the Divine and do it as the work given without brining in the ego. This is the basis for the divine life. One cannot become altogether this at once, but if one aspires at all times to it and calls in always the aid of the Divine Shakti with a true heart and straightforward will, one grows more and more into this consciousness. *skip
Only those who can accept the call to such a change should enter into this Yoga."
- Excerpts from: Letters on Yoga CWSA 29 Synthesis of Yoga.

Supermind Explains Itself

Exploration of deep structures of the Transcendent Reality (in all its aspects and beyond aspects) and its conclusions is an extremely complex topic, because between Self Realization and Soul Liberation lie several developmental stages. Someone who has not traversed the low subtle, high subtle, low causal, high causal and ultimate stages, is not qualified to critique Sri Aurobindo's work because the Supramental Yoga isn't just about knowledge, but also about experimental wisdom. His teachings integrate complex supramental and psychological insights that require deep personal evolution to truly grasp.
Someone can study Sri Aurobido's writing for several decades and still declare: "I have been following a flexible approach as regards writings of The Mother and Sri Aurobindo by avoiding literalism" & "Sri Aurobindo advocated the spiritual approach as a solution to all problems, but his philosophy or yoga doesn't have and straightfoward method for direct access to spirituality. Nor is anyone's subjective spiritual experience verifiable."
Quotes from: Savitri Era blog, in Tusar Nath Mohaparta's words.

I was very tempted to tell this man he is misrepresenting Aurobindo's work, but stopped myself when I realized he was 'promoting' it in many blogs. There is no way such a mind would accept 'correction' from anyone.
Mr. Mohaparta is genuinely not aware that the Supramental Yoga is for the spiritually mature people - not aware that knowledge of the Supreme Truth cannot be projected into the intellect, because it completely transcends the comprehension of the recepient. This man's pride-mind thinks he is uniquely qualifed to promote Aurobindo's work, and if I were to 'disturb' him, the wound to his pride might be too great to bear.

Those who 'know better', know that at the apex of one's Soul evolution into wholeness and transcendence, the She who exists to serve the ever-expanding evolution of understanding of the nature of Divine Reality, Knows, what we bear witness to is not a theological claim, but a matter of experience resonant with those beings who in their innermost Sanctuary/ Soul became a vessel that can hold/bear the Supreme Descent.

Aurobindo writes: "The Life Divine is not philosophy but fact. It contains what I have realised and seen" + "The supramental Yoga is at once an ascent towards God and a descent of Godhead into the embodied nature. The ascent can only be achieved by a one-centered all-gathering upward aspiration of the Soul and mind and life and body; the descent can only come by a call of the whole being towards the infinite and eternal Divine. If this call and this aspiration are there, or if by any means they can be born and grow constantly, and seize all the nature, then only a supramental uplifting and transformation become possible.
The call and the aspiration are only first conditions; there must be along with them and brought by their effective intensity and opening of all the being to the Divine and total surrender. This opening is a throwing wide all the nature on all its levels and in all its parts to receive into itself without limits the greater divine Consciousness which is there already above and behind and englobing this mortal half-conscious existence.
In the receiving there must be no inability to contain, no breaking down of anything in the system, mind or life or nerve or body under the transmuting stress. There must be an endless receptivity, an always increasing capacity to bear and even stronger and more and more insistent action of the divine Force. Otherwise nothing great and permanent can be done; the Yoga will be in a break-down or an inert stoppage or a stultifying or a disastrous arrest in a process which must be absolute and integral if it is not be a failure.

But since no human system has this endless receptivity and unfailing capacity, the supramental Yoga can succeed only if the Divine Force that enters from above to work in nature. This is only possible if there is on our part a progressive surrender of the being into the hands of the Divine; there must be a complete and never failing assent, a courageous willingness to let the Divine Power do with us whatever is needed for the work that has to be done. *skip

Only when the conscious integral surrender to the Divine has been learned by mind and life and body, can the way of the Yoga become easy, straight, swift and safe."
Excerpts from: The Hour Of God, The Path.

THIS I knew and 'allowed', because I knew I was in 'good hands'. The Divine Shakti Force and its 'Deputies' - - same as: Vedic Gods, or Conscious Forces that represent powers of the Supermind, I riffed on in post titled: Path Ordained By God - - rescued my Divine Soul from its lower nature many years before I discovered Aurobindo's work. . .And when I did (discover) I was shocked how 'resonating' or 'verifying' his words were. And am not surprised I had couple of soul level 'mind melts', or encounters with him when the going got though.

Aurobindo's words from his epic poem Savitri Book 5, Canto 2, are best received by beings ready to submit its 'lower nature' to the Divine:
"Rare is the cup fit for lover's nectar wine. As rare the vessel that can hold God's birth; A soul made ready for through thousands of years Is the living mould of a supreme Descent".

At this (becoming 'the living mould of a supreme Descent') stage-point, one's Life becomes the Altar, and the body-mind the Sacrifice through which Divine Light and its Power-Will-Bliss flows into world's hologram via subtle planes for the benefit of all beings in the visible and invisible domains, and the Great Consciousness looking out through the eyes of every sentient being.
My essay titled: (2019) The River of Light Revisited, unpacks this 'flowing from the Crown chakra Light') topic in great detail.

Individual who has not felt in every fiber of its being the transforming Power of the Descent of Light, Peace, Force, Ananda - has no choice (cognitive dissonance) but reduce genuine Divine Revelations to something that makes sense to his/her not yet spiritualised consciousness.
Aurobindo knew this, and when asked what he thought about something, he replied: 'what you call thinking, I never do. I either see or I don't see'. Tusar's failure to "see" with the eye of Spirit the depth of Aurobindo's work satisfies his lower-stage ambitions.

Sri A's translation of the Rig Veda includes the following statement: "Confronted with the stately hymns of the ancient dawn, we are conscious of a blank incomprehension. And we leave them as prey to the ingenuity of the scholar who gropes for forced meanings amid obscurities and incongruities where the ancients (Rishis) bathed their souls in harmony and light."
Tusar and those in the same 'blank' boat folks, are not capable to see their error.

Sri A wrote in Letters on Yoga-2:
"The detail or method of the later stages of the Yoga which go into little known and untrodden regions, I have not made public and I do not at present intent to do so."
A being whose Soul "(She) has lured the Eternal into the arms of Time" (line from Savitri Canto VI The Kindgoms and Godheads of the Greater Life) becomes a fit vessel ("cup" - Savitri, book 5) for holding Divine Beloved's 'nectar wine'. . . knows, that the method for securing Conscious Immortality depends entirely on the backward-flowing method. . .We know that this process is being guided by an Intelligence that's far beyond human comprehension and that certain 'in Secret unveilled things', aught to stay secret.

Aurobindo warned: "Beware of exaggerated ambition, pride or vanity trying to seize on spiritual force or experience and turn it to one's glorification ending in megalomania, an unbalanced vital and weak nervous system apt to follow its own imaginations without any true mental will or strong mental will to steady or restrain it. ." & "...the higher vital wants the freedom to fulfill its ambitions, the lower vital loves to indulge in its petty deed, etc. As each of these defects is identified and relinquished, the psychic flame burns with ever-new intensity creating a palpable warmth in various parts of the body."

And, because I 'know better', I have an obligation to rescue from the hands of ignorance that which Grace bestowed on Sri Aurobindo.

Aurobindo did experience the transforming power of the Descent. If he did not, he wouldn't know that: "Supermind is an eternal reality of the divine Being and the divine nature." & "By the supermind is meant the full Truth-Consciousness of the Divine Nature in which there can be no place for the principle of division and ignorance; it is always a full light and knowledge superior to substance or mental movement." - Synthesis of Yoga.

But when asked: "Why not write something about Supermind which those people find difficlult to understand?", he replied: "What's the use? How much would anybody understand? Besides the present business is to bring down and establish the Supermind, not to explain it. If it establishes itself, it will explain itself - if it does not, there is no use explaining it. I have said some things about it in the past writings, but without success in enlightening anybody. So why repeat the endeavour?
When asked: "When the Supermind descends into the earth-consciousness will all sadhakas be aware of it - the descent into the earth, I mean, not in themselves?", the Master replied: "It wouldn't be necessarily be known by everybody. Besides, even if the desent were here one would have to be ready to before one could get the final change." &
"It is true that I want the supramental not for myself but for the earth, and certainly therefore I cannot object if anybody wants the supramental. But there are conditions. He must want the Divine Will first and the soul's surrender and the spiritual realisation (through works, bhakti, knowledge, self-perfection) on the way."
YES!

I am uniquely qualified to confirm everything Sri A said. I heard the CALL and responded, etc. . . .and (therefore) have a moral duty to obey the inner call of my vocation by bearing witness to what happens on the Path of Deep Esoteric Truth and uphold Sri Aurobindo's legacy while at it. . .Leaving his legacy in hands of someone who 'follows a flexible approach as regards writings of the Mother and Sri Aurobindo', is not an option for one who knows that a mind satisfied with itself is blind to its deceptive nature.

"One can be a fit instrument for the Divine in any of the transformations. The question is, an instrument for what?" - Sri Aurobindo, from: Letters On Yoga - Spiritual Realisation and Supramental Transformation.

Those who 'know better', know that distorting or misrepresenting one's meaning or contributions by stamping out threats to one's cherished viewpoints, is playing the: 'I am more brilliant than he', card. The hand of falsehood exploits every occasion to promote its own un-divine agenda, needs to be exposed for what it really is.

Spirit Talk Inner Gold

Edited: I wrote this post in March 2009 and don't understand why it parked itself on top of the page (July 28-2024) after I gave it a bit of edit- tweak.

It was you who formed my inward parts;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works;
that I know very well. (Ps 139:13-14)

"Spirit can be viewed as a ballet dancer who leaps into the air and lands in perfect balance in relation to a partner."

"Spirit is at work in the world and not "an ornament of piety."

"The world does not know or receive the Spirit (Jn 14:17) There are powers of resistance with whom the Spirit is locked in mortal combat."

Quotes from Flame Of Love A Theology Of The Holy Spirit, penned by Clark H. Pinnock.

AMEN to that! What attracted me to this, plucked from library shelf book, was the its symbolic representation of the Holy Spirit in the form of a white dove in flight inside bright flames....Many times witnessed in Vision.

I was never religious but intuitively had a connection to something I knew not what to call. This 'something', while still in an elementary school made my indignant self got hot under the collar when Communists decided that displaying the crucifix in public places was forbiden. I saw our teacher's sadness when she broke the news, and felt compelled to do something.

During the break I found two sticks on the graced with many trees school property, and with grass tie-fashioned a handsome, brand new crucifix for our classrom! After school, when everyone was gone I climbed on the desk and hung it under one of the political dignitaries portraits.

Sometimes I had wondered what the reaction of the person who would find it might have been.

By then my soul-self - very much awake in that boundary dissoloving space - practiced, and mastered, standing on air by stepping off a chair.
My child self loved practice "gymnastics" when alone. . . Many years later (in Canada) I learned that those body contortions were called "advanced yoga". I practiced these poses in my favorite, very private Summer hangout spot in a spacious back garden, a shelf-like strip of land where the land dropps off sharply to a lower level . . .The very spot my awake in dream body-mind found chunks of gold.

Just a short journal entry from "Jul.92' I was assigned an archaeological dig. Was extremely important, "famous" in fact, right in my own back yard."

And instantly I sensed the significance of its meaning 'Go deep , and you shall find a Treasure not of this world'.

Not According to Egoic Wants but Those of the Soul

Edited: this post was written in March 2009, and have no idea why it parked itself at top page since I didn't even 'tweak' it.

Feels a bit strange to be doing this because I didn't know I could have a free of charge blog until yesterday - thanks to Rev David Graham, ('Zoltan' who saw my comments in One Cosmos blogspot) who urged me via thunderous (3) emails I had to write about the things that introduced themselves to the awareness of my Soul. I responded with all manner of excuses why I couldn't do it, while being intrigued by the possibility of having my space and to my heart's content riff about my mystical experiences.

He didn't care that I whined about my non-existent computer skills: "God helps those who help themselves" - were his marching orders. So I relented and timidly began scribbling with lots of spelling errors and terrible grammar. But I didn't care because I didn't think anyone would read it. I was just happy cyber bullies were not attacking me. I didn't know what all those icon thingies stood for - one of which was spell checker. I didn't want to click on anything to avoid braking something. I didn't know I could edit posts, or that I could see the number of visitors. . .and when months later, I did click my way to where I could see the number of visitors, I was shocked at the number because I didn't tell anyone I had a blog.

At best - I thought - if I do this, my sons and daughters will know what their mama was up to all those years. One thing I know with uncompromising certainty, is that acting in concert with Universal Harmony opens the doors of Liberating Possibilities, and its Will-Essence imparting one's soul with Divine Vitality.

In this blog I will attempt to convey the hows' and the whys' of my spiritual awakening journey (unsolicited) Kundalini awakening, style. Seems odd, because not so very long ago (17 years ago) I wanted to live in a forest, "away from the insanity of the world, make my own soap and write children's books." It didn't pen out, though we tried and tried.
Living a simple life without any whatsoever aspirations after worldly goods, deeply yearning to see "a sane world one day."

I did keep a bit of a journal from which I'll be quoting some 'otherworldly' events, from the perspective of a Walker of Both Worlds - something that even in my wildest imagination wouldn't occur to me the thought one day I will be sharing on the Internet.
Today I feel like sharing my "Angel winking moment" - something that happened last year while watching television documentary on Angels, and while at it, include my Mama's mystical experience - because the 'flavour' of both is identical.

My 'angel winking' story includes email quotes I wrote the day I watched Decoding Christianity (April 2, 2008). Snippet: "Was it meant for my eyes only that the town's square (in Italy) angel statue left eye winked at around the 10:46/7/8 ish PM o'clock mark? Or, it was a computer simulated winking-jest moment? (it was a full/complete eyelid closed 'wink'). It wouldn't be the first time the Divine supernaturally communicated its people-nearness."
Two or three days later I received the following response: "We are looking into it."

Something silmilar 'happened' to my Mother while watching television program on Christian iconography. At some point Mother Mary's face in its (now) close-up form, lit up with radiant smile, causing Mama to release the flow of bhakti tears. . . "I was still crying when Krystyna (friend) came over, and alarmed, asked: "What happened?! What's wrong!?" . So she told her, "And then we both cried!"

May 1st, a short reply from Decoding Christianity folks: "We're sorry it's taken a while to get back to you. We checked with the producers regarding your inquiry. They conveyed that they did not have the statue wink in the documentary."

Mother did pray to Mother Mary every night. On my last visit overseas I witnessed a tender Mama / Holly Mary moment. . .Her friend had just returned from a visit to some holy sight and gave Mama white ceramic bottle shaped in the Mother Mary, image/statue filled with Holy Water. After the friend left, radiant with joy Mama kissed Mother Mary's image and whispered, "My most beautiful one."