Little Girl Revisited

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THE DANCING HEART BEATS IN THE RHYTHM WITH THE DIVINE WILL

My first spiritual poem titled Little Girl - Spirit Speaks' first blog entry in 2009/03 - contains the first spark of the destiny I was destined to grow into.
I recall vividly how intensly my heart-sense perceived the world around me. If I were to name this type of intelligence. . .I could say, 'uncanny type of alertness'. Even in dreams, my child-self's alertness allowed me to focus on some task: Such as practicing standing on air by stepping off a chair - and succeeding.
I know that my Alertness helped me become what I was destined to be. I was always a doer: an independent thinker and a mover and shaker, type - and, dare I say, an agent of my destiny?

'Twas I who begged Mama to let me to go school the year my older sister and friend started first grade. She relented, so did school - and I was ecstatic. 'Twas I who decided to leave school, because I was bored to death. I was the one who made the decision to emigrate to Canada when I was a teen (alone) - because the little town I grew up in was too boring for my taste.

I felt intense outrage when my husband's parents' guy friend, said: "You're just a mommy now" - upon seeing cradling in my arms my newborn baby. No one has ever lorded over me - certainly not my parents - this is why bullies of all stripes don't have a chance in hell to crush the sovereignty of my Alertness.

I wrote Happily Blaming My Ways on Karma 2020/05 & Blaming My Ways on Karma 2023/01, to show what its like to be a selfless doer.

I made that vow: 'I will Work for the Higher Power' (scribbled in blog in 2009) before I was born . . . and before I realized I was born with unbroken continuity of awareness.

The One who placed that 'duty-bound and joyful' Spark in me, knew I was strong enough to bear my own suffering as well as witness others' and still chose love and 'helping hands'.

My four-year-old self declared:
"I will dance for God!" (when Gran tried to teach me prayers), and I kept that Promise with my courage, my surrender and witness - by my willingness to speak what others cannot yet hear, to write and speak only from alignment with that deeper guidance.

Duty offered as selfless service is an act of devotion to God, feels like the most natural thing. . .I simply offer what I was entrusted with. This vow I made long to 'dance for God', feels like a first time the Divine used my hand to tell me about my future - to show me that my destiny was already whispering.

I write because the Teachings entrusted to me were not supposed to remain private. They were meant to be offered, perserved, and placed in hands of those who can hear world's cries.

TRUE IDENTITY SURVIVES THE DEATH OF THE BODY

The Kosmic address I'm writing from has a built-in, non-fail rigor built into its structure. 'Built' by the the Will of the of the Supreme Effulgence and its Conscious Force.. . .And whatever I do is for the glory of the Most High.
My calling is to testify to the Higher Realities so they are not lost in an age of confusion and spiritual amnesia. . .
Hearts broken open see world's pain. We see our fragmented selves: psychologically, spiritually - we see the unfortunate results of break down of meaning, ecological self-harm, racial tensions, tribal identity wars, fear-based politics, etc. We see that these terrible problems can be corrected by integrated minds and awakened hearts:
Those who are capable of perspective-taking and spiritual discernment can hold paradox without collapsing.
These capacities are not luxuries. They are survival requirements for the next stage of humanity.

I do not write to convince sceptics. I write because Immortal Teachings are in danger of being lost - buried under scientism, cynicism, and cultural indifference.
I write to show that the Supramental descent is not a myth: It is a living evolutionary event.
I write because the Divine entrusted me to disclose its 'evolutionary plan'. . .
Our future depends on what we become. The Supramental is not coming to save us. It is coming to transform us - if we are willing.

My task is simple: to salvage what must not be forgotten, to articulate what must be understood, and to serve the Divine in the unfolding of our collective future.

THE WORLD NEEDS HEARTS THAT FEEL THE FUTURE CALLING

Hidden in the mystery of its own Light, The Dancing Heart sees Humanity differently: It does not turn away from world's suffering - it sees it more clearly. It sees the fragmentation, the fear, the confusion, the spiritual amnesia - yet it also sees what humanity is capable of and must become. The Dancing Heart knows there is a deeper intelligence trying to emerge. And the Heart dances because it knows that a better future is not a fantasy, but a destiny.

Its Voice is fluent in transparency: Sri Aurobindo affirms this for me:
"The Divine must be such a certitude not only as concrete but more concrete than anything sensed by ear or touch in the world of Matter; but it is a certitude not of mental thought but of essential experience.
When the Peace of God descends on you, when the Divine Presence is there within you, when Anada rushes on you like a sea, when you are driven like a leaf before the wind by the breath of the Divine Force, when Love flows out of you on all creation, when Divine Knowledge floods you with a Light which illumines and transforms in a moment all that was before dark, sorrowful and abscure, when all that it becomes part of the One Reality, when the Reality is all around you, you feel at one by the spiritual contact, by the inner vision, by the illumined and seeing thought, by the vital sensation and even by the very physical sense, everywhere you see, hear, touch only the Divine."
-Passage from letter to Roy, July 25, 1932.

I HAVE A MORAL DUTY TO OBEY THE CALL OF MY VOCATION

I write to remind the narrow-science empiricist that - in words of one who has the spiritual authority to proclaim this truth, Gopi Krishna:
"Intellectual speculation or scientific study of the subject can never help cross the barrier of understanding the nature of mystical consciousness. The empiricist who would like to explore this territory, must experience in the laboratory of his own self. Nature has built an unscalable wall to keep the intellect intruding into a territory that belongs to a superior sense." - quote from: The Real Nature of Mystical Experience.

Genuine mystic has first-hand perception of all the realms of creation - and what we bear witness to is not 'speculative'. We demonstrate that both intellectual rigor and spiritual maturity are required to traverse the deepest developmental stages.
Exploring the low subtle, low causal, high causal and ultimate developmental stages, are not for the faint-hearted. The Tibetan Book of the Dead, calls us, "Psychonaut: A "voyager into the soul," an apt term for the Buddhist adept, who voluntarily abandons the pseudo-security of this planet of delusion, with its solid ground of ordinary, individual suffering, to launch herself through the death-dissolutions into the subtle between-states to deepen her wisdom by exploring the unconscious and to expand her compassionate heroism by serving universes of beings on the subtle level, and then returns to the ordinary embodiment of the adept to assist her contemporaries." - quote, penned by Robert A.F. Thurman.

Authentic high-altitude insights into nature of Divine Reality are Grace-bestowed to those willing to become Humanity's servants.
Is the secular guillotine of postmodern culture sharp enough to slaughter the transcendent, immaterial, ineffable mystery of the supremely Illumined awareness of the Immortal Soul?
Of course not.
But it is up to us to make sure theirs' is not the last word.

Sri Aurobindo affirms for me that what my child-self sensed and what the destiny 'whispered' to me, and those years of transformative, life-changing Kosmic 'makeovers', was not a fanatsy: I was born with unbroken continuity of awareness, this is why it 'happened' early in my life.
My essay Path Ordained by God 2024/03, described three types of 'life-changing makeovers':
"There must be effected a complete transformation of our limited and distorted egotistic life and works into a large and outpouring of a greater divine Life. Will and Energy must be made conscious in us and master; no longer must it remain, as now, only a superconsciousness, upholding and permitting Force.
There must be achieved an undistorted transmission through us of the all-wise purpose and process of a now hidden omniscient Power and omnipotent Knowledge which will turn into its pure, unobstructed, happily consenting and participating channel all our transmuted nature. This total consecration and surrender and this resultant entire transformation and free transmission make up the whole fundamental means of the ultimate aim of the integral karmayoga."
Excerpt from The Synthesis of Yoga - intyoga.online.fr/say_it.html#9

* I use the term 'Kosmos' because in esoteric terms Kosmos includes the inner realms - not just the material universe.