Last night I had just such a moment as I realized I was neither in dream, nor the awake state. But first I had to go throught the motions of 'thinking' about what is "for real". . .First I kept asking (several) people if they thought we were dreaming. I was very sure I was wide awake (&) thinking, "how could it be otherwise? This experience is real. We are real."
No one actually answered me. . . a nagging feeling crept in . . . Then suddenly, I stood up, lifted both open hands next to my eyes (and wide eyed) declared out loud that everything was arising in my consciousness! That everything was an extension of myself.
Not first time, but it's fun when that happens.
There is no chance in heck that after such an experience (of Unity consciousness) one can see oneself as either "superior" or "beneath" anyone once one directly discovers the meaning of "I am everything and every experience that arises".
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It is true also, that "truth" is different in different states of consciousness, that is why I don't expect many people to agree with what I write/share/offer.
I am glad I have permission to quote Roy Posner's summary and analysis of Sri Aurobindo's The Life Divine, which 'supports' my view of Reality
(to read more google= the life divine, sri aurobindo, an analysis, summary).
From Introduction, the following quote/s mirrors my experiences:
"The higher the plane, the more direct the insight and perception of the object of knowledge he was addressing. I.e. the greater the truth of things."
"Through these spiritual powers of perception; through these spiritual-like intimations of wisdom and knowledge, he was able to experience the knowledge of the Divine from the Divine. It is as if the Infinite consciousness and Reality broadcast knowledge vibrations of Itself . . .explaining its own nature, makeup, processes, interiors, et al -- and Sri Aurobindo had the inner antennae to lock into these signals. In that way, he was jotting down the truths of the Divine directly from the Mind, or consciousness of the Divine.
But that is not all. Though his wisdom came through this supra-normal cognition capacity, it also was developed through his own life experiences . . . from his everyday perceptions of how life functioned . . ."
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In my experience the "supra-normal" cognition is felt in every fiber of my being. Literally, its 'vibration-cognition' is 'impressed' into every cell of my body. I wrote in previous posts about what it feels like.
I may add that each time I 'travel' in Soul -- (before that happens) -- and before I am 'embraced' by the Great Light, I see it first.
Friday, September 18, 2009
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Green Eyed Monster?
Once upon time I worked in a factory . . .One day the energy of Fierce Indignation called me to stand up to Ignorance. . .And when the dust had settled the boss approached me and said: "Thank you for what you did. Now this place is more peaceful".
Story telling....
I liked my job. . .Hands busy with mind free to meditate on whatever I wanted.
Had I not had the chance to talk with John, I wouldn't know much about him because we worked in different departments. However, that one day we were seated at the same work station. Hands and eyes busy/working, as were our tongues and curious minds.
I noticed around Christmas-time his hunched back, his head hung low in silence when the rest of us were having drinks and laughing like crazy people :) He was the one whose "hello" wave was always friendly, even though we only exchanged few words when I worked for a short spell in the same department.
That day at the same work station we talked about families and personal stuff and sensed he really liked me. I liked his gentle voice, his hippy pony tail, his never staring ways, his easy to talk to vibe, his great looking face!
It wasn't until the very end of the shift that John said 'soon he needed to make a very important decision' . . .It was more the way he looked and sounded, which made me urgently utter "whatever it is, I hope it all works out, John" -- just as the end-of-shift bell rang out!
Not too long after that I heard that John is now in transition to becoming "Joan". She wore pink t-shirts and her breast began to grow. Even the women's laughter and demeaning remarks seemed very disturbing to me when they talked about the tension / aggression towards Joan in her department.
I knew J. loved her wife and 2 children. I knew her kids loved their dad and thought they were coping somehow . I knew Joan's decision to 'come out' was not an easy one.
Our hello waves stayed the same and I (personally) wished her well. We still talked about and exchanged books. To me Joan was the same person with new name and changing body.
On one of my weeks back, I heard that couple of days earlier Joan got her front teeth knocked out by the boxing man / co-worker, after their Friday night card-playing game (after work).
I was MAD! Was so stunned that I said not one word. None of the women were laughing, either. I knew I couldn't just stand by and do nothing! Couple of hours later I asked one woman to show me the teeth-knocking-out brute -- to actually point the bully out to me -- since I didn't know who he was.
I waited till lunch break to walk my indignant self to their small plant office (where they took their meals) and hissed: "DAN (last name) YOU'RE A SCUM AND A CREEP, IF YOU WANT TO PUNCH ME OUT COME OUT THERE!".
"What?" , he asked.
I repeated same sentiment, word - for -word.
He shook his head "no". I walked away satisfied because I had witnesses (his crew).
The place was a' buzz after lunch. . . To all that knew me I was the soft spoken one with not one wavy hair in its place -- she who just one week after giving birth to two babies was able to wear pre-pregnancy size jeans with lipstick to match my t-shirt -- suddenly capable of tough-talking like a truck driver, to one who sported bulging muscles?
"Big John" - grinning from ear to ear - from Joan's department came up to me shortly after lunch, said: "must be the Irish blood in you."
I could have bat my eyelashes and ask, "How come you think I'm Irish? is it because of my accent or is it the green eyes?" - but didn't. I was on a mission and was still in serious mode.
At the punch out (clock) lineup many smiling faces . . . One woman descending the cafeteria stairs - who came in for the next shift, heard what happened - yelled out: "way to go Helen!"
The following morning, above the entrance door a huge poster: "IF YOU KNOW WHAT'S GOOD FOR YOU SCUM AND CREEP QUIT NOW!".
And another -- same words, same size poster above the punch clock.
Turned out the guys who witnessed my outrage decided to take further action and prepared 'your behavior is not acceptable', message. That very morning, Dan the boxer man, packed up and quit.
Sometime later Joan, (prompted by her psychologist) wrote a very long open letter . It read like a biography . Full of pain. Her twice attempted suicide. And in the end, her gratitude for all the support from everyone.
I was handed my own copy. Which in turn, I shared with a very bright (summer) teacher-to-be student who was grateful for the opportunity to see what it's like to live with a body which doesn't feel 'right'.
The moral to this story? . . . That sometimes it takes one wrathful person, just one episode/time to set a'fire minds and hearts of those who only needed someone to take the first step.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Fifth Stage Integration
At the apex-point of the evolutionary journey of the soul to the Divine, one discovers it is the non-biological Soul/She who is in charge...for she knows best how to fulfill her ancient blueprint. Through Her Light-Power-Might one realizes that all Life (in the visible and visible domains) is 'pregnant' with this invisible to the eye of flesh and mind,(ever-present) Supreme Light-Power.
This realization can only be attained from a place of Unity within the Inner plane. . .
Wisdom literature texts can use metaphors to describe the nature of the True Light that enlightens everyone. . .But even the most spiritually alluring words loose all meaning when its Direct Presence introduces itself to the awakened awareness of one's eternal self-Soul. Only then one can know truly that Her Light/Essence is no different than the Light of the Supreme Creator.
She is the Blessed Bridge leading one to discover one's own Divine nature in the embodied sense. . .
Authentic Soul Liberation can't be reached by the thinking mind and its concepts, it is not accessible by feelings or intuition or the experience of nothingness.
Any authentically Enlightened mystic whose non-biological inner Light being (Soul) gets Ravished by the Luminosity of the Great Light and its Bliss-Essence -- during the many types of Soul level Initiations -- bears witness to this.
The transcendence-aspect of the spiritual life is experienced at the apex of one's eternal self-Soul's evolution and it involves having one's karmic impurities systematically consumed by the Holy Spirit's Fire (Kundalini Shakti) . . .Without this step, She will not be ready to be erotically ravished by the Divine Beloved. Without this step, one can't bear the full impact of the Supreme Cosmic Force-Power ... the very same Power which creates and sustains the universe.
By now, we know that surrender to what is happening to us, is the only way to go. In other words, we completely let go of the idea of having any type of control during the process of continuous demolition and construction. . .
We have no idea what may come next, still we trust the process, because now we truly know we are guided and are supported by the Mystery of the Divine Consort....Guided by the Vision and Force-Power of the Great Star of Liberation.
There have been times when (in deep samadhi states) I have been given supporting phrases such as:
Concentrate on formulations of cosmic consciousness. And: Absolute Yantra as travel elegance becomes reality liberation within the one Divine.
The Integration Process is about Soul level Initiations whose final goal is the ultimate integration. What does the term 'ultimate integration', signifies?
I'm glad I have Robert A. F. Thurman's translation (w/commentary) of:
The Tibetan Book Of The Dead - from Glossary section:
Integration, Sanskrit yuganaddha is the Unexcelled Yoga Tantra name for Buddhahood, the fifth and highest of the perfection stages, indicating that relative and ultimate, individual and universal, body and mind, bliss and wisdom, male and female--all dualities are integrated in this experience of fulfillment.
When one's awareness crosses the line of the sublimated mind, (passes out of its thinking loop-sphere) one not only sees, but feels the presence of the Divine/God-Light-Bliss in every fiber of one's being.
Couple of recent examples (2009):
Eye-dazzling flash of diamond-white Light of almost unbearable force-intensity ejected me from my mortal body and plunged me into Clear Black Light's brilliance (not first time) ...during this time outside of time as we know it, I heard my breath's deep exhalation.
&
A Vision of Beloved's perfect Form clothed in Light's brilliance with brighter, diamond-white Light emanating from His mid-body....before morphing into Light-clothed Woman. . .
The Great Star of Liberation in its Yin/Yang aspects.
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Will close this entry by saying what authentically enlightened mystic declares in her/his own words the same assertion, no matter the tradition:
The Halls of the Highest Mystical Knowledge
Reside in the Living Libraries
Within the Immortal/God-Realized Souls. . .
Those who merge with this Light of all Lights,
Bear witness to this by presenting the
subtlety of Meaning couched within the authentic spiritual Experience.
Those of us who 'know better', remind the spiritual seeker: "Beware of an exaggerated ambition, pride or vanity trying to seize on spiritual force or experience and turn it to one's glorification ending in megalomania - an unbalanced vital and weak nervous system apt to follow its own imaginations without any true mental will or strong mental will to steady or restarin it." - Sri Aurobindo.
This realization can only be attained from a place of Unity within the Inner plane. . .
Wisdom literature texts can use metaphors to describe the nature of the True Light that enlightens everyone. . .But even the most spiritually alluring words loose all meaning when its Direct Presence introduces itself to the awakened awareness of one's eternal self-Soul. Only then one can know truly that Her Light/Essence is no different than the Light of the Supreme Creator.
She is the Blessed Bridge leading one to discover one's own Divine nature in the embodied sense. . .
Authentic Soul Liberation can't be reached by the thinking mind and its concepts, it is not accessible by feelings or intuition or the experience of nothingness.
Any authentically Enlightened mystic whose non-biological inner Light being (Soul) gets Ravished by the Luminosity of the Great Light and its Bliss-Essence -- during the many types of Soul level Initiations -- bears witness to this.
The transcendence-aspect of the spiritual life is experienced at the apex of one's eternal self-Soul's evolution and it involves having one's karmic impurities systematically consumed by the Holy Spirit's Fire (Kundalini Shakti) . . .Without this step, She will not be ready to be erotically ravished by the Divine Beloved. Without this step, one can't bear the full impact of the Supreme Cosmic Force-Power ... the very same Power which creates and sustains the universe.
By now, we know that surrender to what is happening to us, is the only way to go. In other words, we completely let go of the idea of having any type of control during the process of continuous demolition and construction. . .
We have no idea what may come next, still we trust the process, because now we truly know we are guided and are supported by the Mystery of the Divine Consort....Guided by the Vision and Force-Power of the Great Star of Liberation.
There have been times when (in deep samadhi states) I have been given supporting phrases such as:
Concentrate on formulations of cosmic consciousness. And: Absolute Yantra as travel elegance becomes reality liberation within the one Divine.
The Integration Process is about Soul level Initiations whose final goal is the ultimate integration. What does the term 'ultimate integration', signifies?
I'm glad I have Robert A. F. Thurman's translation (w/commentary) of:
The Tibetan Book Of The Dead - from Glossary section:
Integration, Sanskrit yuganaddha is the Unexcelled Yoga Tantra name for Buddhahood, the fifth and highest of the perfection stages, indicating that relative and ultimate, individual and universal, body and mind, bliss and wisdom, male and female--all dualities are integrated in this experience of fulfillment.
When one's awareness crosses the line of the sublimated mind, (passes out of its thinking loop-sphere) one not only sees, but feels the presence of the Divine/God-Light-Bliss in every fiber of one's being.
Couple of recent examples (2009):
Eye-dazzling flash of diamond-white Light of almost unbearable force-intensity ejected me from my mortal body and plunged me into Clear Black Light's brilliance (not first time) ...during this time outside of time as we know it, I heard my breath's deep exhalation.
&
A Vision of Beloved's perfect Form clothed in Light's brilliance with brighter, diamond-white Light emanating from His mid-body....before morphing into Light-clothed Woman. . .
The Great Star of Liberation in its Yin/Yang aspects.
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Will close this entry by saying what authentically enlightened mystic declares in her/his own words the same assertion, no matter the tradition:
The Halls of the Highest Mystical Knowledge
Reside in the Living Libraries
Within the Immortal/God-Realized Souls. . .
Those who merge with this Light of all Lights,
Bear witness to this by presenting the
subtlety of Meaning couched within the authentic spiritual Experience.
Those of us who 'know better', remind the spiritual seeker: "Beware of an exaggerated ambition, pride or vanity trying to seize on spiritual force or experience and turn it to one's glorification ending in megalomania - an unbalanced vital and weak nervous system apt to follow its own imaginations without any true mental will or strong mental will to steady or restarin it." - Sri Aurobindo.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
"WORK FOR THE HIGHER POWER"
Before I'll get to the main topic I want to say that "synchronicity" is the Grace's revilement of "not two".
Last night's adventures in Consciousness included a very poignant "not two" moment . I became aware of people's singing Amazing Grace and saw some folks walking down the middle of the street just as they were turning a corner . . . Next, I am gliding in the same direction-flow -- mere inches above the heads of a seemingly never-ending shoulder-to-shoulder walking throng. The political world-scene is a'changing in the Arab nations.
Thy Will be done! Just like the Berlin wall, that which is nuts sooner or later crumbles . . .
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Once upon time, my radio teacher Ann Toth told me to offer a rose (in meditation) to, on the ground standing man, after I gloated about my (face up) joy-spinning in the air , then when he asked, "where do you think your power comes from?" , I answered:
"Where do you think all power comes from?" and continued spinning joyfully.
Ann saw right through me when I shared what happened, and I'm very grateful for that! She told me to visualise giving that man a red rose ..... Next time I was dancing on air in dream-state, I dared him to join me, and he did! At first his face looked grotesque, but the longer we danced the more attractive he got.
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As indicated before I was divinely guided to become a healer. I still have my journal notes where I made a note on Oct. 16th 93' how I received an Invitation and an Initiation, but I had to meditate on it to figure out what it meant exactly...
It was one of those (for me) poignant messages , which I knew ignoring it was not an option. But to hear the answer to my "but what does it mean exactly?" question had to wait until I heard loud and clear from the realm of Silence, what it is I was supposed do with that message.
I got the answer and responded, and if I didn't respond? and, if I didn't follow up on what my Soul was guiding me towards?
I would never know what I missed.
Some call this type of spiritual practice Dream Yoga. Ever since I was a kid I've been a lucid dreamer that's why I pay attention to significant signs and symbols. . . brief account of what happened:
So, there I was having a very pleasant conversation with an "eccentric woman". I knew,"We were on the same level" . At some point, she pointed to some folks and said: "they believe in magic" -- to which I responded, "if you have the knowledge you can make it happen."
Next instant I was inside a dwelling, standing inside a circle of red clad men who seemed a "couple of 2 feet taller than me" -- which kind of spooked me. I did the 360 degree scan and withdrew my consciousness from that 'moment'.
Next, I'm struggling to find my way out only to find my self impossibly stuck in a tiny chamber and "realized quickly it was futile." (to struggle).
Next instant I found myself in a room... "no one approached me, but I knew what I had to do, and said: "I'll work for you."
Next I'm standing next to a dark haired woman who pointed to a small, square and very black shiny "object" ( indicating "pick it up"). "I knew it was a test of sorts and confidently picked it up" . . .Same instant "I felt like the energies of that object and mine were fusing". Next, a "Tremendous current of energy lifted me off the ground."
"I levitated" and glided across a people-filled room over to a table with lovers "in love". She was wearing a "satin" creme colored blouse -- my favorite color at the time.
Oct. 19th. I was alone and decided to intentionally focus on what the above meant exactly. I sat down and waited with eyes open for some sign with incense 'on' seated at least 10 feet away from it. The windows and doors were closed. The cat was not running around and yet -- not right away, but at some point -- the smoke from the incense began drifting directly towards my face in a straight beeline. That was really uncanny . . . And then I knew!
"I KNOW NOW what the above dream told me "WORK FOR THE HIGHER POWER". I will study Reiki." (direct quote).
I had no idea what Reiki was about but saw in Rev. John White's class one woman raise her palms towards someone who was talking about her migraine and that gesture felt-looked so loving. I heard her say the word Reiki and that it had to do with "energy work". Some days later I had my first Reiki workshop.
Last night's adventures in Consciousness included a very poignant "not two" moment . I became aware of people's singing Amazing Grace and saw some folks walking down the middle of the street just as they were turning a corner . . . Next, I am gliding in the same direction-flow -- mere inches above the heads of a seemingly never-ending shoulder-to-shoulder walking throng. The political world-scene is a'changing in the Arab nations.
Thy Will be done! Just like the Berlin wall, that which is nuts sooner or later crumbles . . .
--
Once upon time, my radio teacher Ann Toth told me to offer a rose (in meditation) to, on the ground standing man, after I gloated about my (face up) joy-spinning in the air , then when he asked, "where do you think your power comes from?" , I answered:
"Where do you think all power comes from?" and continued spinning joyfully.
Ann saw right through me when I shared what happened, and I'm very grateful for that! She told me to visualise giving that man a red rose ..... Next time I was dancing on air in dream-state, I dared him to join me, and he did! At first his face looked grotesque, but the longer we danced the more attractive he got.
--
As indicated before I was divinely guided to become a healer. I still have my journal notes where I made a note on Oct. 16th 93' how I received an Invitation and an Initiation, but I had to meditate on it to figure out what it meant exactly...
It was one of those (for me) poignant messages , which I knew ignoring it was not an option. But to hear the answer to my "but what does it mean exactly?" question had to wait until I heard loud and clear from the realm of Silence, what it is I was supposed do with that message.
I got the answer and responded, and if I didn't respond? and, if I didn't follow up on what my Soul was guiding me towards?
I would never know what I missed.
Some call this type of spiritual practice Dream Yoga. Ever since I was a kid I've been a lucid dreamer that's why I pay attention to significant signs and symbols. . . brief account of what happened:
So, there I was having a very pleasant conversation with an "eccentric woman". I knew,"We were on the same level" . At some point, she pointed to some folks and said: "they believe in magic" -- to which I responded, "if you have the knowledge you can make it happen."
Next instant I was inside a dwelling, standing inside a circle of red clad men who seemed a "couple of 2 feet taller than me" -- which kind of spooked me. I did the 360 degree scan and withdrew my consciousness from that 'moment'.
Next, I'm struggling to find my way out only to find my self impossibly stuck in a tiny chamber and "realized quickly it was futile." (to struggle).
Next instant I found myself in a room... "no one approached me, but I knew what I had to do, and said: "I'll work for you."
Next I'm standing next to a dark haired woman who pointed to a small, square and very black shiny "object" ( indicating "pick it up"). "I knew it was a test of sorts and confidently picked it up" . . .Same instant "I felt like the energies of that object and mine were fusing". Next, a "Tremendous current of energy lifted me off the ground."
"I levitated" and glided across a people-filled room over to a table with lovers "in love". She was wearing a "satin" creme colored blouse -- my favorite color at the time.
Oct. 19th. I was alone and decided to intentionally focus on what the above meant exactly. I sat down and waited with eyes open for some sign with incense 'on' seated at least 10 feet away from it. The windows and doors were closed. The cat was not running around and yet -- not right away, but at some point -- the smoke from the incense began drifting directly towards my face in a straight beeline. That was really uncanny . . . And then I knew!
"I KNOW NOW what the above dream told me "WORK FOR THE HIGHER POWER". I will study Reiki." (direct quote).
I had no idea what Reiki was about but saw in Rev. John White's class one woman raise her palms towards someone who was talking about her migraine and that gesture felt-looked so loving. I heard her say the word Reiki and that it had to do with "energy work". Some days later I had my first Reiki workshop.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Becoming a Source of Light
The Soul infused personality no longer fears other's judgments, is no longer caught up in patterns of people-pleasing or people-controlling, because we know who we are and we know where we're headed. . . We tell the truth and if that truth is not welcome, we still communicate it by acting as our Truth because we are filled with Spiritual Purpose.
This state of realization flows from the same source as Jesus' Sword of Truth -- His, "Think not I am come to send peace on earth; I came not to send peace but a sword."
Yes.
When we realize we are eternal and part of a bigger plan we don't cower or mince our words. We have a mind that receives impressions from the Divine mind, which the Soul recognizes as 'higher ideals'. . . These mystical forces keep us on track, keep us pointing in the right direction.
Recognizing and receiving spiritual gifts for what they are, gives us the courage and the strenght to act on them. For otherwise what would be the point of it all? We instinctively recognize what is true and what is false and shallow and sitting on our hands, pretending we are deaf and mute is not an option for one who is 'spirit-alive'.
But we also know how to pick our battles. Jesus warned not to stick around those who hate you.
And rest assured, when inflation tries to rear its proud head, the Soul, like a flame reduces to ashes anything within us that doesn't resonate with the Divine Truth, because this Sword is a double edge sword.
Spiritual Warrior receives its 'command' by way of signs primarily, and if we are versed in properly reading the message we have no choice but obey.
By 'Unknown Friend' on visions quote:
"Vision presents and shows us spiritual things, inspiration infuses us with understanding of them, and intuition reveals to us their essence by way of assimilation with our essence."
I was given in Nov. 5/92 a vision which deeply resonated its "You are being guided, fear not" message. . . A vivid vision of a Fish bringing forth from its mouth a shiny black sphere, which I on the spot translated (from journal quote) as "spirituality" & "power".
May as well mention, just below I jutted down on Nov. 12th/92 about being escorted into a room by a man while "I FLOATED thinking about writing from the intuitive".
So here I am, years later -- still on the Internet -- scribbling, caring not one iota if anyone will ever read this, but it is something I must do because I promised . . .
This state of realization flows from the same source as Jesus' Sword of Truth -- His, "Think not I am come to send peace on earth; I came not to send peace but a sword."
Yes.
When we realize we are eternal and part of a bigger plan we don't cower or mince our words. We have a mind that receives impressions from the Divine mind, which the Soul recognizes as 'higher ideals'. . . These mystical forces keep us on track, keep us pointing in the right direction.
Recognizing and receiving spiritual gifts for what they are, gives us the courage and the strenght to act on them. For otherwise what would be the point of it all? We instinctively recognize what is true and what is false and shallow and sitting on our hands, pretending we are deaf and mute is not an option for one who is 'spirit-alive'.
But we also know how to pick our battles. Jesus warned not to stick around those who hate you.
And rest assured, when inflation tries to rear its proud head, the Soul, like a flame reduces to ashes anything within us that doesn't resonate with the Divine Truth, because this Sword is a double edge sword.
Spiritual Warrior receives its 'command' by way of signs primarily, and if we are versed in properly reading the message we have no choice but obey.
By 'Unknown Friend' on visions quote:
"Vision presents and shows us spiritual things, inspiration infuses us with understanding of them, and intuition reveals to us their essence by way of assimilation with our essence."
I was given in Nov. 5/92 a vision which deeply resonated its "You are being guided, fear not" message. . . A vivid vision of a Fish bringing forth from its mouth a shiny black sphere, which I on the spot translated (from journal quote) as "spirituality" & "power".
May as well mention, just below I jutted down on Nov. 12th/92 about being escorted into a room by a man while "I FLOATED thinking about writing from the intuitive".
So here I am, years later -- still on the Internet -- scribbling, caring not one iota if anyone will ever read this, but it is something I must do because I promised . . .
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
On Rapture Musings
Edited 2024-07-07 - I decided to rewrite this blog in greater detail and give it a better suited Path Ordained by God, title. This extremely complex 'bridging the gulf between Heaven & Earth' topic's new incarnation was published in 2024/March. I am leaving this one as is 'for the record'.
In this post I will describe three types of Soul level Initiations (post-enlightenment stages). These events or experiences fall into the Soul science category that acts like a bridge that joins Humanity and Divinity in a 'not two', way. Genuine Saints and Siddhas show that 'Soul Powers' are real, show that recipients of Grace-bestowed Initiations, have a moral duty to obey the inner call of our vocation for the benefit of all beings. We encourage: 'Open your soul to the Eternal - but it must be the eternal that draws forth your strenght and beauty, not desire for growh. For in one case you develop in the luxuriance of purity, in the other you harden by the forcible passion for personal stature'- in words of an unknown Master. . .We remind the spiritual aspirant that the 'surrendered one relies on Grace to help us patiently endure years upon years of continuous 'demolition' of karmic bagage.
What I describe happened many years before I was guided to check out Aurobindo's work. What I share *descents of Divine Force-Light/Bliss-Sound* takes place at the zenith-point of one's eternal self-Soul's evolution. And, because I didn't misuse this Knowledge, or betray it by imagining I was 'special, I was able to sustain the responsibility of its Command to bring to the world's evolutionary spirituality table, the Story of what needs to happen before one attains the Final Samadhi. The attainment of the Stage of Coronation in Omniscient in all its aspects, carries with it a responsibility to 'bring down heaven to earth for ourselves and mankind'.
Sri Aurobindo confirms for us that,
'Divine condition descends from above, is given by the Divine. + The higher spiritual planes create their own formulations in the subliminal in the depths within us. + (but) To know them, the Supermind must descend into us. + We do not found ourselves on faith alone, but on great ground of knowledge which we have been developing and testing day and night for years upon years more scrupulously than any scientist his theory and his method on the physical plane." + From The Life Divine, p.956 "For a real transformation there must be a direct and unveiled intervention from above; there would be necessary too a total submission and surrender of the lower consciousness, a cessation of its instence, a will in it for its separate law of action to be completely annulled by transformation and lose all rights over our being."
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Brief descriptions:
1. This particular Initiation experience was unlike any other, yet just as startling-intense as the rest (circa 1993) - and occurred during hands-on energy balancing sessions while working on my Master Dr. Kiara Galbreath. On this rare occasion I decided to join the three other fellow students after I finished working on someone else. Standing room only and hands on Kiara's knees suited me fine, until I felt so much energy surging through me and my hands began 'jumping' with strong zaps of electric-like currents. Couple of minutes later, a very much 'solid' column-like of Energy began pounding my Crown chakra in rhythmic waves. . . This was the most fascinating thing to me, because I was standing in a room full of talking and laughing people! I knew I had to stay as still as possible and take long and deep breaths in order to accommodate the influx of this Energy into my system. I knew I was in an altered state of consciousness, because even though I heard the noise as if from a great distance, it made my head hurt. Because the noise/sound felt very jarring-uncomfortable, it was really annoying and at some point I asked for silence. I made that request more then once, then finally the woman sitting at Kiara's feet heard me, and said: "Helen is asking for silence". No one heard her, so she asked again - and then the room fell silent . . .The instant that happened, I became very self-conscious of my breathing and asked this Energy to cease its action. And it did. Not instantly, but within seconds this Conscious Intelligence-Forces' rhythmic wave-action slowed down before ceasing altogether.
* In retrospect I realized that everyone was so talkative and 'happy' was not just because 'Big Bob' was telling stories about his vacation in Florida with teen daughters, but in addition, they felt the influence of this (transcendent) Bliss Energy.
*
2. I named the following *extremely intense* Initiation (in 94) 'Thundering Combustion Experience'. . .
I was in bed flat on my back when suddenly my head became like a thunderously roaring, ready to explode, missile. . . I thought this Energy will render me toast (dead) and uttered "God be with me!" Next instant I disappeared. . .without name and history 'I' became witnessing awareness, aware of the Intelligent Immensity and Magnitude so great that, it is beyond the wildest imagination.
I don't know how long 'I' stayed in this state, but felt what happened the instant my extremely subtle body snapped back into my flesh body. The impact was so abrupt, I felt my light body's torso rise-up to a sitting position before gently laying down.
* Edit adding 23/05/2018, verifying quote from The Darsana Upanishad (6. 36-38) -- which I chanced upon in 2013 - and am including here with permission from Mr. Sandeep www.auromere.wordpress.com/2010/02/12/the-subtle-sounds-which-indicate-progress-in-yoga.
"The Darsana Upanishad describes the sound heard when the consciousness becomes centered in the Brahmandra (anterior fontanelle), located in top-center region of the head: Whe air (prana) enters the Brahmaranda, nada (sound) is also produced there. Resembling at first the sound of conchblast (sanka-dhvani) and like a roaring of a mountain cataract (giri-praravanna). Thereafter, O great wise one! The Atman, mightily pleased, will actually appear in front of thee. Then there will be ripeness of the Knowledge of Atman from Yoga and disowing by the Yogi of worldly existence." - Guy L. Beck, Sonic Theology, pp 39-103
Edit-ading 2024-01-25 recently discovered *verifying* passages penned by the Rig Veda seer and Shankara, on 'the might of the mighty Rudra'. Adi Shankara defined the name Rudra as: "One who makes all beings cry at the time of cosmic dissolution." + "The strenghth of Godhead never departs from Rudra, him who is sovereing of this world, the mighty" (2.33. g).
The Rig Veda named the Godhead's Power 'Rudra', which is often associated with the sound not heard with our ears' + 'his terrifying howl as he embraks on his destructive rampage' + "The might of the mighty eradicates problems" *karma*.
Rig Veda's prayer to Rudra inludes this verse: "We worship the three eye One who has matted hair who shines like the Sun."
The Bible has references to 'rushing mighty wind': (King James) Acts 2:2-4 "And suddenly there came a sound from heaven of a rushing mighty wind, and filled the house where they were sitting. And there appeared unto them cloven tongues like as of fire, and it set upon each of them."
Jeremiah 5:13 "And the prophets shal become wind, and the word is not in them: thus shall it be done unto them".
The rushing wind imagery represents the the dynamic and transformative nature of the Holy Spirit.
I am happy to say that Aurobindo confirmed for me/us that: "There are many Forces (but) it is only the Supramental Force that works absolutely because it creates its own conditions. & The Force descends for two things: 1. To transform the Nature 2. To carry on the work through the instrument' & "One feels the force only when one is conscious of it." & "The descent of Peace, the descent of Force or Power, the descent of Light, the descent of Ananda, these are the four things that transform nature. All these different actions of the Force on the adhara with the intention of opening it up from above and below and horizontally also. The action from above opens it to the descent of forces from above the Mind and the ascent of consciousness above the lid of the ordinary human mind. The horizontal action opens it to cosmic consciousness on all its levels. The action from below helps to connect the superconscient. Finally the consciousness instead of being limited in the body becomes infinite, rises infinitely above, plunges infinitely below, widens infinitely on every side. There is besides the opening of the centers to the Light and Power and Ananda that has to descend from above. & "A sound does sometimes come with a particular descent of conciousness or Force from above."
Excerpts from: Letters On Yoga - On Descent intyoga.online.fr/triple3.htm
3. I was awakened suddenly because every fiber of my being was vibrating with loud, high voltage note-frequency. That too felt uncanny but not entirely surprising because by then, Kundalini Shakti put me through many types of energy balancing Initiations.
* Edit-adding in 2023-06-18, statement on Shabd *Sound* penned by Rig Veda seer: "But the perfect saints, irrespective of whether they belonged to one religion or the other, have gone beyond this and have spoken of Sar Shabd and Sat Shabd as well, and regions beyond Brahmand". - wikipedia/Surat_Shabd_Yoga
Because of these, and many other types of Initiations, long time ago I wrote: 'I am neither Christian, or any other world's tradition mystic, because the Supreme Shakti Initiated me into all Wisdom Traditions. I integrated them all by directly comprehending the Essence of each Tradition's teaching. At this stage-attainment one has the spiritual authority to declare: 'I jumped out of all possible systems by becoming one with the very source of all power, and therefore, am no longer bound by any of them'.
P.S. Today, I revisited some notes from years gone by - a time I was posting on Shambhala forums (which are long gone) where spiritual types congregated and am smiling. In those years I called myself 'spiritual baby' and asserted nothing. I shared mystical experiences and read what (mostly) Buddhist types shared with each other. . .I also word-played, because my nature was/is dancing with Joy. I am smiling because one man wrote something to me that caught my fancy, and I want to share what he said said to me:
His avatar name was ogb - comment's heading said: "Why?"- posted 7/8/2002 at 19:50 AM (to my response whose content I don't recall).
Just to be with you at the end of the world...
skipping on wide stone path,
like children returning home.
From a single touch of your tummy
comes realizations of kicking imaginations;
fetus of futures truth unborn.
Within you love is right.
Edit-adding 30/06/2018 link to, Cosmic Tonglen Duty www.spiritspeaks-theofilia.blogspot.ca/2011/03/cosmictonglen-duty.html
In this post I will describe three types of Soul level Initiations (post-enlightenment stages). These events or experiences fall into the Soul science category that acts like a bridge that joins Humanity and Divinity in a 'not two', way. Genuine Saints and Siddhas show that 'Soul Powers' are real, show that recipients of Grace-bestowed Initiations, have a moral duty to obey the inner call of our vocation for the benefit of all beings. We encourage: 'Open your soul to the Eternal - but it must be the eternal that draws forth your strenght and beauty, not desire for growh. For in one case you develop in the luxuriance of purity, in the other you harden by the forcible passion for personal stature'- in words of an unknown Master. . .We remind the spiritual aspirant that the 'surrendered one relies on Grace to help us patiently endure years upon years of continuous 'demolition' of karmic bagage.
What I describe happened many years before I was guided to check out Aurobindo's work. What I share *descents of Divine Force-Light/Bliss-Sound* takes place at the zenith-point of one's eternal self-Soul's evolution. And, because I didn't misuse this Knowledge, or betray it by imagining I was 'special, I was able to sustain the responsibility of its Command to bring to the world's evolutionary spirituality table, the Story of what needs to happen before one attains the Final Samadhi. The attainment of the Stage of Coronation in Omniscient in all its aspects, carries with it a responsibility to 'bring down heaven to earth for ourselves and mankind'.
Sri Aurobindo confirms for us that,
'Divine condition descends from above, is given by the Divine. + The higher spiritual planes create their own formulations in the subliminal in the depths within us. + (but) To know them, the Supermind must descend into us. + We do not found ourselves on faith alone, but on great ground of knowledge which we have been developing and testing day and night for years upon years more scrupulously than any scientist his theory and his method on the physical plane." + From The Life Divine, p.956 "For a real transformation there must be a direct and unveiled intervention from above; there would be necessary too a total submission and surrender of the lower consciousness, a cessation of its instence, a will in it for its separate law of action to be completely annulled by transformation and lose all rights over our being."
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Brief descriptions:
1. This particular Initiation experience was unlike any other, yet just as startling-intense as the rest (circa 1993) - and occurred during hands-on energy balancing sessions while working on my Master Dr. Kiara Galbreath. On this rare occasion I decided to join the three other fellow students after I finished working on someone else. Standing room only and hands on Kiara's knees suited me fine, until I felt so much energy surging through me and my hands began 'jumping' with strong zaps of electric-like currents. Couple of minutes later, a very much 'solid' column-like of Energy began pounding my Crown chakra in rhythmic waves. . . This was the most fascinating thing to me, because I was standing in a room full of talking and laughing people! I knew I had to stay as still as possible and take long and deep breaths in order to accommodate the influx of this Energy into my system. I knew I was in an altered state of consciousness, because even though I heard the noise as if from a great distance, it made my head hurt. Because the noise/sound felt very jarring-uncomfortable, it was really annoying and at some point I asked for silence. I made that request more then once, then finally the woman sitting at Kiara's feet heard me, and said: "Helen is asking for silence". No one heard her, so she asked again - and then the room fell silent . . .The instant that happened, I became very self-conscious of my breathing and asked this Energy to cease its action. And it did. Not instantly, but within seconds this Conscious Intelligence-Forces' rhythmic wave-action slowed down before ceasing altogether.
* In retrospect I realized that everyone was so talkative and 'happy' was not just because 'Big Bob' was telling stories about his vacation in Florida with teen daughters, but in addition, they felt the influence of this (transcendent) Bliss Energy.
*
2. I named the following *extremely intense* Initiation (in 94) 'Thundering Combustion Experience'. . .
I was in bed flat on my back when suddenly my head became like a thunderously roaring, ready to explode, missile. . . I thought this Energy will render me toast (dead) and uttered "God be with me!" Next instant I disappeared. . .without name and history 'I' became witnessing awareness, aware of the Intelligent Immensity and Magnitude so great that, it is beyond the wildest imagination.
I don't know how long 'I' stayed in this state, but felt what happened the instant my extremely subtle body snapped back into my flesh body. The impact was so abrupt, I felt my light body's torso rise-up to a sitting position before gently laying down.
* Edit adding 23/05/2018, verifying quote from The Darsana Upanishad (6. 36-38) -- which I chanced upon in 2013 - and am including here with permission from Mr. Sandeep www.auromere.wordpress.com/2010/02/12/the-subtle-sounds-which-indicate-progress-in-yoga.
"The Darsana Upanishad describes the sound heard when the consciousness becomes centered in the Brahmandra (anterior fontanelle), located in top-center region of the head: Whe air (prana) enters the Brahmaranda, nada (sound) is also produced there. Resembling at first the sound of conchblast (sanka-dhvani) and like a roaring of a mountain cataract (giri-praravanna). Thereafter, O great wise one! The Atman, mightily pleased, will actually appear in front of thee. Then there will be ripeness of the Knowledge of Atman from Yoga and disowing by the Yogi of worldly existence." - Guy L. Beck, Sonic Theology, pp 39-103
Edit-ading 2024-01-25 recently discovered *verifying* passages penned by the Rig Veda seer and Shankara, on 'the might of the mighty Rudra'. Adi Shankara defined the name Rudra as: "One who makes all beings cry at the time of cosmic dissolution." + "The strenghth of Godhead never departs from Rudra, him who is sovereing of this world, the mighty" (2.33. g).
The Rig Veda named the Godhead's Power 'Rudra', which is often associated with the sound not heard with our ears' + 'his terrifying howl as he embraks on his destructive rampage' + "The might of the mighty eradicates problems" *karma*.
Rig Veda's prayer to Rudra inludes this verse: "We worship the three eye One who has matted hair who shines like the Sun."
The Bible has references to 'rushing mighty wind': (King James) Acts 2:2-4 "And suddenly there came a sound from heaven of a rushing mighty wind, and filled the house where they were sitting. And there appeared unto them cloven tongues like as of fire, and it set upon each of them."
Jeremiah 5:13 "And the prophets shal become wind, and the word is not in them: thus shall it be done unto them".
The rushing wind imagery represents the the dynamic and transformative nature of the Holy Spirit.
I am happy to say that Aurobindo confirmed for me/us that: "There are many Forces (but) it is only the Supramental Force that works absolutely because it creates its own conditions. & The Force descends for two things: 1. To transform the Nature 2. To carry on the work through the instrument' & "One feels the force only when one is conscious of it." & "The descent of Peace, the descent of Force or Power, the descent of Light, the descent of Ananda, these are the four things that transform nature. All these different actions of the Force on the adhara with the intention of opening it up from above and below and horizontally also. The action from above opens it to the descent of forces from above the Mind and the ascent of consciousness above the lid of the ordinary human mind. The horizontal action opens it to cosmic consciousness on all its levels. The action from below helps to connect the superconscient. Finally the consciousness instead of being limited in the body becomes infinite, rises infinitely above, plunges infinitely below, widens infinitely on every side. There is besides the opening of the centers to the Light and Power and Ananda that has to descend from above. & "A sound does sometimes come with a particular descent of conciousness or Force from above."
Excerpts from: Letters On Yoga - On Descent intyoga.online.fr/triple3.htm
3. I was awakened suddenly because every fiber of my being was vibrating with loud, high voltage note-frequency. That too felt uncanny but not entirely surprising because by then, Kundalini Shakti put me through many types of energy balancing Initiations.
* Edit-adding in 2023-06-18, statement on Shabd *Sound* penned by Rig Veda seer: "But the perfect saints, irrespective of whether they belonged to one religion or the other, have gone beyond this and have spoken of Sar Shabd and Sat Shabd as well, and regions beyond Brahmand". - wikipedia/Surat_Shabd_Yoga
Because of these, and many other types of Initiations, long time ago I wrote: 'I am neither Christian, or any other world's tradition mystic, because the Supreme Shakti Initiated me into all Wisdom Traditions. I integrated them all by directly comprehending the Essence of each Tradition's teaching. At this stage-attainment one has the spiritual authority to declare: 'I jumped out of all possible systems by becoming one with the very source of all power, and therefore, am no longer bound by any of them'.
P.S. Today, I revisited some notes from years gone by - a time I was posting on Shambhala forums (which are long gone) where spiritual types congregated and am smiling. In those years I called myself 'spiritual baby' and asserted nothing. I shared mystical experiences and read what (mostly) Buddhist types shared with each other. . .I also word-played, because my nature was/is dancing with Joy. I am smiling because one man wrote something to me that caught my fancy, and I want to share what he said said to me:
His avatar name was ogb - comment's heading said: "Why?"- posted 7/8/2002 at 19:50 AM (to my response whose content I don't recall).
Just to be with you at the end of the world...
skipping on wide stone path,
like children returning home.
From a single touch of your tummy
comes realizations of kicking imaginations;
fetus of futures truth unborn.
Within you love is right.
Edit-adding 30/06/2018 link to, Cosmic Tonglen Duty www.spiritspeaks-theofilia.blogspot.ca/2011/03/cosmictonglen-duty.html
Monday, May 11, 2009
Fullness of Presence in Supreme Identity
When someone is ready for spiritual self-surrender the awakened consciousness of the Soul takes charge and, in time will possess the whole being. Once this is accomplished it will naturally surrender itself to still higher/deeper stage . . .
Surrenders our littleness to the Supreme Divine visible to my eye of contemplation its uncreated Light . . . but it is the Divine who decides how far we go. . .
One can get there with the help of a living Master who is in the Absolute State, or (like me) receive it from another dimension of Life. My encounter with, and Bliss-energy transmission from Kwan Yin in 1996, falls into this category, for example. There were many other Divine energy transmissions and the reason I know consciously that I, and everyone else abides within the (supreme) Godhead. Anyone who experiences this, in their own words will utter something which will mirror (this) Rig Veda quote :
Beholding the higher Light beyond darkness we came to the divine Sun in the Godhead to the highest Light of all.
Known by various names this Shakti Bliss-force , or the all pervading power of Divine love vibration, permeates into every atom and molecule, but its subtle power can't be directly felt at the level of human awareness until the spiritual work is done.
This spiritual force - which some call Kundalini Shakti - has to ascend and pierce through all the chakras before uniting with the all pervading power of Divine Love before one feels in every fiber of ones being its Essence, and sees with the eye of flesh its golden light aura around our head and body. (I still have my journal entry when first time I saw mine - Summer 1994).
Everyone is invited to this Love-party. . .
Those who possess stabilised sincerity and spiritual purity show the way, but we can't do the work for you. We worked hard and long before we were ready for the complete cosmic makeover and the Supreme Transmission. I never had any ambitions of being spiritual but it happened anyway. This Force-Power is received by the human vehicle when its Chakra System can properly accommodate this Love-ananda frequency.
In its Initiated state the Soul-flame doesn't change her identity, it changes in orientation. . .
Now we see clearly that the destiny of the Soul, is, and always was, in the hands of the Perfect Power. We see that the (Divine) Solar Heart's all encompassing wisdom is the driving force of evolution.
One who is plugged into the Fullness of Presence in Supreme Identity has no choice but perform our Duty on energy level.
Plainly stated, when Kundalini / Shakti force is activated within one's body it produces a large flow of energy in the reproductive system. This Energy/Essence is directed upwards pumping Bliss-essence into the World's hologram.
I named this job/work Cosmic Tonglen Duty. . .
This work is not only not glamorous, but right down hard. . .and not something the ego-self would ever volunteer for. It is not about resting in 'Nirvana' . Nirvana is but a stepping stone, or a means to something deeper still...Into its fabric are woven 'Divine Duty' (work).
When I pleaded: "Your Will, not mine, be done!", the Divine first directed me to become hands-on energy healer. Once I mastered this step, the Soul (who performs the will of the one Spirit) had another plan in store for me.
I write about these things because I see 'mental spirituality' parading as the Real Deal.
Who will say/confirm this for me? -- who will say: "This is it, she knows this directly!"
She Knows . . . The She/Immortal Soul whose veil no mortal has lifted, Knows. Not as a mental abstraction, but as something as concrete and solid as the desk I'm sitting at. As solid as my body is . . .There is no one. . . But this is as it should be, since only one who is plugged directly to this dimension of being can know what I describe, can verify this for me.
Someone like Hadewijch of Brabant and Beatrijs van Tienen left written texts of their struggles before they got plugged in to this Supreme Frequency, but I think it is even more difficult in this day and age I believe because I live in a culture which sees this as something pathological.
Recently I chanced upon this quote:
"If the mind is actually part of a continuum, a labyrinth that is connected not only to every other mind that exists or has existed, but to every atom, organism, and region in the vastness of space and time itself, the fact that is able to occasionally make forays into the labyrinth and have transpersonal experiences no longer seems so strange." - Grof
It is safe for someone like Grof to talk about this, but as soon as I talk about my mystical experiences and Divine revelations, I am treated with great suspicion (by many, but this is as it should be).
Surrenders our littleness to the Supreme Divine visible to my eye of contemplation its uncreated Light . . . but it is the Divine who decides how far we go. . .
One can get there with the help of a living Master who is in the Absolute State, or (like me) receive it from another dimension of Life. My encounter with, and Bliss-energy transmission from Kwan Yin in 1996, falls into this category, for example. There were many other Divine energy transmissions and the reason I know consciously that I, and everyone else abides within the (supreme) Godhead. Anyone who experiences this, in their own words will utter something which will mirror (this) Rig Veda quote :
Beholding the higher Light beyond darkness we came to the divine Sun in the Godhead to the highest Light of all.
Known by various names this Shakti Bliss-force , or the all pervading power of Divine love vibration, permeates into every atom and molecule, but its subtle power can't be directly felt at the level of human awareness until the spiritual work is done.
This spiritual force - which some call Kundalini Shakti - has to ascend and pierce through all the chakras before uniting with the all pervading power of Divine Love before one feels in every fiber of ones being its Essence, and sees with the eye of flesh its golden light aura around our head and body. (I still have my journal entry when first time I saw mine - Summer 1994).
Everyone is invited to this Love-party. . .
Those who possess stabilised sincerity and spiritual purity show the way, but we can't do the work for you. We worked hard and long before we were ready for the complete cosmic makeover and the Supreme Transmission. I never had any ambitions of being spiritual but it happened anyway. This Force-Power is received by the human vehicle when its Chakra System can properly accommodate this Love-ananda frequency.
In its Initiated state the Soul-flame doesn't change her identity, it changes in orientation. . .
Now we see clearly that the destiny of the Soul, is, and always was, in the hands of the Perfect Power. We see that the (Divine) Solar Heart's all encompassing wisdom is the driving force of evolution.
One who is plugged into the Fullness of Presence in Supreme Identity has no choice but perform our Duty on energy level.
Plainly stated, when Kundalini / Shakti force is activated within one's body it produces a large flow of energy in the reproductive system. This Energy/Essence is directed upwards pumping Bliss-essence into the World's hologram.
I named this job/work Cosmic Tonglen Duty. . .
This work is not only not glamorous, but right down hard. . .and not something the ego-self would ever volunteer for. It is not about resting in 'Nirvana' . Nirvana is but a stepping stone, or a means to something deeper still...Into its fabric are woven 'Divine Duty' (work).
When I pleaded: "Your Will, not mine, be done!", the Divine first directed me to become hands-on energy healer. Once I mastered this step, the Soul (who performs the will of the one Spirit) had another plan in store for me.
I write about these things because I see 'mental spirituality' parading as the Real Deal.
Who will say/confirm this for me? -- who will say: "This is it, she knows this directly!"
She Knows . . . The She/Immortal Soul whose veil no mortal has lifted, Knows. Not as a mental abstraction, but as something as concrete and solid as the desk I'm sitting at. As solid as my body is . . .There is no one. . . But this is as it should be, since only one who is plugged directly to this dimension of being can know what I describe, can verify this for me.
Someone like Hadewijch of Brabant and Beatrijs van Tienen left written texts of their struggles before they got plugged in to this Supreme Frequency, but I think it is even more difficult in this day and age I believe because I live in a culture which sees this as something pathological.
Recently I chanced upon this quote:
"If the mind is actually part of a continuum, a labyrinth that is connected not only to every other mind that exists or has existed, but to every atom, organism, and region in the vastness of space and time itself, the fact that is able to occasionally make forays into the labyrinth and have transpersonal experiences no longer seems so strange." - Grof
It is safe for someone like Grof to talk about this, but as soon as I talk about my mystical experiences and Divine revelations, I am treated with great suspicion (by many, but this is as it should be).
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