Wednesday, May 23, 2018

The Roar of the Timeless Beyond

Edit-expanded again!  26/05/2018:  (Decided to change the title-from original: On Rapture Musings)

'The roar of the timeless beyond' saying,  is attributed to the historical Buddha. Today's teachers of enlightenment have no idea what these words truly mean because one has to have the experience of the transcendent Roar.  They experienced 'something' - I am not arguing that and am glad their followers are benefiting 'something' - I am saying their type of enlightenment is 'partial' at best,  a mental-level interpretation of what they think it means. The Roar of the timeless Beyond is an actual experience I wrote about in On Rapture Musings.
This is a Soul level experience. . .

 Because I know this, I have no choice but assert: those who talk about "ultimate realization", but don't know what the Soul journey through Light and Sound is about,  don't have the last word on what  Soul Liberation is. They can't know what the experience of Union of the Soul with the Essence/Satchitdananda of the Absolute Supreme is.  The last word belongs to one who does know. . .

I know that even if the 'realizer'  saw my trans-historical Teaching, it would be either ignored, or rationalized away, because of egoic need to protect its core belief.
 They may even see it, but because what I share (new evidence)  will create a feeling that goes against  their core belief, it will not be accepted.
Many espouse that, "spiritual experiences come and go, too, but there is no longer clinging to ecstasy, bliss, love. We have discovered the source of all things and so feel no compulsion to cling to them".
* I don't want to include this man's name, other than to say, I saw this statement in an article someone posted on Facebook today, and gave him the link to this post.

This teachers own words betray him because he doesn't know the difference between Self realization and Soul level Liberation. He doesn't know there are many levels of spiritual Bliss. I experienced all of them - including the last one, because I got plugged permanently to the Supreme Satchitananda (which is above all) and therefore know the difference.
The Upanishad lists ten ascending levels of bliss before one reaches the Bliss of the Eternal Spirit, or, (literal) Shakti/Shiva erotic embrace . . ."and each level a hundredfold the intensity of the proceeding level."
One can cling to a memory of bliss, absolutely, but there is a difference between feeling in every fiber of one's being (constant) Bliss and its  crystal-like frequency within and without (in aura-field),  and a memory of something fleeting.  Spiritual pride belongs to the lower nature, this is why what I-Soul share has nothing to do with either spiritual pride, or self promotion. Personal account of inner transformation - grounded in multidimensional evolution into wholeness and transcendence - as revealed by the eternal self-Soul is nothing to be ashamed of! Aurobindo  didn't apologized for what he knew.  He said, and I agree because I have been at it for decades (keeping record of my experiences, etc):
It is not personal greatness that I am seeking to bring down the Supermind. I care nothing for greatness or littleness in human sense...If human reason regards me as a fool for trying to do what Krishna did not try, I do not in the least care...It is a question between the Divine and myself--whether it is the Divine Will or not, whether I am sent to bring that down or open the way for its descent or at least make it more more possible or not. Let all men jeer at me if they will or all Hell fall upon me if it will for my presumption -- I go on till I conquer or perish.

In his poem Light, Aurobindo describes what the experience of Divine Ecstasy is like: (snippet)

Light, burning Light from the Infinitie's diamond heart
Quivers in my heart where blooms a deathless rose.
Light in its rapture leaping through the nerves!
Light, brooding Light! each passionate cell
In a mute blaze of ecstasy preserves
A living sense of the Imperishable.
I  move in an ocean of stupendous Light
Joining my depths to His eternal height.

* Will mention I had couple of soul-level encounters with him (and have it on record in this blog).  Once, we stood shoulder to shoulder and he urged me to 'keep going' when all kinds of nasty internet people took turn at gaslighting me.
Delusion on parade shames one who demonstrates what authentic Soul-level Liberation is like. I get it, and am reminding folks I am performing the Will of the one Spirit.
What I share has nothing to do with desire to shine before others. I, (the Shabd master in me) transcended all power offices.
While I see the nondual  guru type  'good intentions',  I also see that  what they espouse is (at best) partial truth.
In contrast:  I agree with  Gopi Krishna's assertion with reference to those  rare souls who get plugged to Samadhi  permanently:  All the great mystics who have written on the subject have given their own symptoms openly and plainly. That's the tradition. And from their descriptions, one can compare one's own condition."
Scientists write books about their discoveries - some win Nobel prizes.  Musicians are not keeping their gift/music locked up in dark cellar lest someone thinks she/he is boasting, either.  Why should genuine mystic hide her or his Depth data! (our empirical evidence cross-referenced with  community of the adequate). Our experiences is our Depth data's empirical evidence in the Soul physics, field - which has its own law.  Mystical Dimension essay,  is a good example of what a 'great mystic'  must demonstrate  in order to pass the standard genuine/ascended mystics set. Our 'bar' high...and from our vantage-point we see where others 'bars' are.
In order to demonstrate what the fully ascended Soul bears witness to, I am more than happy to show what I wrote in On Rapture Musings (2009)  in it's edit-improved incarnation (out of many other types of Initiations = link below).
My earlier written blogs were lamely composed and lacked clarity, still I am very glad I did it  because they chronicle  authentic mystical experience and their contemplative conclusions,  which are transforming. The Supreme Kundalini Shakti gave me complete Cosmic makeover, and I demonstrate what that's about.  .   . I show:   'see, this thing didn't kill me, so keep on going even when the going gets tough. You are in good hands!'  I'm hoping that what I share will benefit someone whose eternal self Soul is ready to fulfill her ancient plan - if not this lifetime, then at some other time-point.
What I share is not book knowledge.  I read what others wrote after I had the experiences. Many (experiences) didn't get the approving nod from my company of the adequate peers, till many years later.
In On Rapture Musings,  I edit-included this assertion:
Because of these and many other types of Initiations, long time ago I knew: I am neither Christian, or any other world's wisdom tradition mystic, because the Supreme Shakti/Holy Spirit Initiated me into all wisdom traditions. I integrated the 'teaching'   by directly comprehending the Essence of each tradition.  This is a point at which one has the spiritual authority to say: I jumped out of all possible systems because I am no longer bound by any of them.

*  In On Raptue Musing, I included one man's response to me from way back (2002) when I was posting in Shambhala forums (which is long gone) - it still makes me smile when I think of it.  I'm smiling now because he saw in me  (snippet) "Within you love is right".
That's a stark contrast to what some told me in another forum (nasty stuff).

Wednesday, May 16, 2018


I forced myself to take a look at couple of my older posts and tweak-edited
Supra Cosmic BrideGroom Has My Back.

In that post I unpack the meaning of  one of my Initiations into Deep Mystery by explaining the significance  of (two) White Horses.

Sunday, April 29, 2018

Visionary Theology

It's been years since my writing on  Christian mysticism ended,  and I'm  glad I am being guided by the  Living Christ Principle (within my interiority) to revisit this topic  again. . .
Again, I received a Sign that He  has my back, as I continue to struggle to show (in couple of Facebook's groups)   those who insist that  'God is nothing but a childish myth',  that there is more to life than the Materialist would have us believe.
In this post I use the term 'Christian', but in a real sense what I describe, any genuine mystic - no matter the tradition -   can identify with what I call 'cosmic makeover'  (by active Kundalini Shakti/Holy Spirit), we understand  'mechanism of Descent', because we experienced many types of 'Initiations'.
 Sri Aurobindo confirmed this for me:
The Descent of Peace (Sat) the descent of Force of Power (Chit) the descent of Ananda, these are the things that transform nature. It's not really the plane that descends, it is the Power and Truth of it that descends into the material and the veil between the material and it no longer exists. (...)
In the quiet mind turned to the Divine, the initiation comes of the Divine Will and the right way to do it. (...)  that which receives the influence and answers to the call is not so much the intellect, the heart, or the life mind, but the inner soul which better knows the truth of its own destiny and mission.
+ When the Overmind descends, the predominance of the centralizing ego-sense is entirely subordinated, lost in largeness of being and finally abolished; a wide cosmic perception and feeling of a boundless universal Self and movement replaces it. 

Example (one of many) of  what the experience of Descent/Divine Initiation  was like for me? - including link to Cosmic Synchronicity & Confirmation, which includes link to Solar Heart Initiation
Today I received a Sign to revisit my written in the 90's poem titled, Feather On The Breath Of God.
Seen with the eye of Spirit, a crystal clear Vision of White Feather introduced itself to my awareness. This poem was inspired by St. Hildegard von Bingen - because she referred to herself as that.
I grew up in a very 'relaxed'  Christian family,  so it is not surprising I resonated with Christian mystical symbolism.  In this poem I ask questions whose answers I already knew.  I will introduce (again) Feather On The Breath Of God at the end of this essay. . .
I am pretty  sure I talked about this in the first year of blog-scribbling  (in 2009 - which I need to revisit and edit) but because I am re-visiting things, here I goeth again:
 I  had a library-borrowed book titled The Experience of No Self (I think), penned by modern day mystic Bernadette Roberts, whose cover was graced by Hildegard's art.  The instant I saw the image I had to see who painted that! Turned out it was someone whose name I  never heard  before.  I will never forget my heart's leaping with joy because instantly I recognized the meaning/significance contained in that symbolism (based on personal experiences).  .   .
It was an image of a head/face with three wings - one of which was longer than the rest. It's span extended beyond the frames' border.

Mystic poetry is about connecting human psyche with the Kosmic Mind and its Love/Blissananda/Shakti/Satchitananda.  This in no way indicates one can 'make' someone else a 'mystic'. This stage, like any other,  must be earned. I paid my dues with years of  surrender to the Divine in solitude and  river of tears, before River of Light began pouring from my Crown chakra into world's hologram via subtle planes.  Mind likes to jump stages and cognitively land in Supermind, then convince itself it achieved the highest  evolutionary level.
That can't happen,  because supramental evolution lies outside the mind-line -- so it's not like reading a book about transcendence will  plug someone to Supermind and its Bliss (Satchitananda) in an embodied sense.  Mystic poetry can be inspiring . . .and that's a good thing!

In my post penned in 2012 titled Spiritual Power I wrote:
"My personal history is interlinked with St. Hildegard in quite mysterious way".
The 'mysterious way' continues, because today I saw her  description of  receiving "an extraordinary vision" - in which she revealed the "sparkling droplets of sweet rain", that John the Evangelist experienced..." -   confirms for me something no one else have.  (quote from 
 I too experienced - and chronicled here - seeing with eyes open 'crystal rain' . . . It was quite startling when long ago  while sitting in a shade in a sun-drenched afternoon, I saw what looked exactly like rainfall - the only difference was that this Energy has a crystal-like texture/quality...That was not the first time...Quite a few years ago, I opened the door  and thought "my laundry is on the line and it's raining!", before realizing it was sunny!
We have this in common - in  Hildegard's words:  "And I spoke and wrote these things not by the invention of my heart or that of any other person, but as by the secret mysteries of God I heard and received them in heavenly places."

This Work is perennially relevant. Many insist there is no way to prove the existence of  the Supreme Divine. Those I quote who are not in their physical body, rely on me to be their Voice now.   I bear witness to authentic Soul level Revelations, (which falls into Soul science category) and  have decades worth  of empirical evidence cross-referenced/verified by those who are spiritually qualified.

                       She Who Has No Name

Shall I praise your   name in verse and rhyme?
Would it please you if I walked the paths of one who knew
 you well on those distant shores of days gone by?
Is the radiant blue of Forget-me-not Spring's testimony to your Beauty?
Is the Essence of your Majesty captured in the splendor of a rainbow?
Can it be that the ecstasy of your creation is in every heart beat,
every sunset, sunrise, thunderstorm, and each blade of grass? . .
When the eyes of my eyes were opened I saw wonders that can't be spoken.
Is this why in your heart I found mine
And in your face I see a treasure?
Do the tears of joy as I contemplate you pay
tribute to your sweet embrace?
How can I proclaim this Glory when I'm
just a feather on the breath of God!

Sunday, April 22, 2018

Why Do I Shout From the Heart

(Edit-expanded) Few days ago I finished editing, Why Do I Share My Depth Data?  - and  realized  this topic could benefit from additional injection of emphasis on why our Work is important  in the Universal sense.  Emphasis  on why  what  authentically  God-realized people share is important,  from the perspective of  others. .  .
This is one way to say it - in Sri Aurobindo's words from The Life Divine:

Because the object sought after is not an individual achievement of divine realization for the sake of the individual, but something to be gained for earth-consciousness here, a cosmic, not solely a supra-cosmic achievement. The thing to be gained also is bringing in of Power of consciousness (the Supramental) not yet organized and made directly active.
* I want to say (again) that I 'sought nothing'. . .I had unsolicited  Kundalini Shakti awakening.
And, I decided to include few excerpts from book titled: One Taste - Daily Reflection on Integral Spirituality,  penned by Ken Wilber - published in 2000.
But first, I want to inject this  bio-note: In late 90's I sent a short note of appreciation for his work  to Wilber. He  has been hailed as 'the Einstein of consciousness', so timidly I told him my head 'lit up like the sun' (without going into any details/still have the rough copy)  and included couple of my poems. One poem titled  'She Who Has No Name', has this line in it:  "Wind whispering Truth through the ages". . . this is why when I saw him say (in One Taste):
"And so: given the measure of your own authentic realization, you were actually thinking about gently whispering into the ear of the near-deaf world?" +  "you must speak out to the best of your ability, and shake the spiritual tree, and shine your headlights into the eyes of the complacent". . .
I concluded he was speaking to me directly -- but not exclusively, obviously.
But. . . I had a long way to go before Kundalini Shakti completed performing  'cosmic makeover' on me, and  was ready to 'shout from the heart' - and  long before I got curious about Sri Aurobindo's work (which resonated with what I already knew).

The following excerpts are from section on Wisdom and Compassion:

^ All excellence is elitist. And that includes spiritual excellence as well. But spiritual excellence is an elitism to which all are invited.

^  I don't mean to be harsh here, and we must honor all lesser engagements . Nonetheless, you must have noticed  that the word "soul" is not the hottest item in the title of book sales--but all "soul" really means, in most of those books, is simply the ego in drag. "Soul" has come to denote, in this feeding frenzy of translative grasping, not that which is timeless in you but that which most loudly trashes around in time, and thus "care of the soul" incomprehensibly means nothing much more than focusing intensely on your ardently separate self. Likewise, "spiritual" is on everybody's lips, but usually all it really means is any intense egoic feeling, just as "heart" has come to mean any sincere sentiment of the self-contraction.

^  Thus, the authentic spiritual camps have the heart and soul of the great transformative traditions, and yet they will always do two things at once: appreciate and engage the lesser and translative practices (upon which their own successes usually depend), but also issue a thundering shout from the heart that translation alone is not enough.
And therefore, all of those for whom authentic transformation has deeply unseated their souls must, I believe, wrestle with the profound moral obligation to shout from the heart--perhaps quietly and gently, with tears of reluctance; perhaps with fierce fire and angry wisdom; perhaps with slow and careful analysis; perhaps by unshakable public example--but authenticity always and absolutely carries a demand  and duty:  you must speak out, to the best of your ability, and shake the spiritual tree, and shine your headlights into the eyes of the complacent. You must let that radical realization rumble through your veins and rattle those around you.
Alas, if you fail to do so, you are betraying your own authenticity. You are hiding your true estate. You don't want to upset others because you don't want to upset yourself. You are acting in bad faith, the taste of a bad infinity.
Because, you see, the alarming fact is that any realization of depth carries a terrible burden: Those who are allowed to see are simultaneously saddled with the obligation to communicate that vision in no uncertain terms: that is the bargain. You were allowed to see the truth under the agreement that you would communicate it to others (that is the ultimate meaning of the bodhisattva vow).   

Monday, April 16, 2018

Moving On From #MeToo

Edit-adding link  (on same theme) to companion post titled Healer's Note

 Time to switch focus on culture. The #MeToo movement opened the door to the collective (unconscious)  female rage.  This is a good thing,  because rage must come out before the healing process can take root. . .
I will include video-talk with Louise Mazanti PhD, but first this reflection.

Healing the collective shadow is  part n' parcel of the evolutionary impulse carrying humanity towards a saner living.  It is no secret that radical acceptance of one's not yet white  as freshly fallen snow character traits,  is a noble thing!  Time is ripe for men and women  to manifest a new type of relating with one another.
This is the moment because  we (collectively) see more.  When we become transparent to ourselves we see more. When we see more it hurts more, but it also means we can do something about the 'hurt'.  Once something is SEEN, it can't be un-seen - this is why it is  best to embrace the idea  that  no one else, but one's own compassion-driven  metacognition  can  keep us moving towards that  goal.
We do it, because we intuit that going  through the transformation process  will  produce greater significance in our life, as well as those we come in contact with.
We are all called to become more receptive to new ideas and paths. We are called to become increasingly transparent to our divine nature, as well. Thing is,  in the overall scheme of things, transforming one's nature is more important than Soul-level liberation/enlightenment, because one can't skip developmental stages. One can't jump from egoic "what's in it for me",  to full (embodied) Enlightenment.
That's just the way it is. Still we must keep in the back of our minds that this 'evolutionary impulse' thing is one's eternal self-Soul's yearning to become one with her  (transcendent) Beloved.
It is good to know that, no matter one's stance towards 'soul evolution' , sooner or later, She will fulfill her ancient blueprint.
May the the following verse from The Tibetan keep you inspired:

Nothing under the heaven can arrest the progress of
the human soul on its long pilgrimage from
darkness to light, from the unreal to the real,
from death to immortality, and from ignorance to wisdom.

Wednesday, March 28, 2018

She Speaks

'All desire vanishes in that fortunate person whose consciousness is established in his own real nature. For him, the state of being of a limited individual has ended'. Shiva Sutras (Sloka 4)

Let's look closer at the nature of Real Nature.  The Soul is identified with its Divine origin.   One who reports from this Kosmic address, was once the Psychic being  (Overmind in Aurobindo's lingo) whose nature  formed progressively around its Divine center  in the course of its innumerable lives in the terrestial evolution.  When the  Soul (Mind of the Eternal Light)  is fully illumined/developed/wholly awakened  it  becomes the conscious Partner of the Absolute Supreme (or the Supermind & Satchidananda) . . .In other words, once established in its Source the Soul  realizes that her Nature is identical with the Essence of the Divine.  (*I see with eyes open and spiritualised consciousness vast Light aura-field around my head and body and feel in every fiber of my being its Bliss-influence 24/7).
 It is worth noting that at this stage one becomes  naturally free from the egoic: 'what's in it for me', mantra -  and  becomes the perfect Instrument through which the Divine Force-Power baptizes the world.
In other words, in advanced evolution the Soul becomes  conscious of her Divine origin because  it is directly felt-aware of the Supreme Presence within her Light mind-body. This is the point at which  one knows infallibly  what the term 'I AM that I AM, signifies.  Not as a concept, but  actually. 

*  One who aspires to become authentically Enlighten (in the embodies sense) by embracing the  'spiritual bypassing'  route, will create much misery, because the unhealed psycho-emotional wounds and unresolved developmental needs can't be transcended by thinking 'now that I know this about me, I can rise above it'.  Psycho-emotional wounding can only be released at the level it was created. My post Healer's Notes addresses this topic *

When all desire vanishes noble qualities arise .  One whose  personal egoism  and its desires is no more, becomes  the very embodiment of traits such as:  simplicity, altruism,  non-attachment to fruits of our work,  we are free from the  pleasure of domination, are jealous of none and free from indulgence in petty deeds.  .  . Doesn't mean we are incapable of facing the bully and breaking his/her joy of domination.
 Noble traits are carriers of  high-order frequency  (or Holy power)  which affects all dimensions simultaneously. One whose mind is without the stain of  disturbance becomes the channel through which God's Essence-frequency flows into the world of Form. . . No longer driven by wish or desire, but an impersonal drive of the Conscious Love/Power/Will/Knowledge  (not generated on human plane) of the divine Person (fully ascended Soul)   who "brings the fires of the splendour of God into the human abyss"  without uttering a single word. (quote from Aurobindo's poem titled A God's Labour).

I wouldn't say this if I didn't have proof that I got plugged to Satchitananda permanently.
The 'splendour of fires of God', or the Holy Spirit, others named it Satchitananda, or Shakti Blissananda flows from my Crown chakra into world's hologram via subtle plane. If I didn't have proof I wouldn't write The River of Light
This is why I  say:  Not I, but by the Knowledge/Will invested in me, I bear witness to what the Divine  disclosed to me - for the benefit of all beings, for the benefit of evolution of consciousness itself. . . . . without uttering single word.

The River of Light/Bliss/Power, has (therefore) everything to do with  'disturbance in the collective' - term I used in  Ascension Blues Good News in the opening statement:
Many are experiencing varying degrees of turbulence during these changing times, because this change is being impressed upon our souls.  Turbulence in the collective (unconscious) is the unveiling of that which is anti-evolutionary. Without this dismantling step, the building up traction-step can't take hold. New Possibilities don't emerge when the old one's are not yet dismantled.

I will end this reflection in Sri Aurobindo's (for-me confirming) words on Satchidananda from: Letters on Yoga Planes and Parts of Being (
Our (Yoga) having realised Sachichidananda in the spiritualised mind plane proceeds to realise it in the supramental plane. The supreme supracosmic Satchichitdananda is above all. Supermind may be described as its power of self-awareness and world-awareness, the world being known as within itself and not outside. So to live consciously in the suppreme Sachichidananda one must pass through the Supermind.. (...) The full dynamic truth of Sachichidananda and the universe and its consequence cannot be grasp by any other consciousness than the Supermind, because the instrumentation in all other (lower)  planes is inferior and there is therefore a disparity between the fullness of the static experience and the incompleteness of the dynamic power, knowledge, result of the inferior light and power of other planes.

Friday, March 23, 2018

Did it Again!

Today - 16/05/2018 -  written in 2012, Supra Cosmic Bridegroom Has My Back,  got a tweak-edit treatment

Today - 23/03/2018 -  The Mystical Dimension's (below)  opening statement got significantly enlarged -  for clarity's sake.
The subject I write about is so complex,  I am never satisfied with my original posting.  I don't fear judgments about my writing style, etc., this is why  I throw all caution into the wind and publish the not-yet  'can be better', version.
I'm not a perfectionist,  but  because I realize that  my words  are the container  for the meaning  couched within the written word,  I try as best as I am able, to make myself  be 'heard'.
And sometimes - like today - I feel that  Mystical Dimension finally feels 'good enough'.