Musing on Something

This night's Vision of being gifted with eye-dazzling Pearl necklace left me overjoyed with gratitude! I like what this Gift signifies. . .

Because it felt significant,  I want to have a record  of something that happened earlier this year.  That particular encounter  with another being's  awakened Soul  (during awake* Yogic state)  felt auspicious,  and left me wondering if that bearded, stoic-looking man next to me, was really Aurobindo.

Illuminations From Heart & Above the Head Regions

Few loose threads to tie up. . .
I want to acknowledge the significance  (couple of posts earlier mentioned)  of hearing/listening  to the most sublimely enchanting "flute" melody . . .The sound of 'regular' flute melody is really nice, but it's missing that celestial tone. . . missing that  bliss-enchanting  luminosity of sound I heard in the Yogic state.
How is such a thing possible? . . .
Not 'I', but my greater I-Soul-Spirit orchestrates, (or creates) this kind of synchronicity.
From Wikipedia on Krishnas flute, statement:
"... flute charms the entire creation, animate as well inanimate. The deer-eyed gopis of Vajra are so fascinated "herewith that mandara flowers which decorate their coifure fall. May the sound of Krishna's flute, the enemy of Kamsa and saviour of gods bless you all!"

Another snippet on Krishna states:
"According to Puranic sources, Krishna's disappearance marks the end of Dvapara Yuga and the start of Kali Yuga."

Therefore, it can be stated that the Flute's Melody announces the ushering of a New Era.
Hafiz wrote:
"I am a hole in the flute, through which Christ breath moves." Anyone whose (eternal) Soul fulfilled her ancient plan can bear witness to same.
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And, from another  tying up / unpacking few things, file - descriptions of Grace bestowed Initiations, verified by those who are qualified:
 Will begin by noting that I was not a scholar of mystical traditions, and terms such as Samadhi, or "White Flame", etc., meant nothing until I read description of what it signifies.
I did have few intense/dynamic experiences or encouters with the 'White Flame' - and via google-power found out that the Eastern Traditions have meditation to invoke the "White Angel" (who resides above one's head)

1. Description of a 'starling' experience of seeing a White Dove fly out of my third eye.
(But first) By then I was aware of a Bible passage of Jesus' Baptism by the Holy Spirit in a form of a White Dove.
Knew, that this image/symbol represents the Holy Spirit. I liked that he never said: "I am the only son of God". He urged those who liked his teaching to follow his example and 'greater then these things will be accomplished.'
2. Brief description of a pregant with significance encounter with the White Dove Principle - and my 'promise' to never turn away from world's cries:

(In deep Samadhis state) With the eye of Spirit, I-Soul looked down and saw pure white "2 moon crescents"... when I looked up, I saw the night sky's canopy 'rush' over to one side. . . and there it was -  the uncreated Sun / symbol of Divine Truth in all its splendid glory, and conscious-aware of the fact I can look at it without having to squint.
Aware, I was standing on the top rung of the ladder while a "smart man" stood on the ground next to it.
Next instant,  my gaze-attention focused on a group of folks on the ground. One man was looking and speaking to me. . .
I tired to focus intently on what he was saying. . .and even though his voice  was faint and I heard only garble, I saw his "pleading tone", saw his body's language cry for "help".
Next, a 'movement' on the Sun's right side caught my eye - a most welcome sight of a White Bird's descent (in a straight beeline towards me),  "and I knew!"
 I  closed my eyes  to  receive  its Blissful energy's radiance, its unimaginable Sweet currents' influence-impact felt in every fiber of my body.
Bhakti tears of eternal gratitude Sealed this most precious Deal. . .
Most importantly, I knew (even before this Event) I would never turn away from cries of the world.

*  In Sri Aurobindo's words on the inner Sun's significance:   "The sun is the symbol of Divine Truth, it stands universally for the supramental Light, the Divine Gnosis. Light is the Light of Consciousness, Truth, Knowledge -- the sun is the concentration or source of the Light. It is the symbol and power of the inner or higher Truth."

3. The sudden apperance of a 'white as snow flame' Essence - while practicing hands-on energy balancing on my  husband - startled me into gasp-like voice-reaction. We were both in deeply relaxed state when - this time with open eyes - beheld a vision of white as snow cloud-like whiteness moving/dancing between my several inches apart hands above his Crown chakra. . . and I knew what that signified.

Years later I chanced upon Sri Aurobindo's (verifying) words on 'White Light':
"White light indicates the divine consciousness. White is the purity and power of the divine Truth. The White light is manifestation of pure divine force descending from one of the truth-planes leading to the supramental.

Is it safe for me to share what other ascended mystics for thousands of years experienced and shared?  Do I keep quiet  for fear of getting clobbered (with gaslighting furry in an online group which allows spiritual discussion) for my well earned 'Spirit-wings' from the:  "who do you think you are", camp?
It would be much easier not to, because no one would get angry. Emotional manipulators do what comes naturally to them. What I bear witness to is natural to me. Besides, I know I have a moral duty to obey the inner call of my vocation -- so no, there is not a chance in hell I will allow their extremely impoverished view of the transcendental infinite Reality affect me.  


Gopi Krishna wrote in Kundalini For The New Age  - and I agree that:
 "The men and women who have undergone this transformation and now have this expanded consciousness are known to be in the samadhi state of oneness with the cosmic consciousness. All the great mystics who have written on this subject have given their symptoms openly and plainly. That's the tradition. And from their descriptions, one can compare one's own condition."

For Hypatia of Alexandria With Love

When I found out that Hypatia of Alexandria was murdered by religious fanatics, Fierce Indignation compelled me to give voice to what sane beings feel. Many are afraid to rock the conventional boat, some are not and sing at the top of our voice: I AM HER VOICE NOW, I AM THE VOICE OF EVERY WOMAN WHO WAS MURDERED OR SILENCED BY THE OPPRESSOR!

That day I wrote I AM WHO I BECAME, to honor Hypatia's life and her contribution to the world.

I am ancient yet ageless Source of Life
The personification of the Life Force itself
Worshipped under many aspects
Known by many names.
A single embodiemnt of all gods and goddesses.
As Wrathful Protectress, like long-submerged
Volcanic fires under the sea. . .
I, the Ever-Lasting One erupted
Riding crest's wave, vowing to solemnly guard the
Evolutionary currents with a cry:

I REJECT THE NOTION
ONLY THE MALE IS CAPABLE OF DIVINE REVELATION!

The True Oracle

'The True Oracle' . . .thus I heard - in Deep Samadhi state - in the Divine  plane of existence, where  the Ultimate Knowledge about the True nature of reality is Realized.   In this state-stage  one discovers that the Ultimate Awakening is given by Divine Grace and Realized by the  awakened awareness of  the True Oracle - one's fully ascended eternal self-Soul.  It is She who bears witness to the fact that her Essence-Bliss is identical with the Essence of the One Spirit . . .

When the  not enlightened critic insists:   'Absolute truth is not perceivable by humans', I wholeheartedly agree and explain that  Absolute Divine Truth/ Divine Revelation is perceivable by one who becomes more than  human at the zenith-point of ones eternal self-Soul's evolution.
I found confirmation for  what it means to 'become more than human', in The Tibetan Book of The Dead in the Glossary section. My copy was translated by Robert A,F. Thurman:
Sanskrit yuganaddha is the Unecelled Yoga Tantra name for Buddhahood, the fifth and highest perfection stages, indicating that relative and ultimate, individual and universal, body and mind, bliss and wisdom, male and female--all dualities--are integrated in this experience of fulfillment.

 Soul level spirituality involves the  fully active Kundalini Shakti whose  'job' is to transform our entire being by automatic body purification. She bestows  upon us  the ability to have first-hand perception of all the domains of creation,  she  is responsible for the  activation  of divine Siddhis (in the superconscious field of the mind),  filling us with  boundless Bliss and revealing the essence of our being to be Divine.
One who is ready for the 'path without a map' bears witness to why 'only by hard sacrifice is High heaven earned'.  . .Karma placed me in this situation because I was ready to endure many years of   (Unsolicited)  Kundalini Shakti's   'makeovers', as well as  Initiations into Deepest Mysteries  by receiving many types of  Soul level Experiences (essential for the complete transformation).
 And, because I knew I was 'in good hands', I  submitted fully to this mind-boggling Force-Power-Intelligence.
Sri Aurobindo confirms this for me:
The psychic aspires to the Divine or answers to things divine, it is surrendered in principle, but it has to develop its surrender in detail carrying with it the surrender of all the being. +
The mind shies from complex cognitive work, the higher vital wants the freedom to fulfill its ambitions, the lower vital loves to indulge in its petty deeds, etc. As each of these defects is identified and relinquished, the psychic flame burns with ever-new intensity creating palpable warmth in various parts of being. +
Only the one who offers his whole nature, finds the Self. Only the one who can give everything, enjoys the Divine All everywhere. Only supreme self-abandonment attains to the Supreme. Only  the sublimation  by sacrifice of all that we are, can enable us to embody the Highest and live here in the immanent consciousness of the transcendental Spirit. 
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In this section I want to have on record what transpired this AM hour during 'Yogic Sleep' (which transcends sleep)
At some point the most pleasant sensations of laser-like beams of Energy began spiraling around my head. . .Next, in my Light-transferred body I beheld the most enchanting panorama of a European looking town. . .So familiar its beauty. Simultaneously, I am thinking  'is this  what it will be when I die?'   I don't want to go into other 'pleasant' details, and will only add that at some point I remembered I have a blog where I scribble to my heart's content about the things that matter to me without being bullied, and 'woke up' in this dimension.

The World As An Extension of Oneself?

Last night I had just such a moment as I realized I was neither in dream, nor the awake state. But first I had to go throught the motions of 'thinking' about what is "for real". . .First I kept asking (several) people if they thought we were dreaming. I was very sure I was wide awake (&) thinking, "how could it be otherwise? This experience is real. We are real."
No one actually answered me. . . a nagging feeling crept in . . . Then suddenly, I stood up, lifted both open hands next to my eyes (and wide eyed) declared out loud that everything was arising in my consciousness! That everything was an extension of myself.
Not first time, but it's fun when that happens.

There is no chance in heck that after such an experience (of Unity consciousness) one can see oneself as either "superior" or "beneath" anyone once one directly discovers the meaning of "I am everything and every experience that arises".

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It is true also, that "truth" is different in different states of consciousness, that is why I don't expect many people to agree with what I write/share/offer.
I am glad I have permission to quote Roy Posner's summary and analysis of Sri Aurobindo's The Life Divine, which 'supports' my view of Reality
(to read more google= the life divine, sri aurobindo, an analysis, summary).
From Introduction, the following quote/s mirrors my experiences:

"The higher the plane, the more direct the insight and perception of the object of knowledge he was addressing. I.e. the greater the truth of things."

"Through these spiritual powers of perception; through these spiritual-like intimations of wisdom and knowledge, he was able to experience the knowledge of the Divine from the Divine. It is as if the Infinite consciousness and Reality broadcast knowledge vibrations of Itself . . .explaining its own nature, makeup, processes, interiors, et al -- and Sri Aurobindo had the inner antennae to lock into these signals. In that way, he was jotting down the truths of the Divine directly from the Mind, or consciousness of the Divine.

But that is not all. Though his wisdom came through this supra-normal cognition capacity, it also was developed through his own life experiences . . . from his everyday perceptions of how life functioned . . ."

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In my experience the "supra-normal" cognition is felt in every fiber of my being. Literally, its 'vibration-cognition' is 'impressed' into every cell of my body. I wrote in previous posts about what it feels like.
I may add that each time I 'travel' in Soul -- (before that happens) -- and before I am 'embraced' by the Great Light, I see it first.

Green Eyed Monster?

Once upon time I worked in a factory . . .One day the energy of  Fierce Indignation  called me to stand up to Ignorance.  .  .And when the dust had settled  the boss approached me and said:  "Thank you for what you did. Now this place is more peaceful".
Story telling....
I liked my job. . .Hands busy with mind free to meditate on whatever I wanted. 
Had I not had the chance to talk with John, I wouldn't know much about him because we worked in different departments. However, that one day we were seated at the same work station. Hands and eyes busy/working,  as were our tongues and curious minds. 

I noticed around  Christmas-time his hunched back, his head hung low in silence  when the rest of us were having drinks and laughing like crazy people :)   He was the one whose "hello" wave was always friendly, even though we only exchanged few words when I worked for a short spell in the same department.
That day at the same work station we talked about families and  personal stuff and sensed he really liked me. I liked his gentle voice, his  hippy pony tail, his never staring ways, his easy to talk to vibe, his great looking face! 
It wasn't until the very end of the shift that John said  'soon he needed to make a very important decision' . . .It was more the way he looked and sounded, which made me urgently utter "whatever it is, I hope it all works out, John" -- just as the end-of-shift bell rang out!

Not too long after that I heard that John is now in transition to becoming "Joan".  She wore pink t-shirts and her breast began to grow.  Even the women's laughter and demeaning remarks seemed very disturbing to me when they talked about  the tension / aggression towards Joan in her department. 
I knew J.  loved her wife and 2 children. I knew her kids loved their dad and thought they were coping somehow .  I knew Joan's decision to 'come out' was not an easy one.
Our hello waves stayed the same and I  (personally) wished  her well.   We still talked about and exchanged books. To me Joan was the same person with new name and changing body. 

On one of my weeks back, I  heard  that couple of days earlier  Joan got her front teeth knocked out by the boxing man / co-worker,  after their Friday night card-playing game (after work).
I was  MAD!  Was so stunned that I said not one word.  None of the women were laughing, either.  I knew I couldn't just stand by and do nothing!  Couple of hours later I asked one woman to show me the teeth-knocking-out brute -- to actually point the bully out to me  -- since I didn't know who he was.

I waited till lunch break to walk my indignant self to their  small plant office (where they took their meals) and hissed:   "DAN (last name) YOU'RE A SCUM AND A CREEP, IF YOU WANT TO PUNCH ME OUT COME OUT THERE!".

"What?" , he asked.

I repeated same sentiment, word - for -word.

He shook his head "no". I walked away satisfied because  I had witnesses (his crew). 

The place was a' buzz after lunch. . . To all that knew me I was the soft spoken one with not one wavy hair in its place -- she who just one week after giving birth to two babies was able to wear pre-pregnancy size jeans with lipstick to match my t-shirt --  suddenly capable of tough-talking like a truck driver,  to one who sported bulging muscles?

"Big John" - grinning from ear to ear - from Joan's department came up to me shortly after lunch, said:  "must be the Irish blood in you."
I could have bat my eyelashes and ask, "How come you think I'm Irish? is it because of my accent or is it the green eyes?" - but didn't.  I was on a mission and was still in serious mode.  

At the punch out (clock) lineup many smiling faces . . . One woman descending the cafeteria stairs - who came in for the next shift, heard what happened - yelled out:  "way to go Helen!"

The following morning, above the entrance  door a huge poster:  "IF YOU KNOW WHAT'S GOOD FOR YOU SCUM AND CREEP QUIT NOW!".

And another -- same words, same size poster above the punch clock.

Turned out the guys who witnessed my outrage decided to take further action and prepared 'your behavior  is not acceptable',   message.  That  very morning, Dan the boxer man,  packed up and quit. 

Sometime later Joan, (prompted by her psychologist) wrote a very long open letter . It read like a biography .  Full of pain. Her twice attempted suicide.  And in the end, her gratitude for all the support  from everyone.
I was handed my own copy. Which in turn, I shared with a very bright (summer) teacher-to-be student who was grateful for the opportunity to see what it's like to live with a body which doesn't feel 'right'.

The moral to this story? . . . That sometimes it takes one wrathful person, just one episode/time  to set a'fire minds and hearts of those who only needed someone to take the first step.

Fifth Stage Integration

At the apex-point of the evolutionary journey of the soul to the Divine, one discovers it is the non-biological  Soul/She who is in charge...for she knows best how to fulfill her ancient blueprint.  Through Her Light-Power-Might one realizes that all Life (in the visible and visible domains) is 'pregnant'  with this invisible to the eye of flesh and mind,(ever-present)  Supreme Light-Power.
This realization  can only be attained from a place of Unity within the Inner plane.  .  .

Wisdom literature texts can use metaphors  to describe the nature of the True Light that  enlightens everyone. . .But even the most spiritually alluring words loose all meaning when its Direct Presence introduces itself to the awakened awareness of one's eternal self-Soul.  Only then one can  know truly  that Her Light/Essence  is no different than the Light of the Supreme Creator.
She is  the Blessed Bridge  leading one to discover one's own Divine nature in the embodied sense. . .
Authentic Soul Liberation can't be reached by the thinking mind and its concepts,  it is not accessible  by  feelings or intuition or the experience of nothingness.
Any authentically Enlightened mystic whose non-biological inner Light being (Soul)  gets Ravished by the Luminosity of the Great Light and its Bliss-Essence -- during the  many types of Soul level Initiations -- bears witness to this.
The transcendence-aspect  of the spiritual life is experienced at the apex of one's eternal self-Soul's evolution and it  involves having one's karmic impurities systematically consumed by the Holy Spirit's Fire (Kundalini Shakti) . . .Without this step,  She will not be ready to be erotically ravished by the  Divine Beloved. Without this step, one can't bear the full impact of  the Supreme Cosmic Force-Power ... the very same Power which creates and sustains the universe. 

By now, we  know that surrender to what is happening to us, is the only way to go. In other words,  we completely let go of the idea of  having any type of control during the process of continuous demolition and construction. . .
We  have no idea what may come next, still we trust  the process,  because now we truly know we are guided and are supported  by the Mystery of the Divine Consort....Guided by the Vision and Force-Power of the Great Star of Liberation.
There have been times when  (in deep samadhi states)  I have been given supporting phrases such as:
Concentrate on formulations of cosmic consciousness. And:  Absolute Yantra as travel elegance becomes reality liberation within the one Divine.

The Integration Process  is about Soul level Initiations whose final goal is the ultimate integration.  What does the term 'ultimate integration',  signifies?
I'm glad I have Robert A. F. Thurman's translation (w/commentary) of:
The Tibetan Book Of The Dead -  from Glossary section:

Integration, Sanskrit yuganaddha is the Unexcelled Yoga Tantra name for Buddhahood, the fifth and highest of the perfection stages, indicating that relative and ultimate, individual and universal, body and mind, bliss and wisdom, male and female--all dualities are integrated in this experience of fulfillment.

 When one's awareness crosses the  line of  the sublimated mind,  (passes out of its thinking loop-sphere)  one not only sees, but feels the presence of the Divine/God-Light-Bliss in every fiber of one's being.
Couple of recent examples (2009):
Eye-dazzling flash of diamond-white Light of almost unbearable force-intensity ejected me from my mortal body and plunged me into Clear Black Light's brilliance (not first time) ...during this time outside of time as we know it, I heard my breath's deep exhalation.
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A Vision of Beloved's  perfect Form clothed in Light's brilliance with brighter, diamond-white Light emanating from His mid-body....before morphing into Light-clothed Woman. . .
The Great Star of Liberation in its Yin/Yang aspects.
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Will close this entry by saying what authentically enlightened mystic declares in her/his own words the same assertion, no matter the tradition:

The Halls of the Highest Mystical Knowledge
 Reside in the Living Libraries
Within the Immortal/God-Realized Souls. . .
Those who merge with this Light of all Lights,
Bear witness to this  by presenting the
subtlety of Meaning couched within the authentic spiritual Experience.
Those of us who 'know better', remind the spiritual seeker: "Beware of an exaggerated ambition, pride or vanity trying to seize on spiritual force or experience and turn it to one's glorification ending in megalomania - an unbalanced vital and weak nervous system apt to follow its own imaginations without any true mental will or strong mental will to steady or restarin it." - Sri Aurobindo.