Logos Cosmic Manna Shabd Crystal Rain

<All kinds of energies have their corresponding  frequencies. What once felt like a harsh,  electric wire  pitch-sound  inside my brain,  after many (Kundalini)  karma burning  'rushes',  the frequencies  of  my  flesh / subtle / causal bodies, changed drastically. 
Now,   their  constant, extremely subtle,   crystal-like frequency  spin  I hear within, as well as  outside / around my body.
We call this "energy field" , or "aura"...  It's frequencies are  visible to my eyes of flesh  and spiritualized consciousness. If I didn't see the uncreated Light within my aura-field and didn't feel its Influence, I wouldn't be writing about this. * I discovered 'by fluke' in 1994 I have a vast golden light aura-filed and narrow band of blue light next to my skin, and thought one day, in some esoteric book will discovere its significance*
 
One of the most curious *at the time* experiences of the transcendental infinite reality occurred while I was asleep - a time, I was suddenly awakened by a loud , high-frequancy note/sound felt in every fiber of my being. . .It lasted several seconds, but felt like eternity . . .there was nothing but this Sound.

>And what exactly is this Sound?
Even though various   people had different names for it,  its essence  is understood as the  primordial sound  of the Divine.
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Structures of consciousness includes the flesh/material, psycho-emotional, our mental body, as well as bliss body - this is why,  at the zenith-point of  Soul evolution the unification of individuals Light body and the Universal I AM and its Essence/Bliss is complete.  With  this step  permanent Samadhi is achieved.  
In Aurobindo's words, verification on what we mean when we say 'Divine Bliss'.

The general power of Delight is love and special mould which the joy of love takes its vision and beauty. The God-lover has seized on his heart, it is the decisive sign that he has taken possession that gives it at once the acme and the largest reach of its intensity. It is the foundation of oneness in ecstasy. +
  A transcendent Bliss, unimaginable and inexpressible by the mind and speech, is the nature of the Ineffable. That broods immanent and secret in the whole universe and in everything in the universe. Its presence is described as a secret ether of the bliss being, of which the Scripture says that, if this were not, none could for a moment breathe or live. And this spiritual bliss is here also in our hearts. (skip)

Thus universalised, personalised, raised to its intensities, made all-occupying, all-embracing, all-fulfilling, the way of love and delight gives the supreme liberation. Its highest crest is a supracosmic union. But for love complete union is mukti; liberation has to it no other sense; and it includes all kinds of mukti together, nor are they in the end, as some would have the absolute union of the divine with the human spirit, sayujya; (Soul) in that reveals itself a content and mutual presence, sampya, salokya, ananda of mutual refection, the thing that we call likeness, sadrsya, and other wonderful things too for which language has yet no name.
excerpts from: intyoga.online.fr/bhakti.html 
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I  goggled "shabd" and jutted down  few  notes from wikipedia:

"Shabd is the Sound Current vibrating in all creation. It can be heard by the inner ears. Variously referred to as the Audible Life Stream, Inner Sound, Sound Current or Word
in English, the Shabd is the esoteric essence of God which is available to all human beings."
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shabd - Other Faiths and Philosophies (section).

And this interesting bit by Sufi mystic:
"To Ibn Arabi, every prophet corresponds to a reality which he called a Logos, as an aspect of the unique Divine Being. In his view the Divine Being would have for ever remained hidden, had it not been for the prophets, with Logos providing the link between man and divinity.
(...) For Ibn Arabi, the Logos or "Universal Man" was a mediating link between individual human beings and the divine essence."
From: 'Use in Suffism' section:
"The Stoic philosophers identified the term (Logos) with the divine animating principle pervading the universe."
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Logos#Philo_of_Alexandria
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I realized I am Shabd Yoga master because I don't just Hear but See and Feel this Bliss-Essence (underlying manifest existence).   I named it "Crystal Rain" because it is exactly what it looks like to me.  Divine Essence looks exactly like falling rain, but it's texture is crystal-like, not 'wet'.  I saw this Energy (first time) while sitting in a shade outside on a very bright-sunny afternoon many years ago. I stared at it for a while without blinking - thinking if I do, it may vanish. But it didn't and I marveled.  

* Edit-added 06/10/2017
I am happy to say I can include  Sant Kripal  as my community of the adequate person.  I chanced upon some quotes which mentions 'Krishna's flute' -  which confirms my experience of listening to most enchanting flute melody. . . (I described  hearing  with my right ear sweet sounding flute-like 'signals', whose frequency is the carrier of the most loving 'messages'. Then there are those with left ear perceived 'signals',  whose intent-message  is always very negative -  and I always brace myself for encounter with very hostile thought forms  'sent' by someone who gets triggered negatively by what I share).
"The flute of Krishna is symbolic of the same Sound allegorically explained. This sound is the source of all revelation to the Masters to whom It is revealed from within and it is, therefore, that they know and teach the one and the same Truth. The knower of this mystery of the Sound knows the mystery of the whole Universe. Whosoever has followed the strains of this Sound has forgotten all earthly distinctions and differences; and has reached the same goal of Truth in which the Blessed Ones of God unite."
"This Sound develops through ten different aspects because of Its manifestation through the different tubes of the body (Nadis); it sounds like thunder, the roaring of the sea, the twittering sparrows, the jingling of bells, running water, the buzzing of bees, the twittering of sparrows, the Vina, the whistle, or the sound of Shankha (Conch) until it finally becomes Hu the most sacred of all sounds. This Sound Hu is the beginning and end of all sounds, be they from man, bird, beast, or thing."
"From the above it is sufficiently clear that all Master-souls, whether Hindus, Muslims, Christians, and countless others, were conversant with the practice of the Word, though they did not necessarily expound it as a regular science. Most of them tell of Anhad  Shabd only, leading up  to Und  and Brahmand or subtle and cosmic regions. But perfect saints, irrespective of whether they belonged to one religion or the other, have gone even beyond this and have spoken of Sar Shabd and Sat Shabd as well, and of regions beyond Brahman (Par-Brahman, i.e., Sach Khand, Alakh and Agan Deshas)
-Source the motherdivine.com/10/naam-or-word-the-sound-principle.shtml

Edit-adding (2025-06-04) confirming passages in Sri Aurobindo's words - from intyoga.online.fr/triple3.htm - about experiences through which one's eternal/divine self-Soul reveals its highest heights:

"The psychic opening through the heart puts us primarily into connection with the individual Divine; the Divine in his inner relation with us; it is especially the source of love and bhakti. ^ But we can come to see too that this Force contains all forces, this Light all light, this Ananda all joy and bliss possible. And all this can descend into us. ^ The descent of Peace, the desent of Force or Power, the descent of Light, the descent of Ananda constitute the spiritual consciousness. ^ One feels the Force only when one is in contact with it. ^ The Force descends for two things: 1. To transform nature 2. To carry on the work through the instrument. ^

It is what we call preasure of the Force (the Force of the higher spiritual or divine consciousness, the Mother's Force); it comes in various forms, vibrations, currents, waves, a wide flow, a shower like rain etc. It passes to each centre in turn, the crown of the head, the forhead centre, throat, heart, navel centers down to muladhara and spreads too throughout the body. ^

Electricity shock always indicate a passage of dynamic force. ^ The descent as of a drizzling rain is very characteristic and well-known way of descent of the higher consciousness; it brings peace but it also brings all other possibilities of the higher consciousness. ^

At the same time the oppening of the heart centre releases the psychic being which proceeds to make us aware of the Divine within us and of the higher Truth above us. For the highest spiritual Self is not even behind our personality and bodily existence but it is above it and altogether outside the physical body, in what is called the subtle body, suksma sharia. ^ The highest of the inner centers is in the head, just as the deepest is the heart. ^
A sound does sometimes come with a particular descent of the consciousness or force and nerves and body as a basis for the siddhi - precisely because the Force, the Light, the Ananda that come down are extremely intense and need a great stillness in the body to bear and support."

Higher Vibratory Field

I wasn't at all looking for "scientific" proof /verification  that the visible around my head and body golden light  aura-field frequency  is as valid as the daylight is, but by fluke I found it!
I will get back to this, but first  few  notes. . .

Because I am  riding the  Clear Light / Supermind wave, I  have plenty of empirical data to show that at the highest reaches of spiritual development the  Spirit /Void  gives up its secrets to one who rides the  Shakti-Shiva Bliss-wave  to its culminating point (Kundalini Shakti style). 

Since October 2001',  I have been participating on various  cyber sites and  left a trail of forum-shared from my journal notes  all kinds of  mystical experiences , one of which included  the day I saw in mirror-image w/eyes open my "golden light aura" - in August 94'.  Two or three years later,  to my great  astonishment  I was making  "gold streaks of light", each time I waved my hand (with the intention to "bless the space in the room" the night before my students filed in for my first  Reiki Initiation workshop).
It was shocking,  yet, there it was, standing in a low-lit room waving my hand again and again  making  pure gold streaks of light. And, no I didn't say anything about it to my students. 

Many times already mentioned  that, in 1990' my head lit up "like the Sun" in a bright of day, according to my frightened ex husband who told me after the dust settled - that for several minutes "your head was like the Sun and I couldn't see you" (indoors).

In May 1994, to my great surprise , and "by fluke", I first time saw in mirror-image my "blue ribbon of light next to my skin"...and thought one day I will find out how such a thing is possible. 

Few times I witnessed (next to me) very much alive looking, large field of  golden light, which had a liquid like quality .  When it happened first time  I  stared  and wondered, "am I supposed to say or hear something?"  -- well, I didn't hear a thing and got really bored  because this thing lasted well over half an hour. 
I knew at the time that the 'golden light' had something do do with being  holy / saint-like...
I knew  from  religious art  that saints and Jesus had "halos" around their heads, but I didn't see myself in the same category,  at all!
Thanks to my Teachers in this dimension, plus Kwan Yin and my inner-guardian/Soul, plus those who verify that what I bear witness to is not the product of subconscious mind's dive into hallucinatory formations, I firmly stand by what I was 'allowed' to See and Feel... and guard it against anyone still hell-bent on silencing me.

For one who may find this interesting,  a  YouTube video link -  which according to the source took 12 years to record , titled: "Human Aura Recordings", posted on August 14, 2009.
One  early note  states:  "Notice the shift in the Frequency Signature as the same subject shifts states of consciousness. This higher vibratory field is documented as the Gold Frequency Signature in the human bio-energy field."

The gold note frequency has a very high pitch note, or 'tone' -- which is exactly the same frequency signature I hear  without ceasing within my energy field.
My (oft. mentioned) hearing  "signals"  with the right ear/brain hemisphere  -- which  in Deep Samadhi  bliss  give up their  sweet message-information --   is possible, because of this Gold Frequency Signature.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=x1B7lFAmhcs

I Bend Where Spirit Bids Me

Before I was guided to become energy healer, I had the pleasure to meet and participate in several Wicca Circle rituals.  Some of these folks had an amazing bright energy fields.  I believe the group's  high-vibing energies brought about one of the most curious (in 92') mystical experiences during  deep Yogic state -  which I can name  'Crown Chakra  Initiation' - because it felt like it.
Description: I became aware of very strong vibrating sensation  (on the top of my head) accompanied by a buzzing  sound and visible to my eye of contemplation beam of Light-Energy  engraving bright silver-white "disc" into the top of my head.  .  . I felt a bit of pain/discomfort during this 'engraving procedure'. . . and at some point  became aware that I was wide awake, and marveled:
"Isn't this amazing?  I'm not even asleep!".  

Why did I see the color of the "disc?" - one might ask -  and the answer is:   because the Witness in me saw it! Saw  the descent of Supramantal Force into my bodily being -- the frequency of Purity and Power of the Divine Force. 
My riffs on Shakti and Shiva's meetings come from a place of "direct experience". Plainly put the part of me (awakened Soul)  that transcended the earthly form hangs out in the Celestial plane of existence.
If I wasn't plugged into that white-diamond  Essence frequency, I wouldn't claim that my  Tonglen Work is done in the subtle/causal/non dual levels.

I experienced this,   therefore I know  that what I bear witness too, is true . . . but I don't expect anyone to believe me.  
I am very glad I discovered  Sri Aurobindo work -  because now I can say  he too had many spiritual experiences before he could assert:
"After realization of the Self, there are many things beyond that. The Divine guide within urged me to proceed, adding experience after experience . . .Till I arrived at Supermind". 

Ecstatically Dancing
In a Sea of Candle Flames  at Dawn
(mystical experience this AM)

She Needed to Hear Jesus' Words Once More

Today,  finally I convinced myself to  write about my (ex) sister-in-law's last  wish. . .
This story can make sense only to one who believes that what I share is true. This story will make more sense if I share a bit of her bio-material.

D. was rejected by her  teen birth-mother. . .One of her adopted grandmothers referred to her as "she", or "her", because she "preferred boys" - said her mom not all phased.

"She never cried when getting whipped on bare bum, which I thought was very strange", said her brother - adding,  "Guess she didn't want to give him the satisfaction."  Going through mom's underwear drawer  got her in  trouble but the punishment had to wait till dad came come...
Through the week the mother kept track of  their adopted kids  misbehaviour's, on weekend when the father came home, his job was to whip some sense into them with a  beating ritual whose opening line was command "take your underpants off and lay across my lap".

In her 40's  D. found her birth mother who after a couple of meetings decided to move to BC to live with her son.
From birth mother she found out who her father was and same year she contacted him. They met once in person. He lived in BC and from there he sent D. a   word-glowing  letter . It was several pages long, I  read it and it  got me all teary-eye . Filled to brim with: "wish I could have been there for you" "you are such a beautiful person inside and out",   sentiments. . . Full of  hope they might "spend summers together".
Her face aglow sharing her vision that soon this will come to pass (because)  "I can just see us sail together on his boat...."
I thought that many page letter was written from his heart and it couldn't  have been more heart-tugging.

Weeks later  D. received   "I'm sorry"word from her birth father announcing his wife's wish is that he severs all ties with her.
And that was that. No more dreams of a father-figure capable of showing emotion who wanted to make up for the time lost.

Her health began a downward spiral . .  . Several times, during normal  family conversation (at in-laws - she lived w/them)  she would  say "I can't stomach that" to no one in particular.
Her (gut/bowel) disease began turning her bones into mush. In the last year of her life sneezing was dangerous. Once she sneezed and her thigh bone broke.
The ambulance folks got a call to take her to the hospital and had to call another ambulance to help them. Her  wailing screams filled with  concern  the neighbors.  Not only was her thigh bone broken, now she wailed in agony because  her arm got broken when the ambulance  crew tried to lift her unto the stretcher.

I'm just highlighting few  things  to give a sense just how very ill her body was.
She claimed to have been allergic to a lot of good fresh foods --- but hot dogs, Pepsi and cigarettes she loved.
She was interested in herbal remedies but never tried anything. She knew about "energy healing" and once  I offered  to place my hands on her sore knees, but she pretended no to hear me.
I didn't see her often during those last few months she was in hospital. Her brother did often visit her after work ( he worked in same city.)
Despite being heavily medicated D. begged the hospital staff not to touch, or move her -- not even to change the sheets.   And when they did,  she had to be heavily sedated.

Towards the end she hasn't been able to speak (for several weeks)  let alone sit or eat, still the worried  mom asked (on the parking lot)  D's  bone specialist if   she "will walk again". He gently told her that he never saw anything like it, and there was nothing more that he,  she, or anyone  else could do to help her.
Her twisted and shrunken body lay motionless towards  the end  and one could literally smell the disease (she had severe case of "bed sores" also).

In June at  dawn one day,  I heard behind me D's  excited  voice say my name. I glanced at the clock made a mental note of the time, thinking "this is it" -- thinking she died.
My ex worked the afternoon shift   that day and later called the mom, but  she acted 'normal' .
I was relieved and couldn't wait to see D. still alive  (same day) .
Her, ever-by-her-side, beautifully illustrated Bible was put away. Her lifeless body and staring (without blinking) eyes wide open, still responding when asked something by uttering barely audible grunts.
I asked her brother to find her Bible (which took a while) and  I spoke to her about God's love. I asked if she wanted me to read for her from her bible and she indicated 'yes'. Not at all sure which passages I was supposed to read, but chose the Gospel of John and read for a little while.

After reading, I talked tenderly to her a bit more and asked if I could gently place my hands on her body . . .She was unresponsive, but I took it to mean that maybe she dozed off (even tho her staring eyes were open) and proceeded to scan her energy field and gently placing hands here and there. . .At some point I looked at her face, saw her clenched jaw, and stopped instantly.

Next, while sipping coffee the hallway we got approached by a very pleasant Pastor-man who asked if there was anything he could do for us.
I asked if he could read from the Bible for D. . .
Like me, he also asked D. if she would like him to read for her.... Once again, she indicated 'yes'.
We prayed at the end, the Pastor left, and a nurse came in to top off her morphine.
Minutes later  husband and I   decided that it was time to go home. I said bye first, then while her brother was still next to D. ,  when suddenly  at the top of her voice  she screamed  "grab me!!!!"

This time I  gently placed my hands on her heart chakra with, "this is what it feels like when the soul is  leaves the body". (that 'soaring' movement I knew well.)
I knew well, that at the speed of  meta-light   that 'soaring' feeling/sensation  were experienced during ecstatic moments --  which if memory serves me right Hildegard of Bingen described also.
She passed peacefully few days later.

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The One Light Shining Through All

The one light shining through all is the Buddha Mind . . .
Different traditions have other names for the same One Light-bliss.
The Rig Veda  says: "I honor in you the divine that I honor within myself and I know we are One."
For personal reasons, I like best the following quote, because it includes the dimension of mystical  Love-Essence.
"Some Upanishads describe Brahman as the Lord of Love. It is a description born of pure personal experience of a seeker of truth, not from a devotee's imaginative and self-induced emotional energy." 

Conventional Christianity teaches that "God is Love", that Jesus "is the only son of God" -- which never made much sense to me, because Jesus' invited his followers to 'do as I do and greater thiings will be accomplished'.

Below, in the comment section, I wrote "Buddha mind in me sees same in you". . .It is the same one Force-Intelligence that each enlightened being --in permanent Samadhi--discovers within their innermost sanctuary/one's eternal self-Soul who is one with the Supreme Existence  and its Love-Bliss. . .consciously.
Enlightened Liberation is about discovering and living within  Divine Nature. The ascended mystic, or Yogi/Yogini,  who abandoned all cravings and is established in the Supreme Love-Bliss bears witness to this Truth by describing why/how/what happens on this Path through Light and Sound.
Gopi Krishna agrees: All the great mystics who have written on the subject have given their own symptoms openly and plainly. That is the tradition. And from their descriptions, one can compare one's own condition. 
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Words' (intent) are meant to spark interest in the Divine, but the meaning must be felt in every fiber of one's being without ceasing.
That 'felt' energy -- because it is a non-local phenomenon -- influences holographicaly every*thing.

In this blog I am bearing witness to what happens at the zenith-point of Soul's evolution. I talk about undergoing transformation of epic proportions...Of being Initiated into the greatest Mystery of all (in my case unsolicited), Kundalini Shakti, style.  Liberation grounded in multidimensional evolution into wholeness and transcendence, is not for the faint of heart, because bhava Samadhi is impossible to retain unless worldly desires have been removed and proper qualities have been established. The Shiva Sutras affirms this:
All desire vanishes in that fortunate person whose consciousness
is established in his own nature.
For him the state of being of a limited individual has ended.

I Am That

Naturally, child's laughter is her parent's cheer,
Naturally, the blades of grass bend in the breeze
Naturally, the city's skyline is etched against the sky's canopy
Naturally, its citizens busy about their daily activities
Giving rise to smells, sounds and sights
Naturally, the animal kingdom fulfills Life's purpose
As does a rainfall . . .
Naturally forests grow. . .
The leaves on trees obey natures rhythm of decay and renewal
As effortlessly, as the Jack pine stretches  its always ever-green limbs
Naturally, the song bird sings and those who don't
Live out their destiny by doing what comes naturally
The rainbow's arch graces the sky as naturally, as does a lightning bolt
Naturally, at sunrise the sun paints the desert with golden hues,
At sundown, shimmering rose . . .
I Am the swift bird in flight the morning light
Soft breeze, every sigh and cry and laughter

I am the Infinite. . .

In my Soul I can find no beggining, no end

All is Myself.


Today, in the stillness of the dawn, (in deep samadhi state) directly before my eye of contemplation appeared in all its IMMENSE counterclock spinning glory, a Wheel made up countless points of eye-dazzling White Light. . . out of which flowed into every cell of my being Blissananda frequancy (Divine Force).

Yogic science describes this type of Soul level experience as the Descent of the (Divine) Power and Truth into the material. . .
Aurobindo confirmed for me that: "The White Light is a manifestation of pure Divine Force descending from one of the Truth-planes leading to the supramental." + "White Light indicates the divine consciousness. White is the purity and power of the Divine Truth. "And the veil between the material and it no longer exists."

In the Tibetan Buddhism, one of the eight auspicious symbols is called, "The All-powerful Wheel, which symbolizes the teaching of Buddha, and is the source of spiritual values, wealth, love and liberation."
Will add, that another of this tradition's symbols -- a Vision of a ('red and joyful') "The most Precious Parasol", signifies Protection. And since at it, many years ago I was handed a a beautiful Gold Lamp with: "You have nothing to worry about," utterance. I am immensely grateful for these type of Grace-bestowed Initiations.

Supermind / Supramental Consciousness

I did say below I wanted to find out what "exactly" Sri Aurobindo thought the Supermind is, but first this. . .
Earlier today, while still in Deep Samadhi , a vivid Vision of a  Face directly before my face. . . This Beautiful Face  of pure Gold radiance (lashes and all)  shyly  peering between open fingers of  very much  flesh-like looking hand.

Today I chanced upon a passage from Isha Upanishads, which  gave  me  a  "this is synchronicity 101", pause (because of what I  described in my opening paragraph).

The face of truth hidden by a golden lid;
that remove, O fostering Sun, for the law of the Truth, for sight.
O Sun, O sole Seer, Marshal thy rays, gather them together --
let me see of thy happiest form of all,
that Conscious Being everywhere,
He am I.

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"All the life and action and leading of the Supermind is guarded in its very nature from the falsehood and uncertainties that are our lot; it moves in safety towards its perfection. Once the truth-consciousness was established here on its own foundation, the evolution of divine life would be a progress in felicity, a march through light to Ananda.

Supermind is an eternal reality of the divine Being and the divine Nature.
In its own plane it already and always exists and possesses its own essential law of being; it has not to be created or to emerge or evolve into existence out of involution in Matter or out of non-existence, as it might seem to the view of mind which itself seems to its own view to have so emerged from life and Matter or to have evolved out of an involution in life and Matter.
The nature of Supermind is always the same, a being of knowledge, proceeding from truth to truth, creating or rather manifesting what has to be manifested by the power of a prexistent knowlege, not by hazard but by a self-existent destiny in the being itself, a necessity of the thing in itself and therefore inevitable. Its manifestation of the divine life will also be inevitable; its own life on its own plane is divine and, if Supermind descends upon earth it will bring necessarily the divine life with it and established it here.

Supermind is the grade of existence beyond mind, life and Matter and, as mind, life and Matter have manifested on the earth, so too must Supermind in the inevitable course of things manifest in this world of Matter..
In fact, a supermind is already  here but it is involved, concealed behind this manifest mind, life and Matter and not yet acting overtly or in its own power: if it acts, it is through these inferior powers and modified by their characters and so not yet recognizable. . ." . quoted with permission from  Alan Kazlev's  website called 'Kheper'.

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It's been circa 50 years (I think) since his so-called death, yet I'm convinced that  his  stream of Consciousness has guided me to  his Work because I didn't have any intention of  looking at his work.  I was aware of him and  his work,  but also heard he was a 'spiritual giant' and  stayed clear of him.  Then one day out of curiosity I  began reading here and there, and once I  wrapped my mind around this new language/ terminology, I thought "I already know this, because it happened to me!". How uncanny!