Today, finally I convinced myself to write about my (ex) sister-in-law's last wish. . .
This story can make sense only to one who believes that what I share is true. This story will make more sense if I share a bit of her bio-material.
D. was rejected by her teen birth-mother. . .One of her adopted grandmothers referred to her as "she", or "her", because she "preferred boys" - said her mom not all phased.
"She never cried when getting whipped on bare bum, which I thought was very strange", said her brother - adding, "Guess she didn't want to give him the satisfaction." Going through mom's underwear drawer got her in trouble but the punishment had to wait till dad came come...
Through the week the mother kept track of their adopted kids misbehaviour's, on weekend when the father came home, his job was to whip some sense into them with a beating ritual whose opening line was command "take your underpants off and lay across my lap".
In her 40's D. found her birth mother who after a couple of meetings decided to move to BC to live with her son.
From birth mother she found out who her father was and same year she contacted him. They met once in person. He lived in BC and from there he sent D. a word-glowing letter . It was several pages long, I read it and it got me all teary-eye . Filled to brim with: "wish I could have been there for you" "you are such a beautiful person inside and out", sentiments. . . Full of hope they might "spend summers together".
Her face aglow sharing her vision that soon this will come to pass (because) "I can just see us sail together on his boat...."
I thought that many page letter was written from his heart and it couldn't have been more heart-tugging.
Weeks later D. received "I'm sorry"word from her birth father announcing his wife's wish is that he severs all ties with her.
And that was that. No more dreams of a father-figure capable of showing emotion who wanted to make up for the time lost.
Her health began a downward spiral . . . Several times, during normal family conversation (at in-laws - she lived w/them) she would say "I can't stomach that" to no one in particular.
Her (gut/bowel) disease began turning her bones into mush. In the last year of her life sneezing was dangerous. Once she sneezed and her thigh bone broke.
The ambulance folks got a call to take her to the hospital and had to call another ambulance to help them. Her wailing screams filled with concern the neighbors. Not only was her thigh bone broken, now she wailed in agony because her arm got broken when the ambulance crew tried to lift her unto the stretcher.
I'm just highlighting few things to give a sense just how very ill her body was.
She claimed to have been allergic to a lot of good fresh foods --- but hot dogs, Pepsi and cigarettes she loved.
She was interested in herbal remedies but never tried anything. She knew about "energy healing" and once I offered to place my hands on her sore knees, but she pretended no to hear me.
I didn't see her often during those last few months she was in hospital. Her brother did often visit her after work ( he worked in same city.)
Despite being heavily medicated D. begged the hospital staff not to touch, or move her -- not even to change the sheets. And when they did, she had to be heavily sedated.
Towards the end she hasn't been able to speak (for several weeks) let alone sit or eat, still the worried mom asked (on the parking lot) D's bone specialist if she "will walk again". He gently told her that he never saw anything like it, and there was nothing more that he, she, or anyone else could do to help her.
Her twisted and shrunken body lay motionless towards the end and one could literally smell the disease (she had severe case of "bed sores" also).
In June at dawn one day, I heard behind me D's excited voice say my name. I glanced at the clock made a mental note of the time, thinking "this is it" -- thinking she died.
My ex worked the afternoon shift that day and later called the mom, but she acted 'normal' .
I was relieved and couldn't wait to see D. still alive (same day) .
Her, ever-by-her-side, beautifully illustrated Bible was put away. Her lifeless body and staring (without blinking) eyes wide open, still responding when asked something by uttering barely audible grunts.
I asked her brother to find her Bible (which took a while) and I spoke to her about God's love. I asked if she wanted me to read for her from her bible and she indicated 'yes'. Not at all sure which passages I was supposed to read, but chose the Gospel of John and read for a little while.
After reading, I talked tenderly to her a bit more and asked if I could gently place my hands on her body . . .She was unresponsive, but I took it to mean that maybe she dozed off (even tho her staring eyes were open) and proceeded to scan her energy field and gently placing hands here and there. . .At some point I looked at her face, saw her clenched jaw, and stopped instantly.
Next, while sipping coffee the hallway we got approached by a very pleasant Pastor-man who asked if there was anything he could do for us.
I asked if he could read from the Bible for D. . .
Like me, he also asked D. if she would like him to read for her.... Once again, she indicated 'yes'.
We prayed at the end, the Pastor left, and a nurse came in to top off her morphine.
Minutes later husband and I decided that it was time to go home. I said bye first, then while her brother was still next to D. , when suddenly at the top of her voice she screamed "grab me!!!!"
This time I gently placed my hands on her heart chakra with, "this is what it feels like when the soul is leaves the body". (that 'soaring' movement I knew well.)
I knew well, that at the speed of meta-light that 'soaring' feeling/sensation were experienced during ecstatic moments -- which if memory serves me right Hildegard of Bingen described also.
She passed peacefully few days later.
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Monday, July 12, 2010
Saturday, July 10, 2010
The One Light Shining Through All
The one light shining through all is the Buddha Mind . . .
Different traditions have other names for the same One Light-bliss.
The Rig Veda says: "I honor in you the divine that I honor within myself and I know we are One."
For personal reasons, I like best the following quote, because it includes the dimension of mystical Love-Essence.
"Some Upanishads describe Brahman as the Lord of Love. It is a description born of pure personal experience of a seeker of truth, not from a devotee's imaginative and self-induced emotional energy."
Conventional Christianity teaches that "God is Love", that Jesus "is the only son of God" -- which never made much sense to me, because Jesus' invited his followers to 'do as I do and greater thiings will be accomplished'.
Below, in the comment section, I wrote "Buddha mind in me sees same in you". . .It is the same one Force-Intelligence that each enlightened being --in permanent Samadhi--discovers within their innermost sanctuary/one's eternal self-Soul who is one with the Supreme Existence and its Love-Bliss. . .consciously.
Enlightened Liberation is about discovering and living within Divine Nature. The ascended mystic, or Yogi/Yogini, who abandoned all cravings and is established in the Supreme Love-Bliss bears witness to this Truth by describing why/how/what happens on this Path through Light and Sound.
Gopi Krishna agrees: All the great mystics who have written on the subject have given their own symptoms openly and plainly. That is the tradition. And from their descriptions, one can compare one's own condition.
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Words' (intent) are meant to spark interest in the Divine, but the meaning must be felt in every fiber of one's being without ceasing.
That 'felt' energy -- because it is a non-local phenomenon -- influences holographicaly every*thing.
In this blog I am bearing witness to what happens at the zenith-point of Soul's evolution. I talk about undergoing transformation of epic proportions...Of being Initiated into the greatest Mystery of all (in my case unsolicited), Kundalini Shakti, style. Liberation grounded in multidimensional evolution into wholeness and transcendence, is not for the faint of heart, because bhava Samadhi is impossible to retain unless worldly desires have been removed and proper qualities have been established. The Shiva Sutras affirms this:
All desire vanishes in that fortunate person whose consciousness
is established in his own nature.
For him the state of being of a limited individual has ended.
Different traditions have other names for the same One Light-bliss.
The Rig Veda says: "I honor in you the divine that I honor within myself and I know we are One."
For personal reasons, I like best the following quote, because it includes the dimension of mystical Love-Essence.
"Some Upanishads describe Brahman as the Lord of Love. It is a description born of pure personal experience of a seeker of truth, not from a devotee's imaginative and self-induced emotional energy."
Conventional Christianity teaches that "God is Love", that Jesus "is the only son of God" -- which never made much sense to me, because Jesus' invited his followers to 'do as I do and greater thiings will be accomplished'.
Below, in the comment section, I wrote "Buddha mind in me sees same in you". . .It is the same one Force-Intelligence that each enlightened being --in permanent Samadhi--discovers within their innermost sanctuary/one's eternal self-Soul who is one with the Supreme Existence and its Love-Bliss. . .consciously.
Enlightened Liberation is about discovering and living within Divine Nature. The ascended mystic, or Yogi/Yogini, who abandoned all cravings and is established in the Supreme Love-Bliss bears witness to this Truth by describing why/how/what happens on this Path through Light and Sound.
Gopi Krishna agrees: All the great mystics who have written on the subject have given their own symptoms openly and plainly. That is the tradition. And from their descriptions, one can compare one's own condition.
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Words' (intent) are meant to spark interest in the Divine, but the meaning must be felt in every fiber of one's being without ceasing.
That 'felt' energy -- because it is a non-local phenomenon -- influences holographicaly every*thing.
In this blog I am bearing witness to what happens at the zenith-point of Soul's evolution. I talk about undergoing transformation of epic proportions...Of being Initiated into the greatest Mystery of all (in my case unsolicited), Kundalini Shakti, style. Liberation grounded in multidimensional evolution into wholeness and transcendence, is not for the faint of heart, because bhava Samadhi is impossible to retain unless worldly desires have been removed and proper qualities have been established. The Shiva Sutras affirms this:
All desire vanishes in that fortunate person whose consciousness
is established in his own nature.
For him the state of being of a limited individual has ended.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
I Am That
Naturally, child's laughter is her parent's cheer,
Naturally, the blades of grass bend in the breeze
Naturally, the city's skyline is etched against the sky's canopy
Naturally, its citizens busy about their daily activities
Giving rise to smells, sounds and sights
Naturally, the animal kingdom fulfills Life's purpose
As does a rainfall . . .
Naturally forests grow. . .
The leaves on trees obey natures rhythm of decay and renewal
As effortlessly, as the Jack pine stretches its always ever-green limbs
Naturally, the song bird sings and those who don't
Live out their destiny by doing what comes naturally
The rainbow's arch graces the sky as naturally, as does a lightning bolt
Naturally, at sunrise the sun paints the desert with golden hues,
At sundown, shimmering rose . . .
I Am the swift bird in flight the morning light
Soft breeze, every sigh and cry and laughter
I am the Infinite. . .
In my Soul I can find no beggining, no end
All is Myself.
Today, in the stillness of the dawn, (in deep samadhi state) directly before my eye of contemplation appeared in all its IMMENSE counterclock spinning glory, a Wheel made up countless points of eye-dazzling White Light. . . out of which flowed into every cell of my being Blissananda frequancy (Divine Force).
Yogic science describes this type of Soul level experience as the Descent of the (Divine) Power and Truth into the material. . .
Aurobindo confirmed for me that: "The White Light is a manifestation of pure Divine Force descending from one of the Truth-planes leading to the supramental." + "White Light indicates the divine consciousness. White is the purity and power of the Divine Truth. "And the veil between the material and it no longer exists."
In the Tibetan Buddhism, one of the eight auspicious symbols is called, "The All-powerful Wheel, which symbolizes the teaching of Buddha, and is the source of spiritual values, wealth, love and liberation."
Will add, that another of this tradition's symbols -- a Vision of a ('red and joyful') "The most Precious Parasol", signifies Protection. And since at it, many years ago I was handed a a beautiful Gold Lamp with: "You have nothing to worry about," utterance. I am immensely grateful for these type of Grace-bestowed Initiations.
Naturally, the blades of grass bend in the breeze
Naturally, the city's skyline is etched against the sky's canopy
Naturally, its citizens busy about their daily activities
Giving rise to smells, sounds and sights
Naturally, the animal kingdom fulfills Life's purpose
As does a rainfall . . .
Naturally forests grow. . .
The leaves on trees obey natures rhythm of decay and renewal
As effortlessly, as the Jack pine stretches its always ever-green limbs
Naturally, the song bird sings and those who don't
Live out their destiny by doing what comes naturally
The rainbow's arch graces the sky as naturally, as does a lightning bolt
Naturally, at sunrise the sun paints the desert with golden hues,
At sundown, shimmering rose . . .
I Am the swift bird in flight the morning light
Soft breeze, every sigh and cry and laughter
I am the Infinite. . .
In my Soul I can find no beggining, no end
All is Myself.
Today, in the stillness of the dawn, (in deep samadhi state) directly before my eye of contemplation appeared in all its IMMENSE counterclock spinning glory, a Wheel made up countless points of eye-dazzling White Light. . . out of which flowed into every cell of my being Blissananda frequancy (Divine Force).
Yogic science describes this type of Soul level experience as the Descent of the (Divine) Power and Truth into the material. . .
Aurobindo confirmed for me that: "The White Light is a manifestation of pure Divine Force descending from one of the Truth-planes leading to the supramental." + "White Light indicates the divine consciousness. White is the purity and power of the Divine Truth. "And the veil between the material and it no longer exists."
In the Tibetan Buddhism, one of the eight auspicious symbols is called, "The All-powerful Wheel, which symbolizes the teaching of Buddha, and is the source of spiritual values, wealth, love and liberation."
Will add, that another of this tradition's symbols -- a Vision of a ('red and joyful') "The most Precious Parasol", signifies Protection. And since at it, many years ago I was handed a a beautiful Gold Lamp with: "You have nothing to worry about," utterance. I am immensely grateful for these type of Grace-bestowed Initiations.
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Supermind / Supramental Consciousness
I did say below I wanted to find out what "exactly" Sri Aurobindo thought the Supermind is, but first this. . .
Earlier today, while still in Deep Samadhi , a vivid Vision of a Face directly before my face. . . This Beautiful Face of pure Gold radiance (lashes and all) shyly peering between open fingers of very much flesh-like looking hand.
Today I chanced upon a passage from Isha Upanishads, which gave me a "this is synchronicity 101", pause (because of what I described in my opening paragraph).
The face of truth hidden by a golden lid;
that remove, O fostering Sun, for the law of the Truth, for sight.
O Sun, O sole Seer, Marshal thy rays, gather them together --
let me see of thy happiest form of all,
that Conscious Being everywhere,
He am I.
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"All the life and action and leading of the Supermind is guarded in its very nature from the falsehood and uncertainties that are our lot; it moves in safety towards its perfection. Once the truth-consciousness was established here on its own foundation, the evolution of divine life would be a progress in felicity, a march through light to Ananda.
Supermind is an eternal reality of the divine Being and the divine Nature.
In its own plane it already and always exists and possesses its own essential law of being; it has not to be created or to emerge or evolve into existence out of involution in Matter or out of non-existence, as it might seem to the view of mind which itself seems to its own view to have so emerged from life and Matter or to have evolved out of an involution in life and Matter.
The nature of Supermind is always the same, a being of knowledge, proceeding from truth to truth, creating or rather manifesting what has to be manifested by the power of a prexistent knowlege, not by hazard but by a self-existent destiny in the being itself, a necessity of the thing in itself and therefore inevitable. Its manifestation of the divine life will also be inevitable; its own life on its own plane is divine and, if Supermind descends upon earth it will bring necessarily the divine life with it and established it here.
Supermind is the grade of existence beyond mind, life and Matter and, as mind, life and Matter have manifested on the earth, so too must Supermind in the inevitable course of things manifest in this world of Matter..
In fact, a supermind is already here but it is involved, concealed behind this manifest mind, life and Matter and not yet acting overtly or in its own power: if it acts, it is through these inferior powers and modified by their characters and so not yet recognizable. . ." . quoted with permission from Alan Kazlev's website called 'Kheper'.
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It's been circa 50 years (I think) since his so-called death, yet I'm convinced that his stream of Consciousness has guided me to his Work because I didn't have any intention of looking at his work. I was aware of him and his work, but also heard he was a 'spiritual giant' and stayed clear of him. Then one day out of curiosity I began reading here and there, and once I wrapped my mind around this new language/ terminology, I thought "I already know this, because it happened to me!". How uncanny!
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Living Truth Has the Last Word
Even though Reality appears different in different states of consciousness, at its 'summit' all states fall away. Meantime, it's fun to gab and scribble about its 'spectrum' -- as long as those who are not yet 'Realized' don't insist their version of 'truth' is the right one -- for in the end, the Living Truth must have the last word.
I quoted the following already (I'm sure) from The Flame Of Love - A Theology Of The Holy Spirit, penned by Clark H. Pinncok, but will again for the purpose of cross-referencing with what Sri Aurobindo said in The Mind of Light to see how although the spiritual orientation is different, in the end both philosophies word-point to the same 'truth'.
"God is present to us in creation, and the world is a natural sacrament. We meet Spirit in moments of joy and sadness, hope and yearning, suffering and struggle.
Spirit is in at work in the world and not "an ornament of piety." Our experience has the potential to mediate his presents. Spirit is "the mobile, pure, people-loving Spirit who prevedes every wretched corner, wailing at the waste, relaesing power that enables fresh start.
Her energy quickens the earth to life, her beauty shines in the stars, her strength breaks forth in every fragment of shalom and renewal that transpires in arenas of violence and meaningless."
(quote from "Johnson She Who Is p.213.)
The phrase "in arenas of violence and meaningless" is important. Spirit is not only everywhere present but everywhere up against the human negation of God.
The world does not know or receive the Spirit (Jn 14:17). There are powers of resistance with whom the Spirit is locked in mortal combat. Spirit is present in the struggle to make creatures whole, giving hope to the hopeless and working at reconciliation to bring about newness.
Spirit renews the face of the ground and works to restore brokenness, For when sin abounds, the Spirit's grace does much more abound.
Second, Creator Spirit keeps the link between creation and redemption open and alive.
Theology has the unfortunate habit of drawing a line between creation and redemption, distinguishing them too sharply. This looses sight of of the truth that redemption is a restoration of creation, not its denial. . . ."
"Let us stop demoting the Spirit, relegating him to spheres of church and piety. His role in creation is foundational to these other activities. The whole creation is home to the Spirit's operations, and the cosmic fruits issue in new creation The Spirit is the perfecter of the works of God in creation."
Aurobindo's The Mind of Light was published in 1953 . . . He didn't witness the Berlin wall collapse, didn't witness the other political changes on the world-stage. Slowly and surely the changes come . . .
Hell, my (Polish) father was arrested for buying a pig to feed his skinny brood of 6 which he purchased from a farmer directly -- which was against the communist law. Had Sri lived longer, would he sound more optimistic about the "descent" of Supermind? The following is one of the more 'up beat' passages.
"It should be noted, however, that even at the bottom of the involutionary descent, in the blind eclipse of consciousness in Matter, in every field of the working of the Inconscient there are signs of the labour of an infallible force, the drive of a secret consciousness and its promptings, as if the Inconscient itself were secretly informed or impelled by a Power with a direct and absolute knowledge; its acts of creation are infinitely surer than the workings of our human consciousness at its best or the normal workings of the Life-power."
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Divine, You Report From the Divine
<"Divine, you report from the Divine" - this is what popped into my awareness in deep samadhi this AM hour (deep sleep state).
Then, a Vision of white bird's descent towards me. * In Christian mystical literature 'white bird' (dove) symbolizes Holy Spirit.
Plus, a man holding up two torches ablaze with white Light.
Different scenarios, same theme. . .Holy Spirit (or Divine Shakti-light) is speaking to me. At the risk of sounding like a lunatic, I am glad to report that Cosmic synchronicity is orchestrated, or enacted, by the awakened Soul. I didn't ask for any of it.
I know that authentic saints and mystics also 'reported from the Divine'. . .These folks became my community of the adequate...and I check my Depth's data contemplative conclusions with theirs.
Like them, I had no saying in 'what happens next'. Like my beautiful peers, I realized this happened to me because I not only surrendered too, but responded to its Calling. I also know that the energy of gratitude plays a key role in receiving spiritual Blessings.
One of the most compelling mystical experiences was the one where I found myself 'standing on the top rung of the ladder' . . .Many years after that Initiation, I chanced upon Aurobindo's spiritual partner Mira's talk (confirmation) on "Consciousness is like a ladder" (aeongroup.com)
Quote: (Consciousness is like a ladder) "at each great epoch there has been extraordinary being capable of adding one more step to the ladder and reaching a place where the ordinary consciousness has never been. . .one more step to the ladder and reaching the Highest and at the same time connecting the top to the bottom. . .joining the Spiritual and the Material is the whole secret of realisation, and that is the work of the Avatar..."
* I think of myself as Humanity's Servant.
Brief recap / description of what happened in deep sleep state (Soul's awareness doesn't 'sleep'). Time-frame circa 98'.
I was on my back. . . when I looked down I beheld two (very) white moon slivers. Then I looked up and witnessed sky's star-studded canopy rush over to one side. Next, I'm looking at a Sun, and am aware I don't need to squint because of its brightness. I "knew" I was standing on the topmost rung of the ladder, and knew that a "smart man" was standing next to it (my inner Beloved). Next, my attention focused on a group of 'uncouth men'. . .One man began speaking to me. I really tried to hear his words, but heard only garble. I heard garble, but his 'pleading' body language spoke volumes. When I looked up again, a sudden movement on Sun's right startled me. In full bliss-mode now I watch white Dove's rapid descent towards me. I closed my eyes . . . from my chest ripples of the most blessed energy spread throughout my entire being. Tears of deep gratitude. . .I knew I would never turn away from suffering.
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In: The Mind Divine, Sri Aurobindo in chapter on Supermind and Humanity, writes:
Mind, as we know it, has a power of consciousness quite distinct from Supermind, no longer a power devolved from it, connected with it and dependent upon it, but practically divorced from its luminous origin, is marked by several characteristics which we conceive to be the very signs of its nature: but some of these belong to Supermind also and the difference is in the way and scope of their action, not in their stuff or in their principle.
The difference is that mind is not a power of whole knowledge and only when it begins to pass beyond itself, a power of direct knowledge: it receives rays of the truth but does not live in the sun: it sees as through glasses and its knowledge is coloured by its instruments, it cannot see with the naked eyes or look straight at the sun. It is not possible for mind to take its stand in the solar centre or anywhere in the radiant body or even on the shining circumstance of the orb of perfect truth and acquire or share in its privilege of the infallible or absolute knowledge. It would be only if it had already drawn near to the light of Supermind that it could live anywhere near this sun in the full splendour of its rays, in something of the full and direct blaze of Truth and the narrow beginnings of a pure insight, a direct vision and it would take long for it, even surpassing itself, to reach to an imitative and fragmentary reflection of a dream of the limited omniscience and omnipotence which is the privilege od a delegated divinity, of the god, of a demigure...
My March 30/09 post titled Solar Heart Initiation, describes Soul-level experience. Somewhere else I talk about my 94-5 'thundering combustion experience' (etc)...These are examples of what happens at the zenith-point of one's Soul evolution. Such experiences bear witness to the fact that the micro/macro are entangled and can be experienced directly.
I will forever be grateful to Aurobindo for describing 'mechanism of descent' - which I second!
The Descent of Peace (Sat) the descent of Force of Power (Chit) the descent of Ananda, these are the things that transform nature. It is not really the plane that descends, it is the Power and Truth of it that descends into the material and the veil between the material and it no longer exists.
Then, a Vision of white bird's descent towards me. * In Christian mystical literature 'white bird' (dove) symbolizes Holy Spirit.
Plus, a man holding up two torches ablaze with white Light.
Different scenarios, same theme. . .Holy Spirit (or Divine Shakti-light) is speaking to me. At the risk of sounding like a lunatic, I am glad to report that Cosmic synchronicity is orchestrated, or enacted, by the awakened Soul. I didn't ask for any of it.
I know that authentic saints and mystics also 'reported from the Divine'. . .These folks became my community of the adequate...and I check my Depth's data contemplative conclusions with theirs.
Like them, I had no saying in 'what happens next'. Like my beautiful peers, I realized this happened to me because I not only surrendered too, but responded to its Calling. I also know that the energy of gratitude plays a key role in receiving spiritual Blessings.
One of the most compelling mystical experiences was the one where I found myself 'standing on the top rung of the ladder' . . .Many years after that Initiation, I chanced upon Aurobindo's spiritual partner Mira's talk (confirmation) on "Consciousness is like a ladder" (aeongroup.com)
Quote: (Consciousness is like a ladder) "at each great epoch there has been extraordinary being capable of adding one more step to the ladder and reaching a place where the ordinary consciousness has never been. . .one more step to the ladder and reaching the Highest and at the same time connecting the top to the bottom. . .joining the Spiritual and the Material is the whole secret of realisation, and that is the work of the Avatar..."
* I think of myself as Humanity's Servant.
Brief recap / description of what happened in deep sleep state (Soul's awareness doesn't 'sleep'). Time-frame circa 98'.
I was on my back. . . when I looked down I beheld two (very) white moon slivers. Then I looked up and witnessed sky's star-studded canopy rush over to one side. Next, I'm looking at a Sun, and am aware I don't need to squint because of its brightness. I "knew" I was standing on the topmost rung of the ladder, and knew that a "smart man" was standing next to it (my inner Beloved). Next, my attention focused on a group of 'uncouth men'. . .One man began speaking to me. I really tried to hear his words, but heard only garble. I heard garble, but his 'pleading' body language spoke volumes. When I looked up again, a sudden movement on Sun's right startled me. In full bliss-mode now I watch white Dove's rapid descent towards me. I closed my eyes . . . from my chest ripples of the most blessed energy spread throughout my entire being. Tears of deep gratitude. . .I knew I would never turn away from suffering.
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In: The Mind Divine, Sri Aurobindo in chapter on Supermind and Humanity, writes:
Mind, as we know it, has a power of consciousness quite distinct from Supermind, no longer a power devolved from it, connected with it and dependent upon it, but practically divorced from its luminous origin, is marked by several characteristics which we conceive to be the very signs of its nature: but some of these belong to Supermind also and the difference is in the way and scope of their action, not in their stuff or in their principle.
The difference is that mind is not a power of whole knowledge and only when it begins to pass beyond itself, a power of direct knowledge: it receives rays of the truth but does not live in the sun: it sees as through glasses and its knowledge is coloured by its instruments, it cannot see with the naked eyes or look straight at the sun. It is not possible for mind to take its stand in the solar centre or anywhere in the radiant body or even on the shining circumstance of the orb of perfect truth and acquire or share in its privilege of the infallible or absolute knowledge. It would be only if it had already drawn near to the light of Supermind that it could live anywhere near this sun in the full splendour of its rays, in something of the full and direct blaze of Truth and the narrow beginnings of a pure insight, a direct vision and it would take long for it, even surpassing itself, to reach to an imitative and fragmentary reflection of a dream of the limited omniscience and omnipotence which is the privilege od a delegated divinity, of the god, of a demigure...
My March 30/09 post titled Solar Heart Initiation, describes Soul-level experience. Somewhere else I talk about my 94-5 'thundering combustion experience' (etc)...These are examples of what happens at the zenith-point of one's Soul evolution. Such experiences bear witness to the fact that the micro/macro are entangled and can be experienced directly.
I will forever be grateful to Aurobindo for describing 'mechanism of descent' - which I second!
The Descent of Peace (Sat) the descent of Force of Power (Chit) the descent of Ananda, these are the things that transform nature. It is not really the plane that descends, it is the Power and Truth of it that descends into the material and the veil between the material and it no longer exists.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
The River of Light
Introductory Note
Because the theme-subject of the 'highest integration and fulfillment' is very complex, each post unpacks but a portion of what happens on the Path without a map. . . It is intensly complex, because it includes accounts of direct contacts with and direct experience of the Kosmic Essence-Energy and its Forces, direct contact/mind-melt with with the Kosmic Mind and first-hand perception of all domains of existence.
This (edit-added) opening statement includes quotes from the Tibetan Buddhism perspective, and Sri Aurobindo's statement on transformation/what needs to happen before one is ready for the Ultimate Erotic Union with the Supreme Beloved.
Will start by saying that only very recently I noticed in The Tibetan Book of the Dead (translated by Robert A.F. Thurman), that my experience of becoming/flowing out of my Crown chakra as
'River of Light', falls into the highest of the perfection stages, category. The following excerpt is from the Glossary section:
Sanskrit yuganaddha is the Unexcelled Yoga Tantra name for Buddhahood, the fifth and highest of the perfection stages, indicating that relative and ultimate, individual and universal, body and mind, bliss and wisdom, male and female -- all dualities are integrated in this experience of fulfillment.
In one of my more recent posts titled: Second Coming, written in 2018, I wrote:
"The state of being as limited being has ended for me and now I belong to the Glory in which I dwell as a function of the Divine in service to the Divine (and beings in all dimensions of creation)."
Both very different statements but their core meaning is identical (to me).
www.spiritspeaks-theofilia.blogspot.ca/2018/09/second-coming.html
In Aurobindo's (confirming) words from The Life Divine, p. 956
For a real transformation there must be a direct and unveiled intervention from above; there would be necessary too a total submission and surrender of the lower consciousness, a cessation of its insistence, a will in it for its separate law of action to be completely annulled by transformation and lose all rights over our being.
Exactly
Long time ago - long before I saw this statement - in one of my posts unpacking 'Cosmic Tonglen Duty', I said something like: 'Strictly speaking my body doesn't belong to me any more'.
*Edit-adding: I searched and found that I wrote those words in The Bliss of Identity - written in 2013.
***
Today, (May 2010) I came home with library-borrowed the only Aurobindo book available in this library system titled, The Mind of Light. To this day each time I read something penned by him, I am surprised. . .For years I thought this man's work was way beyond my league, and wasn't even curious to see what his writing is about. This mindset changed when I allowed myself to get curious (the year I began writing here -2009). Not initially, but once my brain got used to all those new terminologies, I discovered that: "I already know this, because this happened to me!"
I didn't know anyone who was experiencing and writing (internet forums) about the things I did (and claimed nothing), this is it was exciting to finally have Sri A writing - because it became really important for me to check/compare my Soul level mystical/supramental Events, with someone who got plugged to the same Kosmic address -- the domain of: 'I am absorbed in Celestial Samadhi lovingly attached to the Essence of the Supreme Beloved' (as well as all beings in the visible and invisible domains of creation).
This Kosmic address is reached when one is in permanent Samadhi state and the nervous/chakra system uncoils to infinity (thanks to awakened activity of Kundalini Shakti).
He confirmed this for me this, is why I named Aurobindo my 'primary peer review person' (even before I read his autobiographical poems The Bliss of Brahman and The Bride of the Fire).
I also resonate with Gopi Krishna's work. Long before I became somewhat familiar with his work, I already knew that my mystical experiences were not the result of subconscious mind's dive into hallucinatory wish-fulfilling formations.
The following excerpt is from Krishna's book titled: The Real Nature of Mystical Experience.
In every case of illumination, mere visionary experience is not sufficient. It must be attended by certain objective signs to confirm it.
It has to be remembered that in the mystical ecstasy the intellect remains active. There is no blunting of the rational faculty. This is repeatedly mentioned in the Upanishads. Reason has to be satisfied that the experience is not delusion.
***
(2010) Today I am bearing witness to what transpired this AM hour during Yogic/Deep Samadhi state which transcends sleep. . .
I was on my back with hands resting on mid-body. When my Bliss body's ecstasy has reached the critical mass-point, I beheld with the eye of contemplation (Spirit) a vast sea of diamond-white points of light morph into a 'solid' River of Light . . .and its endless' flow (sublimated Erotic Potency/Shakti Light) out of my Crown chakra into the world's hologram via subtle planes.
Words can describe what happens, but they can never convey the full extent of what this type of experience/event is like - including its impact on all dimensions of creation. . .
The Rig Veda seer didn't apologize for he/she received (God-Realization/Divine Revelation) and neither do I, because I know I earned it by fully submitting myself to the Supreme Divine. . .and then performing the Will of the Supreme Being:
By the Truth they (we) hold the Truth that holds all,
in the power of the Sacrifice, in the supreme other.
- Rig Veda V.80.4
To reach this Kosmic station one must be in permanent Samadhi state. During the 11 to 13 hours I spend in bed each day -- in a state of extremely intense Erotic ravishment-activity -- I am completely detached from 'feelings' because I am in a state of Peace that passes human comprehension....Well, except for those very rare occasions when I return to my body abruptly and feelings get involved.
Soul level Liberation is not well understood, this is why I have a moral obligation to write about it (by giving precise accounts of what happens on this Path during the myriad of Initiatory experiences).
One who feels the Divine Presence and its governing Power manifesting through the body, understands perfectly its Nature as well as its action-influence in all domains of creation.
We also understand what the term: 'I have crossed the abode of life and death', signifies.
Those who submitted to Divine Will know, that at this stage-point in Soul evolution we are performing the Will of the one Spirit in order to. . .
... effect a spiritual transformation and to bring down a divine nature and a divine life into the mental, vital and physical nature and life of humanity. + It is not personal Ananda, but the bringing down of the divine-Ananda Christ's Kingdom of heaven, our Satyayuga - upon earth.
- Sri Aurobindo
I am glad I read that the Upanishad lists ten ascending levels of bliss before one reaches the the Bliss of the Eternal Spirit -- the Supreme Sachichidananda (which is above Supermind) -- "and each level a hundredfold the intensity of the proceeding level".
I share my Depth data's revelations just like any other (ascended) Soul has done - no matter the tradition. We demonstrate that this (evolutionary) Great Cosmic Power (Holy Spirit/Supreme Shakti) flows into the world of Form for the benefit of all beings in all realms of existence, for the benefit of evolution of consciousness itself.
The Bhagavad Gita says that 'finding supreme ecstasy is the final goal'. I learned that basking in Blissananda, is not the final goal. One whose Soul has fulfilled her ancient plan, knows that the Final goal is Divine Labor. . .The hardest job on the planet because we don't get 'time out'.
***
My gratitude to the author of The Mind of Light, Sri Aurobindo, is immense - it is my pleasure to include couple of quotes from chapter titled, The Divine Body.
"The new type, the divine body, must continue the already developed evolutionary form: there must be a continuation from the type Nature has all along been developing, a continuity from the human to the divine body, not breaking away to something unrecognizable but a high sequel to what has already been achieved and in part perfected. The human body has in its parts and instruments that have been sufficiently evolved to serve the divine life; these have to survive in their form, though they must be still perfected, their limitations of range and use removed, their liability to defect and malady and impairment eliminated, their capacities of cognition and dynamic action carried beyond present limits.
New powers have to be acquired by the body which our present humanity could not hope to realize, could not even dream of or could only imagine.
Much that can now be known, worked our or created by the use of invented tools and machinery might be achieved by the new body in its own power or by the inhabitant spirit through its own direct spiritual force.
The body itself might acquire new means and ranges of communication with other bodies, new processes of acquiring knowledge, a new aestesis, new potency's of manipulation of itself and objects...
These and other numerous potentialities might appear and the body become an instrument immeasurably superior to what we can now imagine as possible. There could be an evolution from a first apprehending truth-consciousness to the utmost heights of the ascending ranges of supermind and it may pass borders of the supermind proper itself where it begins to shadow out, develop, delineate expressive forms of life touched by a supreme pure existence, consciousness and bliss which constituted the worlds of highest truth of existence, dynamism of Tapas, glory and sweetness of bliss, the absolute essence and pitch of all the all-creating Ananda.
The transformation of the physical being might follow the incessant line of progression and the divine body reflect or reproduce here in the divine life on the earth something of this highest greatness and glory of the self-manifesting Spirit".
Because the theme-subject of the 'highest integration and fulfillment' is very complex, each post unpacks but a portion of what happens on the Path without a map. . . It is intensly complex, because it includes accounts of direct contacts with and direct experience of the Kosmic Essence-Energy and its Forces, direct contact/mind-melt with with the Kosmic Mind and first-hand perception of all domains of existence.
This (edit-added) opening statement includes quotes from the Tibetan Buddhism perspective, and Sri Aurobindo's statement on transformation/what needs to happen before one is ready for the Ultimate Erotic Union with the Supreme Beloved.
Will start by saying that only very recently I noticed in The Tibetan Book of the Dead (translated by Robert A.F. Thurman), that my experience of becoming/flowing out of my Crown chakra as
'River of Light', falls into the highest of the perfection stages, category. The following excerpt is from the Glossary section:
Sanskrit yuganaddha is the Unexcelled Yoga Tantra name for Buddhahood, the fifth and highest of the perfection stages, indicating that relative and ultimate, individual and universal, body and mind, bliss and wisdom, male and female -- all dualities are integrated in this experience of fulfillment.
In one of my more recent posts titled: Second Coming, written in 2018, I wrote:
"The state of being as limited being has ended for me and now I belong to the Glory in which I dwell as a function of the Divine in service to the Divine (and beings in all dimensions of creation)."
Both very different statements but their core meaning is identical (to me).
www.spiritspeaks-theofilia.blogspot.ca/2018/09/second-coming.html
In Aurobindo's (confirming) words from The Life Divine, p. 956
For a real transformation there must be a direct and unveiled intervention from above; there would be necessary too a total submission and surrender of the lower consciousness, a cessation of its insistence, a will in it for its separate law of action to be completely annulled by transformation and lose all rights over our being.
Exactly
Long time ago - long before I saw this statement - in one of my posts unpacking 'Cosmic Tonglen Duty', I said something like: 'Strictly speaking my body doesn't belong to me any more'.
*Edit-adding: I searched and found that I wrote those words in The Bliss of Identity - written in 2013.
***
Today, (May 2010) I came home with library-borrowed the only Aurobindo book available in this library system titled, The Mind of Light. To this day each time I read something penned by him, I am surprised. . .For years I thought this man's work was way beyond my league, and wasn't even curious to see what his writing is about. This mindset changed when I allowed myself to get curious (the year I began writing here -2009). Not initially, but once my brain got used to all those new terminologies, I discovered that: "I already know this, because this happened to me!"
I didn't know anyone who was experiencing and writing (internet forums) about the things I did (and claimed nothing), this is it was exciting to finally have Sri A writing - because it became really important for me to check/compare my Soul level mystical/supramental Events, with someone who got plugged to the same Kosmic address -- the domain of: 'I am absorbed in Celestial Samadhi lovingly attached to the Essence of the Supreme Beloved' (as well as all beings in the visible and invisible domains of creation).
This Kosmic address is reached when one is in permanent Samadhi state and the nervous/chakra system uncoils to infinity (thanks to awakened activity of Kundalini Shakti).
He confirmed this for me this, is why I named Aurobindo my 'primary peer review person' (even before I read his autobiographical poems The Bliss of Brahman and The Bride of the Fire).
I also resonate with Gopi Krishna's work. Long before I became somewhat familiar with his work, I already knew that my mystical experiences were not the result of subconscious mind's dive into hallucinatory wish-fulfilling formations.
The following excerpt is from Krishna's book titled: The Real Nature of Mystical Experience.
In every case of illumination, mere visionary experience is not sufficient. It must be attended by certain objective signs to confirm it.
It has to be remembered that in the mystical ecstasy the intellect remains active. There is no blunting of the rational faculty. This is repeatedly mentioned in the Upanishads. Reason has to be satisfied that the experience is not delusion.
***
(2010) Today I am bearing witness to what transpired this AM hour during Yogic/Deep Samadhi state which transcends sleep. . .
I was on my back with hands resting on mid-body. When my Bliss body's ecstasy has reached the critical mass-point, I beheld with the eye of contemplation (Spirit) a vast sea of diamond-white points of light morph into a 'solid' River of Light . . .and its endless' flow (sublimated Erotic Potency/Shakti Light) out of my Crown chakra into the world's hologram via subtle planes.
Words can describe what happens, but they can never convey the full extent of what this type of experience/event is like - including its impact on all dimensions of creation. . .
The Rig Veda seer didn't apologize for he/she received (God-Realization/Divine Revelation) and neither do I, because I know I earned it by fully submitting myself to the Supreme Divine. . .and then performing the Will of the Supreme Being:
By the Truth they (we) hold the Truth that holds all,
in the power of the Sacrifice, in the supreme other.
- Rig Veda V.80.4
To reach this Kosmic station one must be in permanent Samadhi state. During the 11 to 13 hours I spend in bed each day -- in a state of extremely intense Erotic ravishment-activity -- I am completely detached from 'feelings' because I am in a state of Peace that passes human comprehension....Well, except for those very rare occasions when I return to my body abruptly and feelings get involved.
Soul level Liberation is not well understood, this is why I have a moral obligation to write about it (by giving precise accounts of what happens on this Path during the myriad of Initiatory experiences).
One who feels the Divine Presence and its governing Power manifesting through the body, understands perfectly its Nature as well as its action-influence in all domains of creation.
We also understand what the term: 'I have crossed the abode of life and death', signifies.
Those who submitted to Divine Will know, that at this stage-point in Soul evolution we are performing the Will of the one Spirit in order to. . .
... effect a spiritual transformation and to bring down a divine nature and a divine life into the mental, vital and physical nature and life of humanity. + It is not personal Ananda, but the bringing down of the divine-Ananda Christ's Kingdom of heaven, our Satyayuga - upon earth.
- Sri Aurobindo
I am glad I read that the Upanishad lists ten ascending levels of bliss before one reaches the the Bliss of the Eternal Spirit -- the Supreme Sachichidananda (which is above Supermind) -- "and each level a hundredfold the intensity of the proceeding level".
I share my Depth data's revelations just like any other (ascended) Soul has done - no matter the tradition. We demonstrate that this (evolutionary) Great Cosmic Power (Holy Spirit/Supreme Shakti) flows into the world of Form for the benefit of all beings in all realms of existence, for the benefit of evolution of consciousness itself.
The Bhagavad Gita says that 'finding supreme ecstasy is the final goal'. I learned that basking in Blissananda, is not the final goal. One whose Soul has fulfilled her ancient plan, knows that the Final goal is Divine Labor. . .The hardest job on the planet because we don't get 'time out'.
***
My gratitude to the author of The Mind of Light, Sri Aurobindo, is immense - it is my pleasure to include couple of quotes from chapter titled, The Divine Body.
"The new type, the divine body, must continue the already developed evolutionary form: there must be a continuation from the type Nature has all along been developing, a continuity from the human to the divine body, not breaking away to something unrecognizable but a high sequel to what has already been achieved and in part perfected. The human body has in its parts and instruments that have been sufficiently evolved to serve the divine life; these have to survive in their form, though they must be still perfected, their limitations of range and use removed, their liability to defect and malady and impairment eliminated, their capacities of cognition and dynamic action carried beyond present limits.
New powers have to be acquired by the body which our present humanity could not hope to realize, could not even dream of or could only imagine.
Much that can now be known, worked our or created by the use of invented tools and machinery might be achieved by the new body in its own power or by the inhabitant spirit through its own direct spiritual force.
The body itself might acquire new means and ranges of communication with other bodies, new processes of acquiring knowledge, a new aestesis, new potency's of manipulation of itself and objects...
These and other numerous potentialities might appear and the body become an instrument immeasurably superior to what we can now imagine as possible. There could be an evolution from a first apprehending truth-consciousness to the utmost heights of the ascending ranges of supermind and it may pass borders of the supermind proper itself where it begins to shadow out, develop, delineate expressive forms of life touched by a supreme pure existence, consciousness and bliss which constituted the worlds of highest truth of existence, dynamism of Tapas, glory and sweetness of bliss, the absolute essence and pitch of all the all-creating Ananda.
The transformation of the physical being might follow the incessant line of progression and the divine body reflect or reproduce here in the divine life on the earth something of this highest greatness and glory of the self-manifesting Spirit".
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