She Needed to Hear Jesus' Words Once More

Today,  finally I convinced myself to  write about my (ex) sister-in-law's last  wish. . .
This story can make sense only to one who believes that what I share is true. This story will make more sense if I share a bit of her bio-material.

D. was rejected by her  teen birth-mother. . .One of her adopted grandmothers referred to her as "she", or "her", because she "preferred boys" - said her mom not all phased.

"She never cried when getting whipped on bare bum, which I thought was very strange", said her brother - adding,  "Guess she didn't want to give him the satisfaction."  Going through mom's underwear drawer  got her in  trouble but the punishment had to wait till dad came come...
Through the week the mother kept track of  their adopted kids  misbehaviour's, on weekend when the father came home, his job was to whip some sense into them with a  beating ritual whose opening line was command "take your underpants off and lay across my lap".

In her 40's  D. found her birth mother who after a couple of meetings decided to move to BC to live with her son.
From birth mother she found out who her father was and same year she contacted him. They met once in person. He lived in BC and from there he sent D. a   word-glowing  letter . It was several pages long, I  read it and it  got me all teary-eye . Filled to brim with: "wish I could have been there for you" "you are such a beautiful person inside and out",   sentiments. . . Full of  hope they might "spend summers together".
Her face aglow sharing her vision that soon this will come to pass (because)  "I can just see us sail together on his boat...."
I thought that many page letter was written from his heart and it couldn't  have been more heart-tugging.

Weeks later  D. received   "I'm sorry"word from her birth father announcing his wife's wish is that he severs all ties with her.
And that was that. No more dreams of a father-figure capable of showing emotion who wanted to make up for the time lost.

Her health began a downward spiral . .  . Several times, during normal  family conversation (at in-laws - she lived w/them)  she would  say "I can't stomach that" to no one in particular.
Her (gut/bowel) disease began turning her bones into mush. In the last year of her life sneezing was dangerous. Once she sneezed and her thigh bone broke.
The ambulance folks got a call to take her to the hospital and had to call another ambulance to help them. Her  wailing screams filled with  concern  the neighbors.  Not only was her thigh bone broken, now she wailed in agony because  her arm got broken when the ambulance  crew tried to lift her unto the stretcher.

I'm just highlighting few  things  to give a sense just how very ill her body was.
She claimed to have been allergic to a lot of good fresh foods --- but hot dogs, Pepsi and cigarettes she loved.
She was interested in herbal remedies but never tried anything. She knew about "energy healing" and once  I offered  to place my hands on her sore knees, but she pretended no to hear me.
I didn't see her often during those last few months she was in hospital. Her brother did often visit her after work ( he worked in same city.)
Despite being heavily medicated D. begged the hospital staff not to touch, or move her -- not even to change the sheets.   And when they did,  she had to be heavily sedated.

Towards the end she hasn't been able to speak (for several weeks)  let alone sit or eat, still the worried  mom asked (on the parking lot)  D's  bone specialist if   she "will walk again". He gently told her that he never saw anything like it, and there was nothing more that he,  she, or anyone  else could do to help her.
Her twisted and shrunken body lay motionless towards  the end  and one could literally smell the disease (she had severe case of "bed sores" also).

In June at  dawn one day,  I heard behind me D's  excited  voice say my name. I glanced at the clock made a mental note of the time, thinking "this is it" -- thinking she died.
My ex worked the afternoon shift   that day and later called the mom, but  she acted 'normal' .
I was relieved and couldn't wait to see D. still alive  (same day) .
Her, ever-by-her-side, beautifully illustrated Bible was put away. Her lifeless body and staring (without blinking) eyes wide open, still responding when asked something by uttering barely audible grunts.
I asked her brother to find her Bible (which took a while) and  I spoke to her about God's love. I asked if she wanted me to read for her from her bible and she indicated 'yes'. Not at all sure which passages I was supposed to read, but chose the Gospel of John and read for a little while.

After reading, I talked tenderly to her a bit more and asked if I could gently place my hands on her body . . .She was unresponsive, but I took it to mean that maybe she dozed off (even tho her staring eyes were open) and proceeded to scan her energy field and gently placing hands here and there. . .At some point I looked at her face, saw her clenched jaw, and stopped instantly.

Next, while sipping coffee the hallway we got approached by a very pleasant Pastor-man who asked if there was anything he could do for us.
I asked if he could read from the Bible for D. . .
Like me, he also asked D. if she would like him to read for her.... Once again, she indicated 'yes'.
We prayed at the end, the Pastor left, and a nurse came in to top off her morphine.
Minutes later  husband and I   decided that it was time to go home. I said bye first, then while her brother was still next to D. ,  when suddenly  at the top of her voice  she screamed  "grab me!!!!"

This time I  gently placed my hands on her heart chakra with, "this is what it feels like when the soul is  leaves the body". (that 'soaring' movement I knew well.)
I knew well, that at the speed of  meta-light   that 'soaring' feeling/sensation  were experienced during ecstatic moments --  which if memory serves me right Hildegard of Bingen described also.
She passed peacefully few days later.

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The One Light Shining Through All

The one light shining through all is the Buddha Mind . . .
Different traditions have other names for the same One Light-bliss.
The Rig Veda  says: "I honor in you the divine that I honor within myself and I know we are One."
For personal reasons, I like best the following quote, because it includes the dimension of mystical  Love-Essence.
"Some Upanishads describe Brahman as the Lord of Love. It is a description born of pure personal experience of a seeker of truth, not from a devotee's imaginative and self-induced emotional energy." 

Conventional Christianity teaches that "God is Love", that Jesus "is the only son of God" -- which never made much sense to me, because Jesus' invited his followers to 'do as I do and greater thiings will be accomplished'.

Below, in the comment section, I wrote "Buddha mind in me sees same in you". . .It is the same one Force-Intelligence that each enlightened being --in permanent Samadhi--discovers within their innermost sanctuary/one's eternal self-Soul who is one with the Supreme Existence  and its Love-Bliss. . .consciously.
Enlightened Liberation is about discovering and living within  Divine Nature. The ascended mystic, or Yogi/Yogini,  who abandoned all cravings and is established in the Supreme Love-Bliss bears witness to this Truth by describing why/how/what happens on this Path through Light and Sound.
Gopi Krishna agrees: All the great mystics who have written on the subject have given their own symptoms openly and plainly. That is the tradition. And from their descriptions, one can compare one's own condition. 
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Words' (intent) are meant to spark interest in the Divine, but the meaning must be felt in every fiber of one's being without ceasing.
That 'felt' energy -- because it is a non-local phenomenon -- influences holographicaly every*thing.

In this blog I am bearing witness to what happens at the zenith-point of Soul's evolution. I talk about undergoing transformation of epic proportions...Of being Initiated into the greatest Mystery of all (in my case unsolicited), Kundalini Shakti, style.  Liberation grounded in multidimensional evolution into wholeness and transcendence, is not for the faint of heart, because bhava Samadhi is impossible to retain unless worldly desires have been removed and proper qualities have been established. The Shiva Sutras affirms this:
All desire vanishes in that fortunate person whose consciousness
is established in his own nature.
For him the state of being of a limited individual has ended.

I Am That

Naturally, child's laughter is her parent's cheer,
Naturally, the blades of grass bend in the breeze
Naturally, the city's skyline is etched against the sky's canopy
Naturally, its citizens busy about their daily activities
Giving rise to smells, sounds and sights
Naturally, the animal kingdom fulfills Life's purpose
As does a rainfall . . .
Naturally forests grow. . .
The leaves on trees obey natures rhythm of decay and renewal
As effortlessly, as the Jack pine stretches  its always ever-green limbs
Naturally, the song bird sings and those who don't
Live out their destiny by doing what comes naturally
The rainbow's arch graces the sky as naturally, as does a lightning bolt
Naturally, at sunrise the sun paints the desert with golden hues,
At sundown, shimmering rose . . .
I Am the swift bird in flight the morning light
Soft breeze, every sigh and cry and laughter

I am the Infinite. . .

In my Soul I can find no beggining, no end

All is Myself.


Today, in the stillness of the dawn, (in deep samadhi state) directly before my eye of contemplation appeared in all its IMMENSE counterclock spinning glory, a Wheel made up countless points of eye-dazzling White Light. . . out of which flowed into every cell of my being Blissananda frequancy (Divine Force).

Yogic science describes this type of Soul level experience as the Descent of the (Divine) Power and Truth into the material. . .
Aurobindo confirmed for me that: "The White Light is a manifestation of pure Divine Force descending from one of the Truth-planes leading to the supramental." + "White Light indicates the divine consciousness. White is the purity and power of the Divine Truth. "And the veil between the material and it no longer exists."

In the Tibetan Buddhism, one of the eight auspicious symbols is called, "The All-powerful Wheel, which symbolizes the teaching of Buddha, and is the source of spiritual values, wealth, love and liberation."
Will add, that another of this tradition's symbols -- a Vision of a ('red and joyful') "The most Precious Parasol", signifies Protection. And since at it, many years ago I was handed a a beautiful Gold Lamp with: "You have nothing to worry about," utterance. I am immensely grateful for these type of Grace-bestowed Initiations.

Supermind / Supramental Consciousness

I did say below I wanted to find out what "exactly" Sri Aurobindo thought the Supermind is, but first this. . .
Earlier today, while still in Deep Samadhi , a vivid Vision of a  Face directly before my face. . . This Beautiful Face  of pure Gold radiance (lashes and all)  shyly  peering between open fingers of  very much  flesh-like looking hand.

Today I chanced upon a passage from Isha Upanishads, which  gave  me  a  "this is synchronicity 101", pause (because of what I  described in my opening paragraph).

The face of truth hidden by a golden lid;
that remove, O fostering Sun, for the law of the Truth, for sight.
O Sun, O sole Seer, Marshal thy rays, gather them together --
let me see of thy happiest form of all,
that Conscious Being everywhere,
He am I.

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"All the life and action and leading of the Supermind is guarded in its very nature from the falsehood and uncertainties that are our lot; it moves in safety towards its perfection. Once the truth-consciousness was established here on its own foundation, the evolution of divine life would be a progress in felicity, a march through light to Ananda.

Supermind is an eternal reality of the divine Being and the divine Nature.
In its own plane it already and always exists and possesses its own essential law of being; it has not to be created or to emerge or evolve into existence out of involution in Matter or out of non-existence, as it might seem to the view of mind which itself seems to its own view to have so emerged from life and Matter or to have evolved out of an involution in life and Matter.
The nature of Supermind is always the same, a being of knowledge, proceeding from truth to truth, creating or rather manifesting what has to be manifested by the power of a prexistent knowlege, not by hazard but by a self-existent destiny in the being itself, a necessity of the thing in itself and therefore inevitable. Its manifestation of the divine life will also be inevitable; its own life on its own plane is divine and, if Supermind descends upon earth it will bring necessarily the divine life with it and established it here.

Supermind is the grade of existence beyond mind, life and Matter and, as mind, life and Matter have manifested on the earth, so too must Supermind in the inevitable course of things manifest in this world of Matter..
In fact, a supermind is already  here but it is involved, concealed behind this manifest mind, life and Matter and not yet acting overtly or in its own power: if it acts, it is through these inferior powers and modified by their characters and so not yet recognizable. . ." . quoted with permission from  Alan Kazlev's  website called 'Kheper'.

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It's been circa 50 years (I think) since his so-called death, yet I'm convinced that  his  stream of Consciousness has guided me to  his Work because I didn't have any intention of  looking at his work.  I was aware of him and  his work,  but also heard he was a 'spiritual giant' and  stayed clear of him.  Then one day out of curiosity I  began reading here and there, and once I  wrapped my mind around this new language/ terminology, I thought "I already know this, because it happened to me!". How uncanny! 

Living Truth Has the Last Word

Even though Reality appears different in different states of consciousness, at its 'summit' all states fall away. Meantime, it's fun to gab and scribble about its 'spectrum' -- as long as those who are not yet 'Realized' don't insist their version of 'truth' is the right one -- for in the end, the Living Truth must have the last word.

I quoted the following already (I'm sure) from The Flame Of Love - A Theology Of The Holy Spirit, penned by Clark H. Pinncok, but will again for the purpose of cross-referencing with what Sri Aurobindo said in The Mind of Light to see how although the spiritual orientation is different, in the end both philosophies word-point to the same 'truth'.

"God is present to us in creation, and the world is a natural sacrament. We meet Spirit in moments of joy and sadness, hope and yearning, suffering and struggle.
Spirit is in at work in the world and not "an ornament of piety." Our experience has the potential to mediate his presents. Spirit is "the mobile, pure, people-loving Spirit who prevedes every wretched corner, wailing at the waste, relaesing power that enables fresh start.
Her energy quickens the earth to life, her beauty shines in the stars, her strength breaks forth in every fragment of shalom and renewal that transpires in arenas of violence and meaningless."
(quote from "Johnson She Who Is p.213.)

The phrase "in arenas of violence and meaningless" is important. Spirit is not only everywhere present but everywhere up against the human negation of God.
The world does not know or receive the Spirit (Jn 14:17). There are powers of resistance with whom the Spirit is locked in mortal combat. Spirit is present in the struggle to make creatures whole, giving hope to the hopeless and working at reconciliation to bring about newness.
Spirit renews the face of the ground and works to restore brokenness, For when sin abounds, the Spirit's grace does much more abound.

Second, Creator Spirit keeps the link between creation and redemption open and alive.
Theology has the unfortunate habit of drawing a line between creation and redemption, distinguishing them too sharply. This looses sight of of the truth that redemption is a restoration of creation, not its denial. . . ."

"Let us stop demoting the Spirit, relegating him to spheres of church and piety. His role in creation is foundational to these other activities. The whole creation is home to the Spirit's operations, and the cosmic fruits issue in new creation The Spirit is the perfecter of the works of God in creation."

Aurobindo's The Mind of Light was published in 1953 . . . He didn't witness the Berlin wall collapse, didn't witness the other political changes on the world-stage. Slowly and surely the changes come . . .
Hell, my (Polish) father was arrested for buying a pig to feed his skinny brood of 6 which he purchased from a farmer directly -- which was against the communist law.  Had Sri lived longer, would he sound more optimistic about the "descent" of Supermind? The following is one of the more 'up beat' passages.

"It should be noted, however, that even at the bottom of the involutionary descent, in the blind eclipse of consciousness in Matter, in every field of the working of the Inconscient there are signs of the labour of an infallible force, the drive of a secret consciousness and its promptings, as if the Inconscient itself were secretly informed or impelled by a Power with a direct and absolute knowledge; its acts of creation are infinitely surer than the workings of our human consciousness at its best or the normal workings of the Life-power."

Divine, You Report From the Divine

IT IS ONLY BY ENTERING INTO COMMUNION WITH THE SUPREME BELOVED THAT ONE CAN COMPREHEND THE WORD/LOGOS

"Divine, you report from the Divine"  message, entered my awareness in Yogic-awake sleep state this AM hour - followed by a Vision of a handsome man holding up two torches ablaze with White Light. Translation? - A pretty straight-forward marching orders (Divine guidance): 'Fulfill your Soul's longing, Interpreter of Divine Law. You are comissioned to uplift Humanity. Go and tell. Fear not, Sun-clothed Woman the adverse Forces - the White Light torch-bearer got your back'.

DOWN THE MEMORY LANE I GO

One of the most compelling mystical events stood out for me *time-frame circa 98'* because its 'walking orders' felt like a sacred command.
Description: I knew I was standing on the top rung of a very tall ladder and a smart man stood on the ground next to it - and it felt reasuring ('bridging the heaven and earth, motif). When I looked down, a Vision of two white moon slivers. . .When I looked up, a vision of sky's star-studded canopy 'rushed' over to one side. Next instant an image of Sun's brilliance swam into my focus. Next moment my attention beheld a group of unhappy looking men standing on the ground. One of them began speaking to me. . .I heard 'garble', but his 'pleading' body lnaguage spoke volumes. Next, my gaze set its sight on the Sun again - a sudden movement on its right side (Biblical theme/'Jesus sits on God's right side') stratled me a bit: And what happened next words can describe, but only first-hand experience can comprehend the intensity of this type of Initiation. . .
A Vision of Dove's rapid descent towards me . . . with eyes closed now, and in full-bliss mode receiving Heart-filling Bliss essence and feeling its rippling-out influence/rays flowing into every fiber of my being.
When I woke up in this dimension, tears of gratitude sealed this most precious Grace-bestowed deal.
And I knew I will never look away from suffering.

For the reader not familiar with Christian mysticism, brief note on the 'Dove's'symbolic meaning: This image symbolises the Holy Spirit by whose power alone hearts are penetrated by God's Grace. John 1:32 "I have seen the Spirit descending as a dove out of heaven, and He remained upon Him."

* Some dots just connected for me and want to mention that I was born with a type of emotional intelligence that a sight (first time) of a 'beggar' made my teen self cry*

IT IS NOT BY YOUR MIND THAT YOU CAN HOPE TO UNDERSTAND THE DIVINE AND ITS ACTION

Sri Aurobindo's words (snippets) from intyoga.online.fr/avatarhood.htm struck a resonating note:

"Surely for earth-consciousness the very fact that the Divine manifests himself is the greatest of all splendours. Consider the obscurity here and what it would be if the Divine did not directly intervene and the Light of Lights did not break out of obscurity - for that is the meaning of the manifestation.
An Incarnation is the Divine Consciousness and Being manifesting through the body. It is possible from any plane.
The Descending Power (Avatar) chooses its own place, body, time for manifestation.
An Avatar, roughly speaking, is one who is conscious of the presence and the power of the Divine born in him or descended into him and governing from within his will and life action; he feels inwardly identified with divine power and presence.
It is not by your mind that you can hope to understand the Divine and its action, but by the growth of a true and divine consciousness within you. If the Divine were to unveil and reveal in all its glory, the mind might feel a Presence, but it would be not understand its action or its nature. It is in the measure of your own realisation and by birth and growth of the greater consciousness in yourself that you will will see the Divine when he takes on a burden of terriestial disguises.
I repeat, the Divine when he takes on a burden of terriestial nature, takes it fully, sincerily and without any conjuring trics or pretense."

And, from Letters On Yoga-2, p.420-23, few more quotes on same theme:
"One may see or feel the presence of the Divine or a Divine Power above the head or in the heart or in any or all of the centers, feel the presence, see the form living there; one may be governed by in all one's actions, thoughts and feelings by it; one may loose one's separate personality in it, may identify and merge. But all that does not constitute an incarnation or emanation of the Divine or of the Power.
These are universal experiences to which any Yogi may arrive; to reach this condition with relation to the Divine is indeed a common object of Yoga. An incarnation is something more, something special and individual to the individual being. It is the substitution of the Person of a divine being for the human person and an infiltration of it into all the movenents so that there is a dynamic personal change in all of them and in the whole nature; not merely a change of the character of the consciousness or a general surrender into its hands, but a subtle intimate personal change."
How the "Infiltration" process presented in my body-mind-soul complex is described in many blogs - such as THe River of Light Revisited, Path Ordained By God - and more.

CLOSING REFLECTION

Based on first-hand experiences, I came to realize that everyone's God-given mind is capable of spiritual awakening. Was it the Buddha that said something like: Everyone has the lamp of mind, but it is necessary to light it so that it shines' - and once lit, it can't be hidden under the basket. It IS necessary to 'light it', because mentality cannot know its nature. It can only be known by the spiritualised mind.
Huston Smith affirms for us: "There is no way the finite is going to comprehend the Infinite on its own. It has to be the Infinite taking the initiative, and that is the meaning of Revelation."

Once this power of mental awakening has been awakened, it can be renewed and deepened without limit. . . Once one's eternal self Soul's awareness is awakened, the individual is capable of endless source of intuition, creativity and inspiration.
Performing the Will of the One Spirit is not an option for one who transcends all power offices to become one with the very source of all power. Individual who becomes humanity's servant doesn't wish to be seen - we want people to see the subtlety of meaning's significane couched within the written word, strike a resonating note with the hearer's mystic heart.

Our true vocation is to meet the world's great need. Our moral duty is to obey the inner call of our vocation by sharing Grace-bestowed testimonies and show that the Kosmic address we write from has a built-in, non-fail rigor built into its structure: This 'Structure' is built by the Supreme Intelligence and its Conscious Force. . .Our Intention is to inspire and uplift others by showing our Depth data's empirically verified Validity, is not a product of subconscious mind's dive into its dream-like formations, personal feelings, or psychotic breakdown. It is our duty to disclose we are more than what the Materialist would have us believe.

* This blog received the edit-improved treatment in 2026-10-06

The River of Light

                                               Introductory Note
Because the theme-subject of  the 'highest integration and fulfillment' is very complex, each post unpacks but a portion of what happens on the Path without a map.  .  . It is intensly complex, because it includes accounts of direct contacts with and direct experience of the Kosmic Essence-Energy and its Forces, direct contact/mind-melt with with the Kosmic Mind and first-hand perception of all domains of existence.
 This (edit-added)  opening statement  includes quotes from the Tibetan Buddhism perspective, and Sri Aurobindo's statement on  transformation/what needs to happen before one is ready for the Ultimate Erotic Union with the Supreme Beloved.
Will start by saying that only very recently I noticed  in The Tibetan Book of the Dead  (translated  by Robert A.F. Thurman),  that  my experience  of becoming/flowing  out of my Crown chakra as
'River of Light',  falls into the  highest of the perfection stages, category. The following excerpt is from the Glossary section:
Sanskrit yuganaddha is the Unexcelled Yoga Tantra name for Buddhahood, the fifth and highest of the perfection stages, indicating that relative and ultimate, individual and universal, body and mind, bliss and wisdom, male and female -- all dualities are integrated in this experience of fulfillment.

In one of my more recent posts titled: Second Coming, written in 2018, I wrote:
 "The state of being as limited being has ended for me and now I belong to the Glory in which I dwell as a function of the Divine in service to the Divine (and beings in all dimensions of creation)."
Both very different statements but their core meaning is identical (to me).
www.spiritspeaks-theofilia.blogspot.ca/2018/09/second-coming.html

In Aurobindo's (confirming)  words from The Life Divine, p. 956
For a real transformation there must be a direct and unveiled intervention from above;  there would be necessary too a total submission and surrender of the lower consciousness, a cessation of its insistence, a will in it for its separate law of action to be completely annulled by transformation and lose all rights over our being.
Exactly
Long time ago - long before I saw this statement -  in one of my posts unpacking 'Cosmic Tonglen Duty', I said something like:  'Strictly speaking  my body doesn't belong to me any more'.

*Edit-adding:  I searched and found that I wrote those words in The Bliss of Identity - written in 2013.
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Today, (May 2010) I came home with  library-borrowed the only Aurobindo book available in this library system titled, The Mind of Light. To this day each time I read something penned by him, I am surprised. . .For years I thought this man's work was way beyond my league, and wasn't even curious to see what his writing is about. This mindset changed when I allowed myself to get curious (the year I began writing here -2009).  Not initially, but once my brain got used to all those new terminologies, I discovered that:  "I already know this, because this happened to me!"
I didn't know anyone who was experiencing and writing (internet forums) about the things I did  (and claimed nothing), this is  it was exciting to finally have Sri A writing -  because it became really important for me to check/compare  my Soul level mystical/supramental Events, with someone  who  got plugged to the same Kosmic address -- the  domain of:   'I am absorbed in Celestial Samadhi lovingly attached to the Essence of the Supreme Beloved' (as well as all beings in the visible and invisible domains of creation).
This Kosmic address is reached when one is in permanent Samadhi state and the nervous/chakra system uncoils to infinity (thanks to awakened activity of Kundalini Shakti).
He confirmed this for me this, is why I named Aurobindo  my 'primary peer review person' (even before I read his autobiographical poems The Bliss of Brahman and The Bride of the Fire).
 I also resonate with Gopi Krishna's work. Long before I became somewhat familiar with his work, I already knew that  my mystical experiences were not the result of subconscious mind's dive into hallucinatory wish-fulfilling formations.
The following  excerpt is from Krishna's book titled: The Real Nature of Mystical Experience.

In every case of illumination, mere visionary experience is not sufficient. It must be attended by certain objective signs to confirm it.
It has to be remembered that in the mystical ecstasy the intellect remains active. There is no blunting of the rational faculty. This is repeatedly mentioned in the Upanishads. Reason has to be satisfied that the experience is not delusion. 
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(2010) Today I am bearing witness  to what  transpired  this AM hour during  Yogic/Deep Samadhi state which transcends sleep. .  .
 I was on my back with hands resting on mid-body. When my Bliss body's ecstasy has reached the critical mass-point, I  beheld with the eye of contemplation  (Spirit)  a vast sea of  diamond-white points of light morph into a 'solid'  River of Light . . .and its  endless'  flow (sublimated Erotic Potency/Shakti Light)  out of my  Crown chakra   into  the world's hologram via  subtle planes.
Words  can describe what happens, but they can never convey the full extent  of  what this type of experience/event is like -  including  its impact on all dimensions of creation. .  .
The Rig Veda seer didn't apologize for he/she received (God-Realization/Divine Revelation) and neither do I, because I know I earned it by fully submitting myself to the Supreme Divine. . .and then performing the Will of the Supreme Being:

By the Truth they (we)  hold the Truth that holds all,
in the power of the Sacrifice, in the supreme other.
- Rig Veda V.80.4
To reach this Kosmic station one must be in permanent Samadhi state. During the 11 to 13 hours  I spend in bed each day --   in a state of extremely intense Erotic ravishment-activity --  I am completely detached from 'feelings'  because I am in a state of Peace that passes human comprehension....Well,  except  for those very rare occasions when I return to my body abruptly and   feelings get involved.
Soul level Liberation is not well understood, this is why I have a moral obligation to write about it (by giving precise accounts of what happens on this Path during the myriad of Initiatory experiences).
 One who feels the Divine Presence and its governing Power manifesting through the body, understands perfectly its Nature as well as its action-influence in all domains of creation.
We also understand what the term:  'I have crossed the abode of life and death', signifies.  
Those who  submitted to Divine Will know, that at this stage-point in Soul evolution we are performing the Will of the one Spirit  in order to. . .
 ... effect a spiritual transformation and to bring down a divine nature and a divine life into the mental, vital and physical nature and life of humanity.  +  It is not personal  Ananda, but the bringing down of the divine-Ananda Christ's Kingdom of heaven, our Satyayuga - upon earth.
-  Sri Aurobindo

I am glad I read that the Upanishad lists ten ascending levels of bliss before one reaches the the Bliss of the Eternal Spirit  -- the  Supreme Sachichidananda (which is above Supermind) -- "and each level a hundredfold the intensity of the proceeding level".
I share my Depth data's revelations just like any other (ascended) Soul has done - no matter the tradition. We demonstrate that this  (evolutionary) Great Cosmic Power (Holy Spirit/Supreme Shakti)  flows into the world of Form for the benefit of all beings in all realms of existence, for the benefit of evolution of consciousness itself.
The Bhagavad Gita says that 'finding supreme ecstasy is the final goal'.  I learned  that basking in Blissananda, is not the final goal.  One whose Soul has fulfilled her ancient plan,  knows  that the  Final goal is Divine Labor. .  .The hardest job on the planet because we don't get 'time out'.
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My gratitude to the author of The Mind of Light, Sri Aurobindo, is immense -  it is my pleasure to include couple of quotes from chapter titled, The Divine Body.

"The new type, the divine body, must continue the already developed evolutionary form: there must be a continuation from the type Nature has all along been developing, a continuity from the human to the divine body, not breaking away to something unrecognizable but a high sequel to what has already been achieved and in part perfected. The human body has in its parts and instruments that have been sufficiently evolved to serve the divine life;  these have to survive in their form, though they must be still perfected, their limitations of range and use removed, their liability to defect and malady and impairment eliminated, their capacities of cognition and dynamic action carried beyond present limits.
New powers have to be acquired by the body which our present humanity could not hope to realize, could not even dream of or could only imagine.
Much that can now be known, worked our or created by the use of invented tools and machinery might be achieved by the new body in its own power or by the inhabitant spirit through its own direct spiritual force.
The body itself might acquire new means and ranges of communication with other bodies, new processes of acquiring knowledge, a new aestesis, new potency's of manipulation of itself and objects...
These and other numerous potentialities might appear and the body become an instrument immeasurably superior to what we can now imagine as possible. There could be an evolution from a first apprehending truth-consciousness to the utmost heights of the ascending ranges of supermind and it may pass borders of the supermind proper itself where it begins to shadow out, develop, delineate expressive forms of life touched by a supreme pure existence, consciousness and bliss which constituted the worlds of highest truth of existence, dynamism of Tapas, glory and sweetness of bliss, the absolute essence and pitch of all the all-creating Ananda.
The transformation of the physical being might follow the incessant line of progression and the divine body reflect or reproduce here in the divine life on the earth something of this highest greatness and glory of the self-manifesting Spirit".